I Knew You Were Trouble (masterpost) (Chapter 8)
Title: I Knew You Were Trouble
Pairing: Jack Barakat/Alex Gaskarth(JALEX)
POV>: 3rd
Summary: I think, I think when it’s all over it just comes back in flashes, you know. It’s like a kaleidoscope of memories, but it just all comes back. But he never does. I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. It’s not really anything he said, or anything he did, it was the feeling that came along with it. And, the crazy thing is, I don’t know if I am ever going to feel that way again, but I don’t know if I should. I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright, but I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you towards someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you. Maybe he knew that, when he saw me. I guess I just lost my balance. I think that the worst part of it all wasn’t losing him, it was losing me. I don’t know if you know who you are until you lose who you are.
Warning: non-con smut. highschool!AU. smut. age difference. rape
Disclaimer: MATT FLYZIK IS MINE SO YOU CAN ALL F*CK OFF :)) Lol kidding. This story is just as fake as Nicki Minaj's butt. Ew.
Title Cred: I Knew You Were Trouble -- Taylor Swift
Summary Cred: Intro of I Knew You Were Trouble MTV <3 You guys should watch it.
YES I'M LISTENING TO TAYLOR SWIFT. JUDGE ME. XD
A week has passed with a blur. Alex spending more time in his apartment. Jack was trying-and failing- to avoid Alex as much as he could. But the younger boy knocks on his door almost every night, and Jack could just not say no. Seeing the broken boy in front of him.
Jack has been feeding Alex lies whenever the younger would just have a breakdown whenever they're cuddling on Jack's couch. But one night, that one night just scared Jack to the extent of sending Alex out when the younger needs him most.
"J-jack... it seems.. that I think, I think I could trust you with anything." Alex spoke in between sobs. He had a breakdown in his apartment, and instead of turning to alcohol and razor blades, he went to Jack just like every other night.
"Of course you can, Alex. You know I'm always gonna be here when you need me." Another lie. But it wouldn't hurt Jack to try.
"I need to tell you something. Please, let me finish. Okay?"
"Okay."
"Wh-when I was a kid, I was a stubborn and hard-headed kid, as my mom liked to say it. Well, I was 12 years old then, my mom a-and I.. fuck.." Alex choked on sobs and tears began to stream violently down his cheeks again. But he continued. "...my mom and I... we went to a, sort of, like a garage sale downtown. We.. well, I was a kid then, I didn't know the consequences that could happen then... Me, I saw a shop across the street from the garage sale, and I... my mom told me to never leave her side.. but, I did.. I still did and that was the biggest mistake that I've ever done in my life Jack.." Alex was a sobbing mess now.
And all Jack could do was listen, knowing well where this story was going. Knowing exactly how this was gonna end. Full details of what happened.
"I-i went to that bike shop, a-and.. and there was a man... A man, with black hair... lanky figure, much like you Jacky..." Alex smiled sadly at Jack, trying to lighten the mood.
Nothing could even bring light to what was next to the story.
"he asked me if I wanted to learn something about the bikes. Of course i did, i was a kid, Jack. I'm oblivious... so he took me inside... a-and made me promise that.... i have to do anything he w-wants... so he could show me the bikes. I-i said yes... Jack, you should've seen the room inside there.. i-it was... creepy.. if I think about it now... chainsaws and other tools just hanging around the wall. The fucking lights were flicking on and off.. I sh-should've seen it coming..."
Jack wanted to throw up. If the scenario in his mind was bad, the way Alex tells the story in his head was fucking horrible. He couldn't imagine how terrified Alex was right now. Broken and fragile. Completely oblivious to the fact that he was sitting and cuddling next to the man in his story.
"But I was a kid, then. I didn't know... Jack, fuck... he tied me up.. he fucking tied me up and shoved a cloth in my mouth to muffle my screams. He... he undressed me... and.." Alex was just crying his eyes out and clutching to Jack's soaking shirt like it would save his life.
"Lex... you don't need to..."
"No! Let me finish.. I-i can't keep this to m-myself anymore."
Jack could only just nod.
"He-he forced... he forced himself inside me.... I could.. I could never imagine my... my first time to be like that... fuck.. it felt horrible... i felt like being ripped apart... literally..."
Alex could barely even breathe anymore. But the soothing of Jack and the whispering of sweet nothings made him relaxed. He felt safe.
"I was raped, Jack... My innocence w-was taken away from me by some fucking nasty druggie man. I was violated. He did things to m-me that was against my w-will.. And... and I couldn't even say no... Even when I did... He won't s-stop.. Jack... oh god..." Alex buried his face on his palms. Sobbing uncontrollably.
"He won't stop Jack... a-and when he did... he.. fuck.. he came inside me, Jack.. I fucking felt it!"
Jack could just throw up after that. He felt disgusted with himself. The next thing that Alex said, he just couldn't help it. He needs to send Alex out so he could puke his guts out.
"In that moment, Jack... I was a kid.. but... That moment when I felt his seed inside me... I wished to whoever's up there... I wished I could just die.. Hoping that the man would fucking hit me hard enough to kill me.. but he let me live. I hope he just didn't... I wished he just let me bleed to death in that room."
Jack couldn't contain it anymore. Not when Alex looked at him.
"I need to show you something. Jack..."
Without waiting for a response from Jack. The younger boy lifted his shirt, revealing deep, healing scars and fresh cuts. It wasn't a sight for Jack. It just made him more sick to his stomach he had to stand up and push Alex away.
"A-alex.. you need to leave. Please." Jack choked. Holding his hands to his mouth. Forcing himself to refrain from gagging in front of the boy.
"W-what?" Alex was shocked to see Jack react like that. His jaw was hanging low and his eyes came more tears he didn't know he could still have.
"Leave. Alex. I need you to leave. Just get the hell outta here!" Jack yelled, making Alex flinch.
"Fine! You fucking asshole! I though you were different. You were just like everyone else! Rot in hell douchebag!"
And just like that, Alex was standing up and headed towards the door. Before he spoke just one more time.
"I just spilled my whole life to you. I thought you were always there for me. Guess not. See you at school, asshole."
He was gone.
Once the door was closed all the way. Jack ran to the bathroom and hung his head to the toilet, gagging his intestines out. As if it could take away all the filthy deeds he did when he was young. The gruesome things he did to Alex. It was horrifying to hear Alex's point of view in things.
And the worst part was... Alex wished he was just dead.
Pairing: Jack Barakat/Alex Gaskarth(JALEX)
POV>: 3rd
Summary: I think, I think when it’s all over it just comes back in flashes, you know. It’s like a kaleidoscope of memories, but it just all comes back. But he never does. I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. It’s not really anything he said, or anything he did, it was the feeling that came along with it. And, the crazy thing is, I don’t know if I am ever going to feel that way again, but I don’t know if I should. I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright, but I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you towards someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you. Maybe he knew that, when he saw me. I guess I just lost my balance. I think that the worst part of it all wasn’t losing him, it was losing me. I don’t know if you know who you are until you lose who you are.
Warning: non-con smut. highschool!AU. smut. age difference. rape
Disclaimer: MATT FLYZIK IS MINE SO YOU CAN ALL F*CK OFF :)) Lol kidding. This story is just as fake as Nicki Minaj's butt. Ew.
Title Cred: I Knew You Were Trouble -- Taylor Swift
Summary Cred: Intro of I Knew You Were Trouble MTV <3 You guys should watch it.
YES I'M LISTENING TO TAYLOR SWIFT. JUDGE ME. XD
A week has passed with a blur. Alex spending more time in his apartment. Jack was trying-and failing- to avoid Alex as much as he could. But the younger boy knocks on his door almost every night, and Jack could just not say no. Seeing the broken boy in front of him.
Jack has been feeding Alex lies whenever the younger would just have a breakdown whenever they're cuddling on Jack's couch. But one night, that one night just scared Jack to the extent of sending Alex out when the younger needs him most.
"J-jack... it seems.. that I think, I think I could trust you with anything." Alex spoke in between sobs. He had a breakdown in his apartment, and instead of turning to alcohol and razor blades, he went to Jack just like every other night.
"Of course you can, Alex. You know I'm always gonna be here when you need me." Another lie. But it wouldn't hurt Jack to try.
"I need to tell you something. Please, let me finish. Okay?"
"Okay."
"Wh-when I was a kid, I was a stubborn and hard-headed kid, as my mom liked to say it. Well, I was 12 years old then, my mom a-and I.. fuck.." Alex choked on sobs and tears began to stream violently down his cheeks again. But he continued. "...my mom and I... we went to a, sort of, like a garage sale downtown. We.. well, I was a kid then, I didn't know the consequences that could happen then... Me, I saw a shop across the street from the garage sale, and I... my mom told me to never leave her side.. but, I did.. I still did and that was the biggest mistake that I've ever done in my life Jack.." Alex was a sobbing mess now.
And all Jack could do was listen, knowing well where this story was going. Knowing exactly how this was gonna end. Full details of what happened.
"I-i went to that bike shop, a-and.. and there was a man... A man, with black hair... lanky figure, much like you Jacky..." Alex smiled sadly at Jack, trying to lighten the mood.
Nothing could even bring light to what was next to the story.
"he asked me if I wanted to learn something about the bikes. Of course i did, i was a kid, Jack. I'm oblivious... so he took me inside... a-and made me promise that.... i have to do anything he w-wants... so he could show me the bikes. I-i said yes... Jack, you should've seen the room inside there.. i-it was... creepy.. if I think about it now... chainsaws and other tools just hanging around the wall. The fucking lights were flicking on and off.. I sh-should've seen it coming..."
Jack wanted to throw up. If the scenario in his mind was bad, the way Alex tells the story in his head was fucking horrible. He couldn't imagine how terrified Alex was right now. Broken and fragile. Completely oblivious to the fact that he was sitting and cuddling next to the man in his story.
"But I was a kid, then. I didn't know... Jack, fuck... he tied me up.. he fucking tied me up and shoved a cloth in my mouth to muffle my screams. He... he undressed me... and.." Alex was just crying his eyes out and clutching to Jack's soaking shirt like it would save his life.
"Lex... you don't need to..."
"No! Let me finish.. I-i can't keep this to m-myself anymore."
Jack could only just nod.
"He-he forced... he forced himself inside me.... I could.. I could never imagine my... my first time to be like that... fuck.. it felt horrible... i felt like being ripped apart... literally..."
Alex could barely even breathe anymore. But the soothing of Jack and the whispering of sweet nothings made him relaxed. He felt safe.
"I was raped, Jack... My innocence w-was taken away from me by some fucking nasty druggie man. I was violated. He did things to m-me that was against my w-will.. And... and I couldn't even say no... Even when I did... He won't s-stop.. Jack... oh god..." Alex buried his face on his palms. Sobbing uncontrollably.
"He won't stop Jack... a-and when he did... he.. fuck.. he came inside me, Jack.. I fucking felt it!"
Jack could just throw up after that. He felt disgusted with himself. The next thing that Alex said, he just couldn't help it. He needs to send Alex out so he could puke his guts out.
"In that moment, Jack... I was a kid.. but... That moment when I felt his seed inside me... I wished to whoever's up there... I wished I could just die.. Hoping that the man would fucking hit me hard enough to kill me.. but he let me live. I hope he just didn't... I wished he just let me bleed to death in that room."
Jack couldn't contain it anymore. Not when Alex looked at him.
"I need to show you something. Jack..."
Without waiting for a response from Jack. The younger boy lifted his shirt, revealing deep, healing scars and fresh cuts. It wasn't a sight for Jack. It just made him more sick to his stomach he had to stand up and push Alex away.
"A-alex.. you need to leave. Please." Jack choked. Holding his hands to his mouth. Forcing himself to refrain from gagging in front of the boy.
"W-what?" Alex was shocked to see Jack react like that. His jaw was hanging low and his eyes came more tears he didn't know he could still have.
"Leave. Alex. I need you to leave. Just get the hell outta here!" Jack yelled, making Alex flinch.
"Fine! You fucking asshole! I though you were different. You were just like everyone else! Rot in hell douchebag!"
And just like that, Alex was standing up and headed towards the door. Before he spoke just one more time.
"I just spilled my whole life to you. I thought you were always there for me. Guess not. See you at school, asshole."
He was gone.
Once the door was closed all the way. Jack ran to the bathroom and hung his head to the toilet, gagging his intestines out. As if it could take away all the filthy deeds he did when he was young. The gruesome things he did to Alex. It was horrifying to hear Alex's point of view in things.
And the worst part was... Alex wished he was just dead.