Pealing paint(KaixUruha, Oneshot)
Title: Pealing paint
Author: Mizuki
Chapter: Oneshot
Theme: III.11 pealing paint
Claim: Kai x Uruha(Gazette)
Pairing(s): Kai x Uruha (No clear mentions of seme and uke.)
Genre: Angst
Ratings: PG
Warnings: Not beta-readed
Disclaimer: The story is mine but all fiction, and I don't own the Gazette...
Notes: Written for the challenge comm
4seasons_rabu
Written during my christmas break, I kinda forgot it untill now. I hope you guys like it^^
Summary:
Nothing lasts forever. Even untouchable things like memories or feelings, there will be a day it’ll all be forgotten
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Who could have guessed that things would end like this?
I know I didn’t. But some where in the back of my mind, I knew that things wouldn’t last forever. It was just too naïve to believe in forever. Because nothing lasts forever.
Even untouchable things like memories or feelings, there will be a day it’ll all be forgotten.
I stare at my hand, folded on my lap as silent tears stream down my cheeks.
“Kai…”Uruha starts, moving forward to me but I shake my head.
“Please…don’t…” I choke out, I can’t handle him touching me, I can’t handle him saying my name with so much emotion. I used to love the way my name sounded from his lips. But right now it’s just another knife stabbing into my heart.
From the corner of my eyes I can see him sit down back on the couch opposite of me with a sigh. His expression is one of guilt, hurt and sadness. I feel slightly guilty for making him feel like this, even though I know I shouldn’t. It’s him who started it, him who hurts me worse, he who deserves to hurt more. I really shouldn’t. More tears fill my eyes and I look down again.
No words are spoken between us and I have to admit, I’m glad for that. I don’t even want to know why he’s doing this, why he’s hurting us like this. I don’t want to know if his heart belongs to another. I don’t want to know anything and for now, I just want to forget.
I slowly close my eyes. Seeing him hurts too, for I know it’ll be the last time I’ll see him. It’s not a memory I’d like to cherish. I can tell you that much.
I always hoped my last memory of him would be the best of all, but, obviously, it’s not.
Sounds from outside fill my ears. A car passing by, rain softly trickling down the window and now and then a gust of wind making the tree’s whisper.
All so peaceful, a contrast to this room, where a heavy silence weights on us, none of us caring to break it. But at least, these sounds from outside put me a bit at ease, comfort my broken soul.
A sudden sound startles me and I look up. Only to see Uruha standing in front of me. And before I can say anything, he leans forward and places a delicate kiss on my lips. I can’t help but lean into the familiar feeling of his lips against mine, but unlike any other time, more tears start to fall down. For I know, this is our farewell kiss. The very last time I’ll feel his lips on mine.
I feel weird, one side of me wants to push him away and tell him that he really wants this to end he should stop torturing me and go already, but the other side wants to cling to him and hold onto this familiar feelings just a little bit longer, not wanting to believe it’s really over.
“I’ll always love you, my dear Kai” And with that said, he strokes away a few tears and stands up again. Soon new tears replace the stroked away ones as he makes his way to the door.
“Sayonara” The sound of the door opening and closing tells me that, this was it. It’s really over now and he’s not coming back.
“Liar” I choke out as late reply. There’s no always, there’s no forever. And if he really still loved me, he wouldn’t leave me. He wouldn’t hurt me like this. Liar…
My eyes fall back on my folded hands, the black nail polish is wearing off and I guess that soon I’ll need to remove the last remains and repaint them.
Maybe life is like that. Maybe a life is like an blank wall. You’ll color it and after sometime you need to remove the old paint and add a new layer. Forget and start over again.
I nod to no one in particular as I stand up, making my way towards the door. I turn of the light and exit the building.
“Sayonara Uruha…”I whisper even though he can’t hear me.
Tears are still straining my cheeks and I still feel broken up inside. It will take a while before I’ll be able to repaint the walls of my soul.
But I know that nothing lasts forever. Not the good things, not the bad things.
My walls can’t be covered in old paint forever.
Someday…
Someday they’ll get a new fresh color. But until that day comes, I’ll just have to peal the paint to make it ready for that one day.
Someday in the future.
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End
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Author: Mizuki
Chapter: Oneshot
Theme: III.11 pealing paint
Claim: Kai x Uruha(Gazette)
Pairing(s): Kai x Uruha (No clear mentions of seme and uke.)
Genre: Angst
Ratings: PG
Warnings: Not beta-readed
Disclaimer: The story is mine but all fiction, and I don't own the Gazette...
Notes: Written for the challenge comm
4seasons_rabu
Written during my christmas break, I kinda forgot it untill now. I hope you guys like it^^
Summary:
Nothing lasts forever. Even untouchable things like memories or feelings, there will be a day it’ll all be forgotten
~~~~~~
Who could have guessed that things would end like this?
I know I didn’t. But some where in the back of my mind, I knew that things wouldn’t last forever. It was just too naïve to believe in forever. Because nothing lasts forever.
Even untouchable things like memories or feelings, there will be a day it’ll all be forgotten.
I stare at my hand, folded on my lap as silent tears stream down my cheeks.
“Kai…”Uruha starts, moving forward to me but I shake my head.
“Please…don’t…” I choke out, I can’t handle him touching me, I can’t handle him saying my name with so much emotion. I used to love the way my name sounded from his lips. But right now it’s just another knife stabbing into my heart.
From the corner of my eyes I can see him sit down back on the couch opposite of me with a sigh. His expression is one of guilt, hurt and sadness. I feel slightly guilty for making him feel like this, even though I know I shouldn’t. It’s him who started it, him who hurts me worse, he who deserves to hurt more. I really shouldn’t. More tears fill my eyes and I look down again.
No words are spoken between us and I have to admit, I’m glad for that. I don’t even want to know why he’s doing this, why he’s hurting us like this. I don’t want to know if his heart belongs to another. I don’t want to know anything and for now, I just want to forget.
I slowly close my eyes. Seeing him hurts too, for I know it’ll be the last time I’ll see him. It’s not a memory I’d like to cherish. I can tell you that much.
I always hoped my last memory of him would be the best of all, but, obviously, it’s not.
Sounds from outside fill my ears. A car passing by, rain softly trickling down the window and now and then a gust of wind making the tree’s whisper.
All so peaceful, a contrast to this room, where a heavy silence weights on us, none of us caring to break it. But at least, these sounds from outside put me a bit at ease, comfort my broken soul.
A sudden sound startles me and I look up. Only to see Uruha standing in front of me. And before I can say anything, he leans forward and places a delicate kiss on my lips. I can’t help but lean into the familiar feeling of his lips against mine, but unlike any other time, more tears start to fall down. For I know, this is our farewell kiss. The very last time I’ll feel his lips on mine.
I feel weird, one side of me wants to push him away and tell him that he really wants this to end he should stop torturing me and go already, but the other side wants to cling to him and hold onto this familiar feelings just a little bit longer, not wanting to believe it’s really over.
“I’ll always love you, my dear Kai” And with that said, he strokes away a few tears and stands up again. Soon new tears replace the stroked away ones as he makes his way to the door.
“Sayonara” The sound of the door opening and closing tells me that, this was it. It’s really over now and he’s not coming back.
“Liar” I choke out as late reply. There’s no always, there’s no forever. And if he really still loved me, he wouldn’t leave me. He wouldn’t hurt me like this. Liar…
My eyes fall back on my folded hands, the black nail polish is wearing off and I guess that soon I’ll need to remove the last remains and repaint them.
Maybe life is like that. Maybe a life is like an blank wall. You’ll color it and after sometime you need to remove the old paint and add a new layer. Forget and start over again.
I nod to no one in particular as I stand up, making my way towards the door. I turn of the light and exit the building.
“Sayonara Uruha…”I whisper even though he can’t hear me.
Tears are still straining my cheeks and I still feel broken up inside. It will take a while before I’ll be able to repaint the walls of my soul.
But I know that nothing lasts forever. Not the good things, not the bad things.
My walls can’t be covered in old paint forever.
Someday…
Someday they’ll get a new fresh color. But until that day comes, I’ll just have to peal the paint to make it ready for that one day.
Someday in the future.
~~~~~~
End
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Comments are appreciated!
Take a look at my Fanfic-archive