self injury

[kharmanova]

some days i'm a real girl. i sit like a girl, i talk like a girl, i walk like a girl. i smile and say all the things you want to hear me say. i laugh at all your jokes. i'm the perfect girl.

only that

i'm not

i want to make a real difference in this world - i want to be an example of what not to become - i want to see someone live free, to love free,

Comments

[kharmanova]

thanks dear. i didn't cut and haven't cut in a little over 2 months - it's just hard sometimes. thanks for the support. xo

I gave Buddha my cigarettes today

[brokenmaiden]

This is why we want to hurt ourselves (in whatever way we do it): "The thought of pain intrigues me."

We are all addicted to our own suffering. Since we've never had real, true happiness (and missed out on the semi-happiness of childhood) we quite literally don't know anything else. Pain is all we have, and our mind recreates it over and over again.

It's hard to change the habits of a lifetime and the paths in our minds that we've built with our suffering. Not cutting is the first step to not being addicted to your suffering - and therefore the first step towards not inflicting unnecessary suffering on your self.

I know it's super difficult, but I think you can do it.

Re: I gave Buddha my cigarettes today

[kharmanova]

Thank you for your wise advice that you always give - sometimes I'm not so much of sound mind and then other times I'm crystal clear. Thanks again, love you!