I’m choosing another kind of your love

[yuuki_saya]

Title: I'm choosing another kind of your love
Author: yuuki_saya
Beta: tsuchi 8562 (thank you, my dear)
Pairing: Akame
Rating: NC-17
Genre: drama + smut
Word count: over 8000
Warning: incest - I couldn't help myself...
Summary: When brothers start to live together after few years apart, something strange may happen. Especially, when they're young, handsome... and gay.
A/N: This is my Kame-birthday fic! Yay! I made it in time!!!! I needed to write something like that and I hope you'll like it.

Kamenashi went out from the train with large suitcase in his hand. His almost black hair was arranged in very stylish way, big sunglasses covered half of face. Clothes were perfectly suitable and made their owner a very hot piece of ikemen. Small pout on pinky lips made this picture really irresitable.

Yeah, that was Kamenashi Kazuya in flesh - walking perfection, born like this. Stylish beauty have come later, but as long as Kame was perfectionist, it's been just the matter of time to make his own style and become this kind of man, who makes both genders turning their head over him.

Jin prayed his younger brother was oblivious of this fact, but when he saw Kame's tongue licks this pinky (and perfect) lips, he knew his prays were unheard. His brother became not only a perfect guy, but undoubtly a playboy too. Where's gone his innocent and sweet brother, who blushed when someone was teasing him touching his butt? Yeah, that times has gone for good.

- Yo, Kazu-chan! - Jin shouted and started waving his hand. At least Kazu should behave like before for his beloved brother.

But Kamenashi Kazuya took off his sunglasses and glared at Jin.

- God, Jin, I'm not jumping aroud and shouting 'Nii-chan', so please, don't be so familiar with this chan-things...

- Mou, Kazu-chan, you're too serious... You're my beloved brother, so please, don't be mood-killer

- I repeat - no 'Kazu-chan' me. I told you...

- I know. I don't understand it at all, but ok, I can pretend I'm not your brother. We'll be living together as childhood friends... - Jin's face became blank. - So, how should I call you? I don't think that last name is suitable for FRIENDS... - irony in Jin's voice was heavy, but Kazuya instantly smiled and turned his face to Jin.

- My friends call me 'Kame' and I think it's perfect nickname for me - he told with sweet and happy smile.

- Why? Because you're slow? - Jin couldn’t drop potential teasing.

- Nope. I'm safe in my shell - with this word Kame took his suitcase and leaded to exit of station. After few steps he stopped and turned back to Jin. - What? You're not going? At least you could tell me where do you live.

Jin took the lead. He had so many hopes and so many fears after hearing about Kazuya's study and his moving to Tokio, that they would be able to be together again, like they were before parents' divorce.

Divorce... Jin had nightmares 3 years after that. They were perfect, happy family or he just thought that. Brothers received so much love and they didn't notice, that mother was crying silently and father sometimes wasn't home at night. Jin and Kazuya had their friends, school and themselves - and they thought that nothing could destroy that perfect life.

‘We've been so naive... Even after 4 years it seems to be just a dream without happy ending’ Jin was thinking about what happened later, after that night, when parents told them about divorce. He wasn't sure how it ended that he stayed with father and Kazuya moved out with their mother. Somehow he remembered about not leaving mother, meeting regularly... But when he discovered that mother has back to her previous surname and Kazuya changed his after 2 years... It was too much for him - he couldn't think about them as one family after this changes. He asked brother about name's changing when he met him then, but heard no answer. And that was their last time, when they spoke to each other, until one day father called Jin and asked him to accept Kazuya as his flatmate, because his brother was accepted to University and needed a place to live. Jin had objections, of course. They haven't seen each other 2 years, haven't live together 4, so he wasn't sure if it's a good idea. He told father he had to think it over. Two hours later he received a phone call from Kazuya. After a few moment of total awkwardness Kazuya asked for permission for month or two, until he would find a place for himself and move out. Jin thought that two months can't be that bad and accepted the deal. Or at least to catch up what they’ve lost.

‘It seems that I'm naive... Again... How could I know that he changed that much?’ Jin's thoughts were around his younger brother. Yes, two years ago nobody could tell that Kazuya is gonna change that much...

They stayed silence all the way. Jin was scared of new Kazuya, his brother seemed to look out of the car. When they stepped in flat, this silence was too much to bare.

- Your room will be that one on the left. Mine is that one one the right. I have towels for you in bathroom. Oh, and be careful with shower, I have to fix it tomorrow.

- Nii-chan, you would be a perfect hotel maid, but I can manage - Kazuya winked and turn to his room.

- Hey, we haven't been living together for 4 years. I'm afraid now we have different habits, likes and dislikes... You know, I hoped that maybe our brother's years would be back... But when you asked to pretend as we're not a family... Still I don't understand... - Jin tried to ask, but Kazuya interrupted him.

- One day you'll understand. And believe me, that will be the moment, when you will stop wanna be MY brother anymore... - Jin looked suprised. No, that's not what he's been expecting.

- So why you called me 'nii-chan' this moment? - he asked with demanding voice. Kazuya laughed lightly.

- Old habits die hard, Jin. That's something I have to deal myself.

- And you tell that if I know the reason, I could refuse to be your brother? - Jin's smile crooked. - You have so little faith in your nii-chan? I'm hurt... - he ended with pouts.

Kazuya sighed.

- You'll never change? Still pout when wanna something out of your reach?

- Your changes can be for both of us. I barely recognised you on station.

Kazuya stayed silent, Jin waited for response. After few moments he understood - they talked as before, as they were happy brothers with pouting and teasing Jin and laughing Kazuya.

- Kazuya... Why can't we leave the past and pick up what we left?

Kame sighed.

- We're not what we were. Even if you think that inside we're the same as before parents' divorce. I'm definitely not the same. Jin, today all we have to do is to learn how to live together. At least as long as I won't find new place - Kame said with serious voice.

- Kazuya... I know that I wasn't very fond at the beginning to the idea of you living here, but now I think that we should just be brothers. Even if for some reasons you don't want to.

- I'm sleepy. May I just go to bed? - Kame was trying to change the topic.

- Yeah... Right... - Kazuya turned to his room. - But think about it. We could be a family again.

Jin's words remained without reaction. Kazuya went to his bedroom and locked the door. When he was sure, that nobody could see him, he leaned to door and slided on the floor. His face was pale and eyes started to be wet.

- Nii-chan... If you could know... You would curse and abandon me this moment... - he thought.

It seemed to be tough month. Or two.

***

Three weeks passed without any problems. They had no fights, no problems, perfect life with them studying, shopping, cooking, eating, drinking and watching movies. Every Friday they were going to club and first time Kame could see that his brother changed somehow. He expected to see Jin picking up girls with blond hair and big boobs, but first Friday he saw the other with small, but pretty boy. Picture of Jin kissing random man in toilet and going out with him rewinded all the sleepless night in his head until he saw brother back in the morning next day. Jin had goofy smile on his face, which disappeared when he saw Kame with face full of questions.

- I understand. You swing that way - Kazuya told matter-of-factly and locked himself in his own bedroom. This topic reminded untouched next three weeks as they had unspoken agreement, that Jin's choice of gender to sleep with is his own business. Jin was happy that Kame had no objections.

While three weeks and three Fridays Kame could to meet some Jin's friends - Yamapi was a pretty and always happy boy with smile plastered on his face, while Ryo was gloomy and malicious, but both were good company to drink and party, so he didn't mind. He noticed, that they hadn't a habit to pick up random people to sleep with them, only Jin was that kind of playboy.

Fourth Friday night went in total different direction.

They've been sitting in club as always, with drinks on the table and a lot of alcohol in their system. Music was playing so loud, but in their corner it was more silent so they could talk freely.

- Kame-chan, why don't you find someone for night? You always come back home alone as your baka flatmate is screwing someone in the town? - Yamapi asked staring in his pink drink.

- I'm not sure if I want someone... No one caught my attention here... And look who's talking, you and Ryo just drink every week and end in home alone - Kame answered playfully.

- Alone? Together in bed every night... - Jin was laughing, when he understood that told something... Not meant to tell everyone.

Kame's eyes widened.

- You... You're together? - he asked unsure.

- Yep, we are together. Your friend is really a baka to slip something like this - Ryo seemed to be pissed of.

- Oh... I understand... So all of you are gays?

-Yeah. Got a problem? - Ryo was preparing to defense himself and his lover.

- Nope. Maybe just with that ‘together’ thing - Kame winked to couple. - You know, if you ever will think about threesome... Just let me know - he laughed playfully.

- JIN!!! Why you didn't tell us that your sweet and pretty friend is gay too? - Yamapi yelled and smacked Jin on his head.

- It fucking hurts, Pi! And I didn't know either... - Jin had shocked face and thousands of thoughts in head.

- You didn't know? So now you two should try! - Yamapi seemed to be excited. - You would be a perfect couple!

Jin spitted his drink and looked at his brother. Kame smiled and patted Yamapi on his shoulder.

- No, thank you. I'm afraid that sleeping with my childhood friend would be like sleeping with very own brother - Kazuya looked at Jin with unreadable face. - If you don't mind, I'm gonna dance - with this words he left the table and disappeared on the dancefloor.

He had an urge to lost his mind in music and maybe in embrace of someone. Kazuya was dancing in very sensual way hoping to catch an attention of good-looking men. He knew how to move, how to touch his body, how to close his eyes and open mouth. He was good at this. And he definitely needed to be fucked, his whole body was shouting for this.

Kame didn't wait too long. He felt hands on his waist and wet tongue and neck. He moaned and turned to his partner. Yeah, really handsome man with brown hair, full lips and desire in eyes. Exactly his type. Their mouths met and tongues started the battle, in which Kame willingly surrendered. He felt strong grip on his wrist and was pulled out of dancefloor towards toilet.

It was quick. Just few moments of peeling of clothes and preparing. Kazuya moaned when the other entered him. In his head there was someone else, but he couldn't admit that. He wanted to forget. And he melted in thrusts, came after few minutes of being fucked senselessly and heard something about being good and tight from the other. He didn't look at his partner when he went out the stall. It was just to fill his needs and he didn't see a reason to talk or being polite. Kazuya came back to the table to find Yamapi and Ryo looking at him with disbelief in eyes. Yeah, maybe it was too much, but hey, he was in big need.

- Where's Jin? - he asked as nothing happened.

- He told something must've make his stomach crazy and went home - Ryo tried to look calm.

- Oh... So maybe I should back too. I don't wanna leave him with illness alone. He may be totally reckless.

- Yeah... He's Bakanishi after all... See ya! - Yamapi waved him. Kame winked at them and went out of club.

Fortunately it wasn't far from home, so after 15 minutes of walking he stood before doors fishing keys in his pocket.

Jin was sitting on sofa. He looked at Kame and stood up.

- Why you didn't tell me? - he asked staring at wall. - I think that after first party it was the perfect occasion, don't you think so? - Jin’s voice showed his hurt soul. Lack of trust - what kind of brothers they are?

- Maybe. Maybe not. I just wasn't sure if I want to tell anybody.

- And this is THAT thing that made you beg to hide our connection?

- Partly. But it doesn't change the fact, that it's too late to tell everyone that we're brothers. And let it be like that - Kame had all control over his body and voice. All… But for how long?

- How? - Jin asked after few moments of silence.

- Huh? - it was time for Kame to be surprised.

- How has it happened that we were so close and knew about each other everything and now... Now you don't trust me...

- I trust you.

- You didn't tell me you are gay. It could save us some comedy with trying to avoid the subject. And... - Jin's voice crooked.

- And what?

- Today... With this guy... In toilet... - Jin couldn't find right words.

- Oh yeah... He fucked me. Quickly and with protection. I'm here one month and have some needs too. So I took the chance - Kame explained without any hesitation.

- Kazuya... What happened? How you became so... - Jin’s voice was somehow… lost?

- Slutty? I think it's in genes. I'm eighteen, it's about the time to start this things. Oh, no, it wasn't my first time. So sleep well - Kame smiled widely and hide in his room. Clicking of lock broke the discussion.

Jin looked at him. Where's his innocent brother gone? How it happened? And why he had still in his head Yamapi's words about trying together? He shook his head.

‘No fucking way! Kazuya is my BROTHER! Even if he don't want to admit that. Oh, Jin, take a grip! You are not allowed to think this way about your brother! Damn, I have to remind myself about our family... If not... FUCK!!! Akanishi Kazuya, even if you are now Kamenashi Kazuya, you are my brother and I'm here to protect you, not to think about you and this guy...’

But Jin knew, that something changed. They weren't living together four years, now they were pretending being only friends. And it was the matter of time for Yamapi and Ryo to start making them a couple...

With this thoughts Jin closed his eyes lying in bed. Maybe he should tell Kame to look for a new place to live... Or maybe it's time to stop this comedy and tell boys that they're brothers... None of this promised painless and happy end. Great, Akanishi Jin, right now you screwed yourself by your very own brother.

Angry moan left Jin's mouth. Shit, this whole situation started to become more twisted than it seemed at the beginning.

Part 2 (comments are open under second part)