Things Forgotten, Almost

[kikuko_kamimura]

I've been reading a lot lately; at least compared to how little I have been in recent months. I blazed through Naamah's Kiss in less than 48 hours, and while I really did enjoy it, I had forgotten the odd sense of loss that the end of a good book brings

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[yasunoriko]

If only I could make that feeling last a little longer, though, that'd be nice, too.

I know exactly what you mean ^.^"

But don't worry about all of this too much, ok?
I... don't really know what I could tell you... Really...

Just... *hugs*

[kikuko_kamimura]

I'm sorry. I must be a terrible person to deal with!
Things are so much easier when all I do is post translations.

[yasunoriko]

COME ON~!
It's not what I mean~ *headdesk*

And yes, you're terrible and I'm masochist because I still try ^.^" Come on Honey, you're not terrible person! I'm much worse xD

I just don't know what I could possibly say to make you feel better, even if I'd love to. And as long as I won't be able to find something I'll just sent you stupid *hugs* 'cause you're not terrible, you're great and I want you to know that I'm with you, ok?

And sure, it's easier to write 'thaks for translation' but it's not BETTER. I WANT to read about you, how are you and how you're feeling. Even if I feel bad that I can't help.

I... I have no idea if you know what I mean but I hope so ^.^"

[kikuko_kamimura]

Yeah, I know...I'm sorry if it sounded harsh toward you.
I sincerely doubt you're a worse person, though! But I guess it's kind of a stupid argument to have in the first place, isn't it.

Thanks, though.

[macguillicutty]

But, the little girl inside me still wishes she was someone great. Someone like in the stories I grew up reading, with those loves that last forever.

I can really, really relate to that. I'm glad to hear that you've been able to recapture the escapism of books, though. That has gotten me through some rough times in the past.

And I'm sorry you feel lonely. That's a wretched sensation. :\

[kikuko_kamimura]

Yeah. I only wish there were more good ones that could do that for me. Unfortunately the one I started today is really slow going, and I'm hoping it picks up, because I desperately want it to be one of those ones I can get absorbed in. Maybe they just don't write books the way they used to, or if they do, it's impossible for me to find them, without a bookstore to browse about in. (I could read in Japanese if I wanted to, and sometimes I do, but that requires a whole different kind of concentration.)

As for feeling lonely, well...I'm sure I'll get used to it again. I'll never forget that one of the people I knew in college, when asked for one word to describe me, out of everything, 'lonely' was the one she chose. At first, I was angry, because I thought that I had to have some other, good quality that outweighed that...but, thinking on it now, maybe I am defined by my loneliness after all.

[macguillicutty]

I hope your newest book proves to be all you could hope for~ It sounds as though we probably have similar reading habits, just based on what I've seen you say. We should exchange favorites some time. ^^

It's unfortunate that anyone has to "get used" to feeling lonely, but it certainly happens all the time. Even in crowds. I know I often feel most lonely in groups. Perhaps life will surprise you and you won't have to re-acclimate to loneliness, after all. Stranger things have happened...

[kikuko_kamimura]

Thank you! We should really do that, yeah. I'm always looking for books I haven't read that aren't lame; I'm a lot more cautious now than I used to be, just because buying any book in English here is more than a little bit of an investment.

Yeah, I'm the same way. I remember that Soseki said something like that nothing is lonelier than being on a crowded train.

I hope that I don't have to feel lonely as much! I always feel like I'm burdening the few friends I do have because of it; I mean, it's not like I'm completely incapable of getting by on my own, after all.

[yay_cupcakes]

Late comment is late!

Nothing makes you realize quite how lonely you are until you're so, so happy that the lady at the convenience store feels as if she knows you well enough to give a passing damn about you.

Oh my, I know what you mean. I've been there. It's also sad when you go to the store when you don't really need/have any money for anything, but you go there anyway just so someone knows you exist. And for a few brief shining moments, it's like you have a friend.

I wish I had something to offer up other than "I hope things get better for you". Cuz I know it doesn't help. But I do hope they do, because even though I don't actually *know* you, I do give a damn. ♥

And you've reminded me how long it's been since I've read a GOOD book. I'm breezing through a series a girl at work lent me, and realized yesterday I don't give a shit about any of the people in the books. It's just something to read in the break room to keep people from talking to me. :/ I miss that feeling of being completely absorbed in a really good book.

[kikuko_kamimura]

Yeah, exactly. I feel as if I'm starting to understand why people go to host clubs, and spend so much money to do it. There's a point where it doesn't matter how artificial the affection is, or if it's affection toward your money...if you feel that starved of it, you'll take whatever you can get.

I highly recommend the Kushiel series! The author also has a handy dandy website for telling you which order they go in, since there are a lot of books. But it's so good, and remains so (or at least has so far through the first seven).

I was so disappointed by the book I ended up reading after this one; eventually I realized that I was just reading it to say I had, and because I had absolutely nothing else to read or do. I was hoping for the best, as I said, because of the consistently good reviews it had gotten, but...sigh.

[placetohide]

zomg don't spoil anything in the book!

I am still on the first book of the series! I have been putting off finishing reading it because it's so awesome, and I haven't been able to find any of the later books, so I don't want to finish it yet...

[kikuko_kamimura]

No worries, no spoilers here!

The books that are out in paperback are actually pretty much what you would pay for them in the states over on Amazon.jp, and if you get enough of them free shipping can be yours. If you're still on the first book, you've still got six more to go before where I'm at, which is either caving and buying the latest one in hardcover or waiting for the paperback then holding out for the last book in the third trilogy. I have three of the books here, but unfortunately they're number 5 through seven, so if you get to that point at least I'll be glad to lend them to you...but until then I'm not much help. =(