To the Babe that Never Was

[kimith]

To the babe that never was,

I am sorry for so many things. I am sorry that I was so wrapped  up attempting to rule the city of chaos that I built, that I didn’t hear the gentle voice of intuition that may have alerted me that you were here. I am sorry that I never heard you sing or cry.

I am sorry that you will never be. You would have been loved.

Comments

[darkfiresnake]

I think I lost a baby before Rhi. On my birthday in 2008 I has the worst period ever... and bled a ton. I did not even suspect until towards the end of my pregnancy. And Im not even sure, but I was shaking and burping, pretty inocuous but wierded me out enough to go to the Dr and that is when I was diagnosed as hypothyroid. Then after the bad period all that stopped. Then I got pregnant with Rhi and had the same symptoms but did not make the connection right away.

Anyways, I think about this now and wonder... had I known that was a miscarrage at the time I might have made Gary get the vasectomy earlier and never had Rhiannon.

I havent mourned this possible baby because of that. The unknown of it let me have Rhiannon. Being diagnosed and treated for hypothyroid let me have Rhiannon.....Untreated hypothyroidism is bad for pregnancies.

Im sorry you are going through this now