Pathetic... thats what I am.

[kellbellamamma]

okay... I vented before to Taylor[my lover bunny hehe] but I figure... why not vent to all of my lj buddies?

You know what sucks? and whats completely pathetic? I envy movies ... [god this is pathetic]... but still... I envy the people in movies. the endings always turning out SO perfect. They are programmed so perfectly that every movie is

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[beauty___dies]

yea i know how you feel
i hate it when people bull shit me
with lies and dont tell me the truth straight
up like i do to them.TELL ME THE TRUTH ALL THE TIME.
♥

[kellbellamamma]

exactly. exactly. exactly. EXACTLY. I hate it sooo very much. but whatever. some people no matter how hard u try to get them to tell you the truth will be like hmmm. YOUR OPINIONS ARE MINE EXACTLY! and shit its blah. I need to sleep. =/ ♥

[anonymous]

join ____x___radical

[kellbellamamma]

who is this? I was thinking about joining I dunno *shrug*

[kellbellamamma]

ooo its taylor haha you scared me... skank!

[xx_brown_eyes_x]

i totally agree with everything you said. i'm beginning to hate movies cuz it's just not fair.

I will miss you...

[kellbellamamma]

me too... exactly. I love you shelby and I will miss you

[__cancerouskiss]

the pictures of my boyfriend cheating on me are on some redneck named mike's cell phone

[kellbellamamma]

gay redneck haha.... yeah I see what you are saying. and I dont think the devil was trying to get me to commit suicide and stuff... I just was really depressed I miss people, and usually im optomistic and say hey look at the brightside... but I feel like I could be really sick and he wouldnt care... or know ...I just really miss josh and I miss all of my friends and its depressing not to have all of them with me... i dunno... im kind of wallowing in my own pity and I understand how stupid I sound... believe me. I do. and I know that God is there for me, I just felt like ranting b/c I feel like my inside is having a breakdown. I just figured my friends would understand like they always do... =/ thank you for telling me how you feel. it helps me put things into perspective. and thank you michelle for being a true friend and telling me straight up. HULA HOOPS OF DESTRUCTION TOM. BITCHES AND HOES.... and I would love to go to your church sometime. It sounds inspiring! =D
I love you!
♥

[__cancerouskiss]

depression isn't you, its the devil reminding you of things that make you sad. i didn't mean he was trying to get you to commit suicide, i mean he was just trying to bring you down and make you sad. he makes you believe things just suck and thats how it is and theres nothign else to do besides be sad because everythign sucks, but its not like that..& you don't have to live with that feeling. :/ i wish people could see things like i do, because their lives would be so much easier and they wouldn't have to struggle with alot of things they struggle with. you don't sound stupid at all, everyone feels that exact same way at times. sorry if i don't understand, but to me the answer is always obvious because He's always there for anyone & demons coware in his presence..and i'm sorry you don't feel that way. sometimes i just wish some of my friends [besides anthony] would know how good it feels to always have Him there to deliver you through anything. & i know you're like "SHUTTUP I'M CHRISTIAN/CATHOLIC" but it's not enough to brand yourself

[eat_your_meat]

u can call me kris anytime! lol kristina is too long

[kellbellamamma]

haha I love you Kris! ooo we need to hang out soon SKANK! wootwoot I LOVE YOU!
♥