so i really wanna move in with my dad and stepmom this summer cuz theyre, well, sane, but i'm afraid that it will damage my relationship with my mother irreparably, if it isn't already. i just don't think i can deal with the ups and downs for another summer. when its bad its bad and when its good i'm just left wondering what's gunna set her off...

To quote a very wise woman

"Since you've been gone
I feel free for the first time"

yes, i know a kelly clarkson song

So much has happened in the past few days I dont even know where to begin ( Read more... )

Despite what you may have heard. I am NOTTTT having the prom after-party. If i were, you would al be invited! Sorry to disappoint, no idea where that rumor came from

I wonder what would happen if I actually decided to post everything I typed in this little box. Maybe all hell would break loose, maybe not. It would sure mke things a little more interesting around here ( Read more... )

Whenever someone makes me really upset or angry or hurts me, my first instinct is to make them somehow know how much it hurts. I want to give them a taste of my pain. This is a very bad instinct, which needs to be stopped. I need to hide it away so theyll never know what theyre capable of..

I don't think I've ever felt this alone in my life. I'm home alone. But I'm also alone in the 'larger sense.' Just utterly by myself. Usually I like feeling this way...

"Every living creature dies alone"

"After a while you just want to be with the one who makes you laugh"

Is life too short to love the one you got or is it too short not to?

Mrs. Payne says I have "wounded bird syndrome" because i "like to take care of people" people who need help or advice or whatever. the extent to which this is true and the extent to which it is rooted in my fucked up childhood and the extent to which it causes me to neglect people who ont "need me" is disturbing and absurd...