{Shades of Blue Extra 1
Title: Shades of Blue
Chapter: Extra 1
Author: Me! Diana
Genre: Romance, Suspense?
Originally Posted: February 4, 2009
Rating: PG
Pairing: Keito x OC (friendship)
Disclaimer: I own everyone and you rule Mars.
Summary: A diary excerpt from my OC's diary.
From the Diary of Ami Fujioka
The day he left.
September 14, 2007
Dear diary,
I remember it clearly, the day he, of all the people in England, left. It was 1 year and 5 months ago that he departed. 1 month after he joined Johnny's Entertainment.
It was an ordinary spring day, flowers bloomed, bugs buzzed, and the sun beat down on our backs. Spring. The season where, in England, it was to warm for a heavy jacket, but not warm enough to leave the house without one. It was a perfect day for fun; a Saturday. But this one changed my life, for he left me, his best friend, behind.
It was like any ordinary day, Keito came over to my house and we did the usual things. Watch movies, snacks included, played billiards, and called my cousin Hideki, who was currently living in Japan at the moment. I have never met him in real life, but every week I would call him. And after our usual Saturday morning routine, Keito wanted to go to the park and up to the hill where we would always have our summer picnics. It was there; the place I will never forget.
I thought we were just going to have an unexpected picnic lunch, which I should’ve known that they were as routine as school, so I quickly ran into the kitchen. But before I could raid my cabinets for some food, Keito called after me saying, “You don’t need to bring anything.” I responded in a questionable tone, “Why?” He simply said “Trust me.” And so I did. The only thing I brought with me was my 12-year-old dressed self and a light jacket. It could still be a bit chilly in spring.
When we got to the top of the hill, he suddenly stopped and turned to me. He began speaking in a tone I had never heard him use before. Even though I was a child then, I could sense the sadness in his voice. The conversation began with Keito just telling the truth. Some people, well most people, wouldn’t know that he wasn’t the kind of person to “beat around the bush,” so he just said it to me the way it was. It kind of went something like this.
“You’re my best friend Ami, so I’m just going to say it okay?”
“…’kay?” I was puzzled. I kept wondering to myself, what’s going on?
“I’m moving.”
“W-what? Where?”
“I’m moving… back to Japan.”
“Huh? Why?”
“My dad… got another job there.”
“Oh… I see.”
“Yeah, it kind of sucks.”
“Kind of? It really sucks, don’t kid yourself.” I looked up at him with what I thought were my fierce eyes, but then, I looked back down to look at my sneakers.
“Fine, it really sucks.”
There was a moment of silence, as I absorbed all this information. Especially the fact that he was moving; really moving, far away. I could feel the tears beginning to brim my eyes, threatening to spill and fall down my cheeks. I held them back, but I knew I couldn’t last, they had to come sometime. The harder I tried, the more I wanted to collapse and cry and scream like there was no tomorrow.
Then I realized the truth. I realized, at that moment, my life had centered on our friendship. And that, maybe, it was time to let him go. And in that same instance, I knew for sure, that I was in love with him, but I would never have the chance to tell him, for other things began to spill out of my mouth, which I couldn’t control. Our conversation started up once again, except there was a sad felling in the air. I could even feel the tension building and the hairs on my arm began to stand up.
“Do you really have to go?” I asked, looking up with my sad eyes. I could tell he saw the tears streaming down my face, since he choked on his answer.
“Yes, I do. I- I’m sorry.”
“But will you come back?” I had hope, but I knew deep down that that wasn’t possible.
“I- I’m not sure.”
We both took deep sighs, trying to relieve the sadness that was now flowing through our veins.
“I’m going to miss you.”
“I’m gonna miss you too.”
Saying those last words, Keito swiftly kissed me on the cheek and left. When I watched with tear blurred eyes, I could see him wipe his tears away with his long-sleeved shirt. The tears he didn’t want me to see.
The day after that, my mom called me into the living room and said that Keito and his family boarded the airplane safely and that they should be taking off within a few short minutes or so.
From that moment on, I’ve always felt like something was missing and maybe, it was true love. But I never had the chance to tell him, for he was gone the moment I realized it. That maybe, we are meant for each other. Or maybe, he’s better off not knowing. Oh god, I miss him so much…
- Ami Fujioka
Chapter: Extra 1
Author: Me! Diana
Genre: Romance, Suspense?
Originally Posted: February 4, 2009
Rating: PG
Pairing: Keito x OC (friendship)
Disclaimer: I own everyone and you rule Mars.
Summary: A diary excerpt from my OC's diary.
From the Diary of Ami Fujioka
The day he left.
September 14, 2007
Dear diary,
I remember it clearly, the day he, of all the people in England, left. It was 1 year and 5 months ago that he departed. 1 month after he joined Johnny's Entertainment.
It was an ordinary spring day, flowers bloomed, bugs buzzed, and the sun beat down on our backs. Spring. The season where, in England, it was to warm for a heavy jacket, but not warm enough to leave the house without one. It was a perfect day for fun; a Saturday. But this one changed my life, for he left me, his best friend, behind.
It was like any ordinary day, Keito came over to my house and we did the usual things. Watch movies, snacks included, played billiards, and called my cousin Hideki, who was currently living in Japan at the moment. I have never met him in real life, but every week I would call him. And after our usual Saturday morning routine, Keito wanted to go to the park and up to the hill where we would always have our summer picnics. It was there; the place I will never forget.
I thought we were just going to have an unexpected picnic lunch, which I should’ve known that they were as routine as school, so I quickly ran into the kitchen. But before I could raid my cabinets for some food, Keito called after me saying, “You don’t need to bring anything.” I responded in a questionable tone, “Why?” He simply said “Trust me.” And so I did. The only thing I brought with me was my 12-year-old dressed self and a light jacket. It could still be a bit chilly in spring.
When we got to the top of the hill, he suddenly stopped and turned to me. He began speaking in a tone I had never heard him use before. Even though I was a child then, I could sense the sadness in his voice. The conversation began with Keito just telling the truth. Some people, well most people, wouldn’t know that he wasn’t the kind of person to “beat around the bush,” so he just said it to me the way it was. It kind of went something like this.
“You’re my best friend Ami, so I’m just going to say it okay?”
“…’kay?” I was puzzled. I kept wondering to myself, what’s going on?
“I’m moving.”
“W-what? Where?”
“I’m moving… back to Japan.”
“Huh? Why?”
“My dad… got another job there.”
“Oh… I see.”
“Yeah, it kind of sucks.”
“Kind of? It really sucks, don’t kid yourself.” I looked up at him with what I thought were my fierce eyes, but then, I looked back down to look at my sneakers.
“Fine, it really sucks.”
There was a moment of silence, as I absorbed all this information. Especially the fact that he was moving; really moving, far away. I could feel the tears beginning to brim my eyes, threatening to spill and fall down my cheeks. I held them back, but I knew I couldn’t last, they had to come sometime. The harder I tried, the more I wanted to collapse and cry and scream like there was no tomorrow.
Then I realized the truth. I realized, at that moment, my life had centered on our friendship. And that, maybe, it was time to let him go. And in that same instance, I knew for sure, that I was in love with him, but I would never have the chance to tell him, for other things began to spill out of my mouth, which I couldn’t control. Our conversation started up once again, except there was a sad felling in the air. I could even feel the tension building and the hairs on my arm began to stand up.
“Do you really have to go?” I asked, looking up with my sad eyes. I could tell he saw the tears streaming down my face, since he choked on his answer.
“Yes, I do. I- I’m sorry.”
“But will you come back?” I had hope, but I knew deep down that that wasn’t possible.
“I- I’m not sure.”
We both took deep sighs, trying to relieve the sadness that was now flowing through our veins.
“I’m going to miss you.”
“I’m gonna miss you too.”
Saying those last words, Keito swiftly kissed me on the cheek and left. When I watched with tear blurred eyes, I could see him wipe his tears away with his long-sleeved shirt. The tears he didn’t want me to see.
The day after that, my mom called me into the living room and said that Keito and his family boarded the airplane safely and that they should be taking off within a few short minutes or so.
From that moment on, I’ve always felt like something was missing and maybe, it was true love. But I never had the chance to tell him, for he was gone the moment I realized it. That maybe, we are meant for each other. Or maybe, he’s better off not knowing. Oh god, I miss him so much…
- Ami Fujioka