{ me and you and me and her
me and you and me and her
1654 words | pg-13
- f(x) + shinee ; luna + key
beta-ed by cupcake_sokiri
It wasn’t like the thing we had with each other was serious, I tried saying many times to convince myself. He had made it clear on many occasions that we were just friends; friends with benefits.
But whenever Key would mention that, it felt like a part of me that almost truly did like him died. Sometimes, I would be sitting in bed at night thinking; maybe we could be something more? But that hope was always crushed whenever he would give me a long, lustful kiss, leave me wanting more and smirking as he left the room.
My heart pained knowing that it wasn’t me he wanted; it was her.
Everyone knew Nicole and Key were close, very close indeed. It must be great being born the same year, I once thought bitterly. They would meet each other secretly and go on romantic dates, as I heard from Krystal one night.
I sometimes think over why I had agreed to go along for the ride, knowing that it would end like this. Perhaps it was the temptation of the forbidden, the wrong, and just the want of chasing the bad boy for once.
Only Victoria knew of my predicament, as she looked at me from across the bed with a puzzled look on her face; it was as if she was contemplating on what to say, which she probably was.
I sighed as I looked at her, my eyes half hooded from lack of sleep. She blinked once, twice, before taking a breath and scooting a bit closer.
"So…" she began, her voice quiet and slightly wavering.
I looked up at her, my gaze probably glazed over in some way; I could feel the tears coming, but I didn’t want them to spill. Victoria stared straight into my eyes, reading my every emotion. She gave me a sad smile, and soon my vision blurred and I was sobbing into her warm embrace, wishing Key would love me, and only me.
- - - - -
Days had passed since I last saw him-embracing her, kissing her, loving her. The more I thought about Key, the more I thought about Nicole, and the anger and jealousy I held within would boil over until I couldn’t take it anymore.
It had to be fate, as I was walking down the hallway and they turned onto the same walkway I was on. Nicole smiled, and waved while Key just looked at me, his eyes cold as steel. They were holding hands, I noticed; her smaller one fitting perfectly into his, fingers completely intertwined.
I forced myself to break eye contact and to look away, my emotions getting the better of me. By reflex, my hand came up in a fist, covering my mouth slightly as I muffled a quiet sob. I could feel the tears threatening to spill over once more.
From the corner of my eye, Nicole looked worried. She had released Key’s hand and came closer, asking what was wrong. I shook my head quickly, mumbling a ‘nothing’ as I scampered away, too afraid to face him once more.
However, as the day went by, there was no trace of him, or Nicole. Or the rest of SHINee for that matter. It was strange now that I thought about it. I let out another long sigh wondering why I was even thinking about such things; he means nothing to me and I mean nothing to him.
My heart ached even more at that thought and I soon found myself drowning in my tears and sobs once more, my hands covering my face as I whimpered in the dark and quiet practice room. It seemed like days had passed before I heard softly padded footsteps approached the door. Quickly, I wiped the tears away and turned my face, just in case whoever it was wouldn’t get too curious.
A quiet voice drifted into the dead silent room.
"Luna…?"
My heart stopped and I forgot how to breathe.
His voice, I could never forget. The low, mellow tone it had and that slight arrogance it held could never be easily forgotten. No, never.
I froze, hoping that if I stayed still, he wouldn’t come inside but knowing him, he would come in anyway. I couldn’t look at his face, not even his body, so I stared at the floor where his two shoes soon appeared in my vision.
I could feel his gentle touch on my face as he wiped the tears away and tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. What happened to the strong Luna that always shined on stage? I wondered. But she was always gone whenever Key was here; he was the only one who could make me feel this way.
I sniffled a little as his other hand came up and cupped my face, slowly moving down the side of my face and down my arm, where he rested it on top of my thigh. His right hand. The hand that was wiping the tears away moved to make me look into his eyes.
I stared into their depths, trying hard to look but not see what he was thinking and feeling. But I couldn’t; his eyes were the windows to his mind and soul and all I could see was indecision and confusion in the dark orbs. We remained quiet then, only the sound of our soft breathing could be heard as we continued to gaze into each others souls.
I shuddered slightly as I realized he was leaning in closer and closer…. And then our lips touched. I didn’t react at first, not knowing what I should do. But ages had passed before I threw out everything; I tossed my pride, confidence and ego out the window, only keeping the want, need and love I had only for Key. My hands tangled into his hair, gently stroking the shaven part as his strong arms came around and wrapped around my little torso.
I had opened my mouth, gasping for air and he took the advantage then, ravishing my mouth to the point where I could only taste him. A lustful sigh escaped as I pulled him closer to my chest, my breasts coming right up and being crushed against his broad chest. I heard him groan as his arms tightened around my waist. The fabric of my shirt bunch up at the hem slightly, and his warm hand began caressing my warm skin; shivers came down my back.
Did he love me now?
As the minutes passed, through the cloud of lust and passion my mind had formed, the small voice of reason in the back of my mind spoke up. I realized what we were doing and that he wasn’t a single man anymore. I was a whore, a whore to the man I loved with my entire mind, body, heart and soul. I pulled my lips away from his abruptly, panting and sobbing all at once. He looked at me, the concerned look plastered onto his face; I wanted to smack him so hard then, but I knew I would never have the heart to do so.
I looked up at him then, and I stood up and shoved him to the ground and glared at him. I could feel my heart tear and shatter and break as I saw the pain in his face. My heart, I knew it could handle no more; I had finally reached my limit.
I had tried to walk out then, but his big hand and strong grip held tightly onto my wrist, refusing to let go. I shook my arm, hoping he would get the message and let go. But he just looked at me, his emotions showing clearly on his face unlike before.
"Luna, wait…" he said, his voice raspy and nervous.
"Key," I sighed, my voice strained and uncomfortable.
He looked at me then, like, really looked at me and I realized that he had done lots of thinking. I just continued staring at him, no longer struggling to get out of his grip. Key had been sitting on the ground from when I had pushed him earlier, but it was then that I noticed that he was on his… knees?
Bewildered, I looked at him with eyes wide, wondering what he was planning to do next.
"Luna, I’m sorry. Please forgive me."
The world came to a screeching halt then and came crashing down. I could feel the shards of what I knew of him shattering at my feet as I continued gazing at him, a lost expression on my face I assumed.
"Please, please forgive me," his voice became desperate and strained. His eyes were glistening with unshed tears and I could feel my heart throb once more.
Right then, I recalled Victoria’s advice she gave me long ago:
Follow your heart, if it is the path you believe you should take, then do it without regrets.
"Please…" he repeated, his voice faint.
I could feel the tears gathering and before I knew it, I had thrown myself into his arms, sobbing with all my heart. His arms wrapped around me, as if protecting me and claiming me as his own.
We were laying on the dance floor now, Key’s back against the wood while I laid on top, my head resting on his chest as I listened to his heart beat. It had gotten really quiet then.
"Luna?" Key hesitantly asked.
I didn’t say anything, just merely nodded my head for him to continue.
"I broke up with her, with Nicole I mean."
I stiffened and I could tell that Key knew that I was waiting for an answer, an explanation.
"She told me that I loved you more than her. And for once, someone else was right. Luna, I am in love with you, and I don’t think I’ve never met a greater love in my life."
a/n: sudden inspiration is all this was and my first one-shot in ages :)
1654 words | pg-13
- f(x) + shinee ; luna + key
beta-ed by cupcake_sokiri
It wasn’t like the thing we had with each other was serious, I tried saying many times to convince myself. He had made it clear on many occasions that we were just friends; friends with benefits.
But whenever Key would mention that, it felt like a part of me that almost truly did like him died. Sometimes, I would be sitting in bed at night thinking; maybe we could be something more? But that hope was always crushed whenever he would give me a long, lustful kiss, leave me wanting more and smirking as he left the room.
My heart pained knowing that it wasn’t me he wanted; it was her.
Everyone knew Nicole and Key were close, very close indeed. It must be great being born the same year, I once thought bitterly. They would meet each other secretly and go on romantic dates, as I heard from Krystal one night.
I sometimes think over why I had agreed to go along for the ride, knowing that it would end like this. Perhaps it was the temptation of the forbidden, the wrong, and just the want of chasing the bad boy for once.
Only Victoria knew of my predicament, as she looked at me from across the bed with a puzzled look on her face; it was as if she was contemplating on what to say, which she probably was.
I sighed as I looked at her, my eyes half hooded from lack of sleep. She blinked once, twice, before taking a breath and scooting a bit closer.
"So…" she began, her voice quiet and slightly wavering.
I looked up at her, my gaze probably glazed over in some way; I could feel the tears coming, but I didn’t want them to spill. Victoria stared straight into my eyes, reading my every emotion. She gave me a sad smile, and soon my vision blurred and I was sobbing into her warm embrace, wishing Key would love me, and only me.
- - - - -
Days had passed since I last saw him-embracing her, kissing her, loving her. The more I thought about Key, the more I thought about Nicole, and the anger and jealousy I held within would boil over until I couldn’t take it anymore.
It had to be fate, as I was walking down the hallway and they turned onto the same walkway I was on. Nicole smiled, and waved while Key just looked at me, his eyes cold as steel. They were holding hands, I noticed; her smaller one fitting perfectly into his, fingers completely intertwined.
I forced myself to break eye contact and to look away, my emotions getting the better of me. By reflex, my hand came up in a fist, covering my mouth slightly as I muffled a quiet sob. I could feel the tears threatening to spill over once more.
From the corner of my eye, Nicole looked worried. She had released Key’s hand and came closer, asking what was wrong. I shook my head quickly, mumbling a ‘nothing’ as I scampered away, too afraid to face him once more.
However, as the day went by, there was no trace of him, or Nicole. Or the rest of SHINee for that matter. It was strange now that I thought about it. I let out another long sigh wondering why I was even thinking about such things; he means nothing to me and I mean nothing to him.
My heart ached even more at that thought and I soon found myself drowning in my tears and sobs once more, my hands covering my face as I whimpered in the dark and quiet practice room. It seemed like days had passed before I heard softly padded footsteps approached the door. Quickly, I wiped the tears away and turned my face, just in case whoever it was wouldn’t get too curious.
A quiet voice drifted into the dead silent room.
"Luna…?"
My heart stopped and I forgot how to breathe.
His voice, I could never forget. The low, mellow tone it had and that slight arrogance it held could never be easily forgotten. No, never.
I froze, hoping that if I stayed still, he wouldn’t come inside but knowing him, he would come in anyway. I couldn’t look at his face, not even his body, so I stared at the floor where his two shoes soon appeared in my vision.
I could feel his gentle touch on my face as he wiped the tears away and tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. What happened to the strong Luna that always shined on stage? I wondered. But she was always gone whenever Key was here; he was the only one who could make me feel this way.
I sniffled a little as his other hand came up and cupped my face, slowly moving down the side of my face and down my arm, where he rested it on top of my thigh. His right hand. The hand that was wiping the tears away moved to make me look into his eyes.
I stared into their depths, trying hard to look but not see what he was thinking and feeling. But I couldn’t; his eyes were the windows to his mind and soul and all I could see was indecision and confusion in the dark orbs. We remained quiet then, only the sound of our soft breathing could be heard as we continued to gaze into each others souls.
I shuddered slightly as I realized he was leaning in closer and closer…. And then our lips touched. I didn’t react at first, not knowing what I should do. But ages had passed before I threw out everything; I tossed my pride, confidence and ego out the window, only keeping the want, need and love I had only for Key. My hands tangled into his hair, gently stroking the shaven part as his strong arms came around and wrapped around my little torso.
I had opened my mouth, gasping for air and he took the advantage then, ravishing my mouth to the point where I could only taste him. A lustful sigh escaped as I pulled him closer to my chest, my breasts coming right up and being crushed against his broad chest. I heard him groan as his arms tightened around my waist. The fabric of my shirt bunch up at the hem slightly, and his warm hand began caressing my warm skin; shivers came down my back.
Did he love me now?
As the minutes passed, through the cloud of lust and passion my mind had formed, the small voice of reason in the back of my mind spoke up. I realized what we were doing and that he wasn’t a single man anymore. I was a whore, a whore to the man I loved with my entire mind, body, heart and soul. I pulled my lips away from his abruptly, panting and sobbing all at once. He looked at me, the concerned look plastered onto his face; I wanted to smack him so hard then, but I knew I would never have the heart to do so.
I looked up at him then, and I stood up and shoved him to the ground and glared at him. I could feel my heart tear and shatter and break as I saw the pain in his face. My heart, I knew it could handle no more; I had finally reached my limit.
I had tried to walk out then, but his big hand and strong grip held tightly onto my wrist, refusing to let go. I shook my arm, hoping he would get the message and let go. But he just looked at me, his emotions showing clearly on his face unlike before.
"Luna, wait…" he said, his voice raspy and nervous.
"Key," I sighed, my voice strained and uncomfortable.
He looked at me then, like, really looked at me and I realized that he had done lots of thinking. I just continued staring at him, no longer struggling to get out of his grip. Key had been sitting on the ground from when I had pushed him earlier, but it was then that I noticed that he was on his… knees?
Bewildered, I looked at him with eyes wide, wondering what he was planning to do next.
"Luna, I’m sorry. Please forgive me."
The world came to a screeching halt then and came crashing down. I could feel the shards of what I knew of him shattering at my feet as I continued gazing at him, a lost expression on my face I assumed.
"Please, please forgive me," his voice became desperate and strained. His eyes were glistening with unshed tears and I could feel my heart throb once more.
Right then, I recalled Victoria’s advice she gave me long ago:
Follow your heart, if it is the path you believe you should take, then do it without regrets.
"Please…" he repeated, his voice faint.
I could feel the tears gathering and before I knew it, I had thrown myself into his arms, sobbing with all my heart. His arms wrapped around me, as if protecting me and claiming me as his own.
We were laying on the dance floor now, Key’s back against the wood while I laid on top, my head resting on his chest as I listened to his heart beat. It had gotten really quiet then.
"Luna?" Key hesitantly asked.
I didn’t say anything, just merely nodded my head for him to continue.
"I broke up with her, with Nicole I mean."
I stiffened and I could tell that Key knew that I was waiting for an answer, an explanation.
"She told me that I loved you more than her. And for once, someone else was right. Luna, I am in love with you, and I don’t think I’ve never met a greater love in my life."
a/n: sudden inspiration is all this was and my first one-shot in ages :)