[Multi-chapter] Change (21/??)
Title: Change
Authors: tsuchi8562
Bet: andreja1989 ArigaPYON~!
Pairing: SakurAiba, Aimiya (friendship), Yama (friendship), Junba (friendship)
Genre: AU, Romance, Drama, School
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: They are not ours, they belong to themselves...
*MASTERPOST*
Sho was a bit confused. He certainly didn't want Masaki to lose his friend because of him, but that already had happened. Sakurai knew that no conversation with Ninomiya will help, at least not now; the younger boy just tried to force Aiba to realize about a big mistake he was making. It was a desperate step, but probably the last he could do. Making Masaki chose between his childhood friend and the boy he fell in love with was cruel and mean but apparently Kazunari couldn’t think of anything better. No wonder Aiba was sad, but even though he tried to smile, the older student was fully aware that losing his friend hit him with really knocking down power.
"Sho-chan do you think Nino will talk to me again? I want to explain to him that you are not a monster, that..." The taller one bit his lower lip, trying to stop his voice from breaking.
"I don't know. He needs more time, maybe when he thinks some things through he will call you?" The older boy sighed and gently hugged his boyfriend. This was really tough situation, but he could understand Kazunari very well. He wanted to protect his friend no matter what. And now... Everything got so damn complicated. Masaki nodded gently and moved away a bit from Sakurai, to look at the latter. He looked so sad now that Sho's heart stopped beating for a tiny little while. He wanted to do something to make his kouhai forget about all that had happened today, even for a moment, but the only thing that came across his mind was out of question.
Sakurai promised himself that he won't touch Aiba until he will be sure that the incident won't happen again. He already broke the agreement he made with himself by kissing Masaki... It was still too soon for any move; the shorter student had to at least start his therapy to feel more confident. His appointment with Tanaka-sensei was set next week and to be honest he had high hopes about it. The doctor was a specialist after all, the best in the country as they said. Meanwhile the taller boy kneeled in front of Sho who was sitting on the floor and looked at him without a word. They were at the older one's apartment, after Aiba decided to walk his beloved senpai home. Sakurai could predict that this could happen, but he believed in innocent side of his beloved kouhai. Apparently he was wrong…
"Uuunnn, Sho-chan… I told my mum I will stay here till tomorrow.”
“What? When did you…?”
“When you were putting your shoes on. I have the appointment with the orthopedist around noon so I will have to go back home until then... I am all yours tonight." Masaki moved closer and took Sakurai's hand, placing it on his chest. Sho felt how fast his heart was beating and from his boyfriend's blushed cheeks he could read what the latter wanted. The older one shook his head, moving his hand away.
"It'll be better if you go home." The apartment’s owner voice was firm, even though he didn’t trust his voice at all.
"Why? Don't you want me to stay?"
"I do, god I really do! But..." He really was afraid that he will lose control again and hurt the other again. Sho craved for the latter's touch but he wasn't sure if it's not too early for making love. Though, if Aiba wants it, doesn't it mean it really is okay? Masaki, as if he was reading Sakurai's mind smiled and placed his hand again on his chest.
"Show me that you can be gentle, like before..." The taller boy whispered and bit his lower lip, looking at the latter with shining eyes. Sho swallowed hard and pulled Aiba closer, joining their lips in a slow and soft kiss. The older student still didn't want it to change into something more but when Masaki's fingers touched his thigh, every resistant disappeared. The younger boy crawled on top of Sho, straddling his lap. The kiss became hotter and wilder with passing time and every time Aiba trembled, Sakurai hugged him tighter.
"It'll be okay..." The runner smiled, tugged on the latter's shirt and kept looking at him. Sho smiled and nodded, taking off his upper clothes, letting Masaki's to fall on the ground as well. Later, Sakurai leaned and licked his boyfriend's collarbones, making quiet moans fill the air. The shorter student's tongue wandered all over his lover's chest, reaching the sensitive nipples, which he sucked and licked. The air became hotter and there was no turning back. Not that Sho wanted anymore... Sakurai unzipped Aiba's jeans and sneaked his hand inside, rubbing the growing bulge through material of the boxer shorts. Masaki moaned and closed his eyes, moving his hips against Sho's palm, becoming even harder. The older boy sucked hard the left nipple and couldn't help but moan when his kouhai unbuttoned his pants and grabbed his already fully hard member. The shorter man looked at the latter and licked his lips.
"Bed?" Sakurai whispered and received only a gentle nod as an answer. Soon both of them were sitting on the soft mattress, in the same position as previously, but this time they both were naked, losing the rest of their clothes somewhere on the way. Aiba rolled his hips, brushing their rock hard members together. Sho wanted to roll them over but the younger one didn't allow him to do so, shaking his head gently. Sakurai frowned a bit but all his thoughts were made blurry as his boyfriend licked his index finger, sucking and biting it a bit. Masaki took the bottle with lube which stood on the plastic cupboard next to the bed and handed it to his senpai. The older student opened it and poured the cold liquid on his fingers. The younger boy lifted his hips and leaned down, giving Sho easy way to finger him freely.
Sakurai teased the pink ring of muscles and slowly pushed one finger inside, stretching the walls as much as possible but not teasing the right spot yet. The tightness he felt almost made him go over the edge after only imagining it around his hard member. After a while he added the second finger and moved them in and out, trying to find the desired bulge of nerves. Aiba's shivering body was a sign that the younger one is ready for the act. Sho slowly pulled his fingers out and tried again to push the younger one on his back but he was stopped for the second time.
"Masaki?" The shorter one asked, feeling the urge to be buried deep inside his lover.
"I... I watched something and I want to try it..." The kouhai whispered with deeper shade of red decorating his cheeks, gently lubed Sakurai's member properly and slowly sat on it, wincing a bit from slight pain. He moved down, inch by inch until the older boy was fully in. Aiba breathed fast, his eyes were closed and he didn't move.
"Are you okay?" Sho asked with worry audible in his voice.
"I'm fine... Just… It’s deeper than before... Give me a while..." Masaki slowly opened his eyes and whimpered. Sakurai smiled gently and stroked his lover's hip with one hand, rubbing his member with the other to help Aiba relax. After a while the taller boy rolled his hips twice to check if it's okay, speeding up later. The air was getting hotter and moans sounded in the room when two bodies were clashing against each other. Masaki leaned again and kissed his boyfriend sloppily, riding him fast.
"C-close..." Aiba mumbled when the latter's hand started to pump his member in a steady rhythm. Sakurai joined their lips and thrusted up few times, filling his boyfriend with his sperm. Shortly after Sho's stomach and chest were painted with the latter's semen. Masaki fell on top of the older one, breathing fast with his eyes closed. The shorter student slipped his limped member out of the puckering hole and hugged his lover gently.
"I love you Sho-chan..." Aiba whispered lazily and sighed happily. Sakurai smiled and nodded, not able to say a word. "We should take a shower..."
"Yeah, we should..." Sho smiled, but didn’t move an inch, enjoying the sweet tiredness and their closeness.
“Sho-chan… Come on, let’s go…” Sakurai finally stood up, taking the latter's hand and walked slowly to the bathroom. After a short, relaxing and warm shower with a little splashing, tickling and laughing, they were back in bed, cuddling. Sakurai didn't say a word for a longer while, thinking about how he complicated his lover's life. That was the last thing he wanted. If he only would be more firm and push Masaki away at the beginning of their acquaintance…
"Sho-chan... Are you sleeping?"
"No..."
"You're so quiet... Something's wrong?” The taller boy wriggled a bit, looking at his beloved senpai. “Wasn't I good?"
"Oh, Masaki!" The older boy laughed quietly and looked back at the latter. "You were great. I am just thinking about how much your life worsened after you had met me..."
"What are you talking about? It is better that it was before." Aiba stated firmly and kept looking at his boyfriend.
"You lost a friend... I made your life the same as mine... I'm sorry..." The older student sighed and closed his eyes.
"Nino will get over it. I hope he will... And I am not alone, I have you. And you... Your so-called friends left you just because they couldn't accept your situation... That’s just cruel…"
"Masaki, they didn't know a thing about my mother... I didn’t tell them a thing and they didn’t ask. I am not sure that I wouldn't be like them and push somebody away because he suddenly started to act strange without any logical reason..."
"No, you would ask if there is something wrong. And try to help!"
"I'm not you Masaki..." Sho sighed and hugged his kouhai tighter. "I couldn't tell them that Kumiko is a junkie. It could be the same or even worse. Now all I’ve got is some fights from time to time, which will end soon after I graduate… If somebody from students knew the truth it would haunt me wherever I would go.”
“How could you know? Maybe somebody would understand? Maybe you would have a true friend? You don’t have the certainty…”
“Masaki, do you remember Matsuyama-kun? A boy whose father was an alcoholic? Do you remember what kind of hell he had at school when he shared this message with one of his so-called friends?” Sakurai sat up and sighed, looking at his lover. “I didn’t want that… I had enough of the hell I had at home… No hot dinner, no clean room, no mother I could talk to… I was alone since the day I remember… I didn’t want to be alone anymore…”
“And you are not, you have me…” Aiba hugged the latter from behind, probably trying to show that way that he won’t leave him.
“Masaki, I don’t want you to end up like me… With no friends and a taint I have. I think you should…”
“If you want to tell me to leave then don’t even bother. I love you and I will be with you no matter what. The thing between Nino-chan and me will be solved soon, I’ll talk to him. He just had to calm down a bit.” The younger one sighed and yawned cutely and Sho couldn’t help but smile warmly.
“Let’s sleep. You have to wake up quite early…” Sho pecked his boyfriend’s lips and lied back down, letting the taller boy cuddle real close.
“I love you Sho-chan… I really love you…” Aiba mumbled, half asleep until he finally drifted away in the dreamland.
“I love you too Masaki… Promise me, you will be only mine…” Sakurai whispered and also fell asleep, scared of his own words.