Where Worlds Collide

[karmasoup]

When The Night Closes In

MOTHER is lying in a hospital bed in Tarpon Springs, Florida, severely deformed, alone and dying; too slow for the pain she’s experiencing, too fast for the life she’s lived.  She’s frightened, and not at all ready, and there’s not a thing in the world I can do to help her.

I want to be able to do something more for her, I

Comments

[alien_infinity]

This was sad but well-written.

[karmasoup]

Thanks. It was not at all easy to write, but, it refused to remain unwritten.

[nodressrehersal]

Yowser, what a story. I can see how this had the power to refuse to remain unwritten, as you said in your comment.

I like the distinction you make between Mother and Mom. It's hard to know what I'd choose to do in your shoes, but you've certainly made me think.

[karmasoup]

I'm not sure I really know, either, to be honest. Ask me again on another day, and you might get a different answer. My brother is going down there today, to formally represent her as her next of kin. The legal responsibility falls to him, as the oldest. My sister has asked everyone to just leave her alone and stop giving her updates, because she just doesn't care. The distinction has always been there... it's how I separate the people who raised me from the people who gave me life. Mother doesn't mind that I call her that, and, I think it suits her. Thanks for reading.

[poppetawoppet]

wow. This really spoke to me for many reasons, about my own personal debate on what to remember about my dad, and just how much to forgive and forget, and how much to remember and accept.

I think the only decision that's right is the one you feel comfortable making, and it looks like you got there

[karmasoup]

Thanks so much.

[createdestiny]

I don't know what to say........your courage just in writing about this is moving.

[karmasoup]

Thanks... it isn't really a requirement for me that anyone should say anything... this situation is fairly unique, in that, most folks will lose parents, but, not many will lose 4, and, of those who do, most won't have this kind of conundrum, so, I don't really expect anyone else to really be able to relate to the circumstances of this experience, though, perhaps the emotions are universal. Either way, I do appreciate your thoughts, and thanks for reading and for sharing.

[mac_arthur_park]

Amazing. I'm speechless.

[karmasoup]

It is a bit hard to know what to do with something like that when it's just spilled out, and there are no common scenarios that would allow most people to relate.

:-S

At least it comes from a journal entry, and not drooled all over you by some random stranger at a bus stop. ;)

Thanks for reading.

[mac_arthur_park]

Hey, there's always next week at the bus stop. You never know around here. ;)

Really powerful writing.