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i'm still alive! i'm just really really busy, and not feeling motivated enough to keep up with my journal, which i know i'll regret someday, but whatever.

it should be cemented that i love gwen stefani more than any other celebrity, ever. and always. i feel fourteen again, giddy over new gwen stuff. maybe that makes me a dork, but... you all envy my no doubt scrap book, anyway ( Read more... )

why is it that nothing can ever go right for me?

the script that deprived me of much sleep got formally rejected this morning. i got rejected. i poured so much of myself into it. wasn't good enough. is anything i do ever, really?

it's really cold outside today. i can't wait for crisp fall weather, sweaters, and multi-colored foliage. it's my favorite season ( Read more... )

I am a hybrid of:
Indie Girl
Progressive Girl

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i freaking love my best friend. derek is the only person who can lift me up when i am down... i'm wearing his clothes right now. heh. well... we decided to play dress up [as happens in my presence quite often] - i disrobed, he disrobed... we traded clothes. look ma! i'm a real live lesbian! we're going to take pictures but i don't know if i'll post ( Read more... )

i'm falling apart. i can't even function right. i daze out, wake up... realize that i'm late or missing something, that i've forgotten to do this or that. freak out, realize my failure. have an anxiety attack. break down. collect it up. play the role of a functioning human being. come back to my room. crash and cry and cry and cry.

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