4 Ficlets: Harry Potter - Bellatrix/Narcissa
Title: Fifty-thousand tears
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Wordcount: 220
Rating: PG
Challenge: 100songs: Evanescence - Going Under
Written for: irrlichtertanz
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Now I will tell you what I've done for you
Fifty-thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
~~~
“Do you even have ANY idea what I’ve been through?” Narcissa screams at the top of her lungs, doesn’t care in the slightest if anyone else than Bellatrix can hear her.
“Oh please,” her sister sneers at her. “What have you been through? One tea party here, one gathering there … Oh, I so feel for you.”
The sarcasm hurts Narcissa more than she could ever say. She wanted to tell Bellatrix everything that moved her, that she had missed her sister, that she had cried fifty-thousand tears for her, had laid awake every night thinking of her, worrying about her, thinking of ways to help …
That she had done things for her that went against all of her ways, her beliefs, and the Dark Mark on her left arm itches underneath her robe.
That she blamed her husband, that she hated him, couldn’t even bare the lightest affection because she hungered for the touch of another. Of her own sister.
But now looking into these well-known eyes Narcissa finds that it wouldn’t do anything good, that Bellatrix wouldn’t hear her - even if she screamed as loud as she can. Too much had happened, too much has changed. Over everything, Bellatrix herself.
So Narcissa turns her back on Bellatrix and walks away, before the other woman sees tear fifty-thousand-and-one.
Title: You left me
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Wordcount: 241
Rating: G
Challenge: 100songs: Evanescence - Going Under
Written for: irrlichtertanz
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Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
~~~
“So you think you can just leave and now come back as if nothing ever happened?” Bellatrix says bitterly and folds her hands so Narcissa doesn’t see them shake.
“Please, Bellatrix … I just want to talk to you. Don’t join the Death Eaters,” the blonde pleads and reaches out to touch her sister, but Bellatrix flinches and Narcissa lets her hand sink again.
“You left me. You left me behind,” Bellatrix accuses. “To marry him.”
“Bellatrix … this is not why I came,” Narcissa tries to reason with the other woman. “I’m here because I’m worried about you.”
“You didn’t worry about me when Lucius called and you came arunning.”
The blonde sighs and tries to fight the hurt. “I didn’t have a choice.”
“Yeah, you tell yourself that,” Bellatrix laughs bitterly, but then her laugh fades. “You had ANY choice!” she hisses. Narcissa had had the choice to visit Bellatrix, to keep her from depression, to keep her from feeling as lonely as never before in her life … to save her from the daily torment by their mother.
“And now I found someone who gave me back a reason to live, a meaning, you turn up at my door and think you have the right to talk to me? Save it. I don’t want your advice. Go back to your mansion.”
With that Bellatrix closes the door and shuts Narcissa out.
No, this time she will save herself.
Title: La Petite Mort
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Wordcount: 142
Rating: PG-13
Challenge: 100songs: Evanescence - Going Under
Written for: irrlichtertanz
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I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
~~~
Narcissa’s breath hitches in her throat as a heavy climax hits her body. She feels the blood rushing in her ears and her world turns upside down, and she doesn’t dare to breathe again. She wants to hold on to this beautiful darkness, wants to drown in it, wants to stay in this blissful oblivion and never want to wake up.
Because then she would look into the eyes of her sister, the one who brings her pleasure she’s never known, the one who brings her suffering she’s never known.
“Narcissa,” a soft voice soaks into her consciousness, lures her out of this ocean of serenity and makes her break the surface again.
And there they are, the hazel eyes of Bellatrix, looking at her lovingly with a smile that melts Narcissa’s worries away.
Narcissa returns the smile and continues to breathe.
Title: Voices in her head
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Wordcount: 194
Rating: PG
Challenge: 100songs: Evanescence - Going Under
Written for: irrlichtertanz
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Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
~~~
Narcissa sits in front of her mirror and looks at herself, tries to sort her thoughts. So much has happened these days, and the voice of her mother echoes through her mind.
“You have to take the offer, Narcissa, there won’t be a better partie than Lucius Malfoy.”
The blonde sighs as another voice mingles into this.
“You don’t love him, Narcissa. You should stay here, with me, with the one who loves you.”
Ghostly fingers caress her skin and Narcissa closes her eyes as phantom lips nibble at her flesh. A sigh escapes her lips.
“You know you love me, too.”
“You have to marry, Narcissa.”
“No, we’re sisters, we have to stick together, my dear.”
“Marry a Malfoy and honor the family.”
“Stay with me.”
“Narcissa, stay with me.”
The blonde’s eyes fly open and she sees the face of Bellatrix in the mirror, her wild hair touching Narcissa’s cheek as she bends over and whispers: “You’ll always stay with me, won’t you, love?”
Narcissa smiles and says: “Of course I will,” but what she doesn’t realize is that the only voice that didn’t echoe through her mind … was her own.
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Wordcount: 220
Rating: PG
Challenge: 100songs: Evanescence - Going Under
Written for: irrlichtertanz
~~~
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
Fifty-thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
~~~
“Do you even have ANY idea what I’ve been through?” Narcissa screams at the top of her lungs, doesn’t care in the slightest if anyone else than Bellatrix can hear her.
“Oh please,” her sister sneers at her. “What have you been through? One tea party here, one gathering there … Oh, I so feel for you.”
The sarcasm hurts Narcissa more than she could ever say. She wanted to tell Bellatrix everything that moved her, that she had missed her sister, that she had cried fifty-thousand tears for her, had laid awake every night thinking of her, worrying about her, thinking of ways to help …
That she had done things for her that went against all of her ways, her beliefs, and the Dark Mark on her left arm itches underneath her robe.
That she blamed her husband, that she hated him, couldn’t even bare the lightest affection because she hungered for the touch of another. Of her own sister.
But now looking into these well-known eyes Narcissa finds that it wouldn’t do anything good, that Bellatrix wouldn’t hear her - even if she screamed as loud as she can. Too much had happened, too much has changed. Over everything, Bellatrix herself.
So Narcissa turns her back on Bellatrix and walks away, before the other woman sees tear fifty-thousand-and-one.
Title: You left me
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Wordcount: 241
Rating: G
Challenge: 100songs: Evanescence - Going Under
Written for: irrlichtertanz
~~~
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
~~~
“So you think you can just leave and now come back as if nothing ever happened?” Bellatrix says bitterly and folds her hands so Narcissa doesn’t see them shake.
“Please, Bellatrix … I just want to talk to you. Don’t join the Death Eaters,” the blonde pleads and reaches out to touch her sister, but Bellatrix flinches and Narcissa lets her hand sink again.
“You left me. You left me behind,” Bellatrix accuses. “To marry him.”
“Bellatrix … this is not why I came,” Narcissa tries to reason with the other woman. “I’m here because I’m worried about you.”
“You didn’t worry about me when Lucius called and you came arunning.”
The blonde sighs and tries to fight the hurt. “I didn’t have a choice.”
“Yeah, you tell yourself that,” Bellatrix laughs bitterly, but then her laugh fades. “You had ANY choice!” she hisses. Narcissa had had the choice to visit Bellatrix, to keep her from depression, to keep her from feeling as lonely as never before in her life … to save her from the daily torment by their mother.
“And now I found someone who gave me back a reason to live, a meaning, you turn up at my door and think you have the right to talk to me? Save it. I don’t want your advice. Go back to your mansion.”
With that Bellatrix closes the door and shuts Narcissa out.
No, this time she will save herself.
Title: La Petite Mort
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Wordcount: 142
Rating: PG-13
Challenge: 100songs: Evanescence - Going Under
Written for: irrlichtertanz
~~~
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
~~~
Narcissa’s breath hitches in her throat as a heavy climax hits her body. She feels the blood rushing in her ears and her world turns upside down, and she doesn’t dare to breathe again. She wants to hold on to this beautiful darkness, wants to drown in it, wants to stay in this blissful oblivion and never want to wake up.
Because then she would look into the eyes of her sister, the one who brings her pleasure she’s never known, the one who brings her suffering she’s never known.
“Narcissa,” a soft voice soaks into her consciousness, lures her out of this ocean of serenity and makes her break the surface again.
And there they are, the hazel eyes of Bellatrix, looking at her lovingly with a smile that melts Narcissa’s worries away.
Narcissa returns the smile and continues to breathe.
Title: Voices in her head
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Wordcount: 194
Rating: PG
Challenge: 100songs: Evanescence - Going Under
Written for: irrlichtertanz
~~~
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
~~~
Narcissa sits in front of her mirror and looks at herself, tries to sort her thoughts. So much has happened these days, and the voice of her mother echoes through her mind.
“You have to take the offer, Narcissa, there won’t be a better partie than Lucius Malfoy.”
The blonde sighs as another voice mingles into this.
“You don’t love him, Narcissa. You should stay here, with me, with the one who loves you.”
Ghostly fingers caress her skin and Narcissa closes her eyes as phantom lips nibble at her flesh. A sigh escapes her lips.
“You know you love me, too.”
“You have to marry, Narcissa.”
“No, we’re sisters, we have to stick together, my dear.”
“Marry a Malfoy and honor the family.”
“Stay with me.”
“Narcissa, stay with me.”
The blonde’s eyes fly open and she sees the face of Bellatrix in the mirror, her wild hair touching Narcissa’s cheek as she bends over and whispers: “You’ll always stay with me, won’t you, love?”
Narcissa smiles and says: “Of course I will,” but what she doesn’t realize is that the only voice that didn’t echoe through her mind … was her own.