[Multi-chapter] Mikazuki (Crescent moon) Chapter 13/??
Title: 三日月 (Crescent moon)
Authors: tsuchi8562
Bet: geminib ArigaPYON~!
Pairing: Matsumiya (main), Sakuraiba (side), Ohmiya (one-sided)
Genre: AU, Angst, Drama, Psychological
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: We don't own them. Not that we don't want to though...
A/N: A/N: Whole thing is freely based on movie "Girl, interrupted". We took title from Ayaka's song Mikazuki, which lyrics somehow fits the whole story. Enjoy ;)
*MASTERPOST*
The morning air was refreshing and Ninomiya’s mind was finally clear. Even though he remembered everything from the last night’s party, there were still a few details he was wondering about. Was it true that Jun acted possessively towards him, as if he was jealous or was it just a stupid trick of his dimmed brain?
“Sweetie pie just gave up to my charm?” The blond man giggled and took a large sip of a beer.
“It’s not a good breakfast, you know?” Matsumoto appeared out of nowhere and sat next to the latter. He looked like crap, with dark circles under his eyes and a bit pale skin but all in all, he was still the handsome man he had always been.
“And since when you started to care, sweetie pie?” Kazunari smirked, emptied the bottle and threw it away in the tall grass. “Since you claimed me as yours yesterday?” The shorter man couldn’t help but laugh when a slight blush covered Jun’s cheeks.
“It’s cause of the drugs…” The taller one mumbled and looked down, incredibly busy with searching his pockets for money. When he took out two banknotes and some coins a loud sigh left his lungs. “I think I should buy something to eat, but that means that we’ll be out of cash.”
“Nice change of subject… But yes, you are right. Mari said we can stay here, nobody will come anyway.”
“And where did everybody go?” Matsumoto rubbed his stomach, which started to make growling sounds.
“They are like gypsies. Moving from place to place… Who knows where they are? The only sure thing is that they won’t return here. You should buy some food. I’ll wait here for you.” Kazunari became somehow serious and looked somewhere in the distance. He missed those people, because he felt free with them. Maybe he even considered them as a family? Mari asked him to go with her people, but he decided he will stay here with Jun. The blond man was aware that his escape partner won’t agree for wandering around with a bunch of junkies.
“You sure you don’t want to go with me?”
“No. They are looking for two men, one of them with hair dyed yellow. Like it or not, but I am more recognizable actor-san…” Nino smiled and went inside the building, heading to the room he was sleeping in last night. He was feeling weird. From one hand, he was free and finally he could breathe a fresh air, outside the damned clinic’s walls. However from the other he still felt cuffed with Matsumoto and that limited his freedom but in a very pleasurable way. Of course they didn’t do anything more since the awesome blow job in the hotel, but still… Except the yesterday’s kiss, nothing happened between them. Kazunari lay on his back and stared in the ceiling, wondering what got into Jun. The most interesting thing was that he felt something during that kiss. Something more than a simple arousal, excitement or satisfaction. The clinic for mentally ill is his home, how the hell he could fall for anyone?!
“You’re not in love, you’re just afraid of being alone…” Nino talked to himself and turned his gaze to the window. It was already dark outside and Matsumoto was still away, looking for something to eat. Or maybe he just left Kazunari because he had enough? Suddenly the air in the room became cold. The blond man stood up and walked around the house, not knowing himself what he was looking for. With passing time Ninomiya started to tremble, so he got back to the room he was sleeping in and covered himself with an old and stinky blanket he found somewhere.
Alone… The tiny voice in his head echoed, becoming louder and louder and soon it mixed with some annoying sound coming from outside. Even if Nino wrapped himself in another bedcover his body was shaken by spasm and after a while his breath shortened. Wet with sweat, the blond man couldn’t move, whispering only one word, increasing the fear he felt.
“Alone… Alone… Alone…” Kazunari repeated like some kind of scary mantra, trying to inhale as much air as his shrunken lungs allowed. Suddenly he felt so weak that he just rolled off the bed on the floor and saw the room spinning. The time seemed to slow down, extending every second to an hour. From the distance Nino heard a sound of breaking glass and rushed steps and after another while he hears his name called by a familiar voice.
“Nino? Come on, Kazu what happened? Are you sick?” Matsumoto pulled him back on bed and touched his forehead, probably checking if the latter has a fever. After a while, that seemed to be eternity, Ninomiya calmed down and sat up, holding his head which started to ache out of sudden.
“What happened?” Jun frowned and looked carefully at the shorter man.
“Nothing.” Kazunari mumbled and closed his eyes, trying to chase away every trace of anxiety.
“It wasn’t nothing, you were shaking as if you were epileptic… Are you sick?”
“Yes I am… I am mentally sick. Sweetie pie, do you think they would keep me in the clinic for eight years if I was healthy?” Kazunari tried to be his usual self, but somehow this didn’t sound convincing even for him. “I am fine. Don’t worry or I’ll start imagining things…” The older man tried to get up but Jun’s strong grip made him stay in bed.
“Lay back, I will bring some cloth and will clean before the whole room will stink like alcohol factory…” Matsumoto smiled and left the room. Ninomiya didn’t move an inch, feeling the anxiety coming back. He had two options; whether he will fight with it or let it consume him like previously. With shaky legs the blond man stood up and went to the window, tripping a few times on the way. He took a deep breath, when he still could, and started to scream, hitting the wall with his fist.
“I am not alone, you bitch! Go away! I won’t let you destroy me!!!” Kazunari was yelling to nobody in particular, just to calm himself down before another panic attack will appear. He was walking around the room, repeating that he is not alone and that Jun will come back in a while, but this strategy failed, letting shivers take over his body again. Nino fell on his knees, which wasn’t able to support him anymore. In a split of a second Jun found himself close to the latter and embraced him tightly, rocking him like a baby.
“I am not alone you damn bitch…” Ninomiya repeated, this time calmer and quieter. “I am not…”
“No, you are not alone. I am here… Can’t you feel it?” The taller man’s voice sounded closely to the latter’s ear.
“Cold…” Kazunari whispered and looked at Matsumoto. The younger one whispered something which the blond on couldn’t catch and before any of them could think their lips joined in a slow kiss. The spasms became quieter and soon Nino let his escape partner be, replying on the kiss insatiably. Jun gently pushed Ninomiya on the floor and lay on top of him, moving his lips to the blond guy’s neck. Quiet moans left Kazunari’s throat when the latter’s tongue started to explore the skin, moving to the front and licking the collarbones. Neither of them uttered a word, focusing on removing their clothes and physical contact. Nino was torn between gentle traces of panic that still were spreading across his cells and sensation of Matsumoto’s fingers burning his skin.
“Jun… Cold…” The blond man repeated, this time louder a bit. As a response he received shower of kisses, spread all over his chest and heading lower, stopping just above the semi-hard flesh.
“I’ll warm you up, Kazu…” The taller man whispered and breathed on Nino’s erection, which made Ninomiya moan. Before another terrifying thought about being alone hit Kazunari, he felt hot cave closing tightly around his member and got lost in the feeling, closing his eyes. Warmth spread in his stomach, heating up the blood in his veins when he felt something cold entering him and causing slight ache. The contrast between pleasure and pain almost made him cross the edge but then, suddenly everything disappeared. No sound, only silence and darkness surrounding him. Bits of fear came back, spreading inside him like cockroaches and he shivered again, not able to say a word feeling lump in his throat. Alone… Alone… ALONE!!! The letters were flashing inside Kazunari’s mind and didn’t want to go away no matter how hard he tried to push them somewhere deeper.
“Jun?” The blond man whispered and dared to open his eyes to see the taller man above him, spreading the lube around his hard member.
“I am here…”
“I don’t feel… I… I can’t feel!!!” Ninomiya was close to cry, when he felt the latter’s weight on him and soon he was filled. The physical contact and this connection chased the anxiety away, leaving place only for ecstasy. The air was filled with moans, fastened breaths, sound of two bodies clashing against each other and smell of sex when Jun set a fast pace of his thrusts. Matsumoto lifted Nino’s hips a bit and placed a pillow underneath, giving himself a chance to find the best angle so he could hit the right spot every time. The blond man’s eyes were locked at his lover’s face and soon his hands started to trace his features gently, as if they had their own will. Jun smiled and let the latter be, moaning and licking Kazunari’s fingers when Nino touched his lips. Soon Jun’s hand wrapped around Ninomiya’s already licking member and started to pump in the same rhythm as their hips movements.
“Ah, fuck! I’m close…” The taller one hissed and speeded up, feeling the walls clenching around him when Nino was also close to his climax. After a few more strokes, when he felt hot semen on his hand, he exploded inside the shorter man, moving unsteady, trying both to feel the high longer and give the man underneath him more pleasure. Matsumoto fell on Kazunari and tried to even his breath, when he slowly pulled out with a light moan. The older one involuntarily embraced his lover and didn’t let him move. Neither of them said anything, just lying and hugging each other until the chill chased them to the bed. Jun cleaned them both and sneaked under the blanket next to Nino and cradled him. The blond man didn’t move, as if he was paralyzed and waited until the latter will fall asleep.
***
It was right. It was wrong. It was pleasurable to the limits. It also was painful. He was in love, now he was sure. That was dangerous, because whenever he feels something more to somebody it ends in the worst possible way. That’s why he decided to go away and leave Matsumoto alone. He is a smart kid, he will handle. Ninomiya sat up gently and looked at sleeping Jun. He couldn’t help but smile when he saw the angelic face and leaned to place a kiss on latter’s soft lips. Kazunari stopped an inch away from them, not able to join their lips and sighed quietly.
“I fell for you sweetie pie… Did you hear me? I fell for you…” He whispered and held his breath when Matsumoto winced and turned on the side, mumbling something incoherently. Gently, Nino stood up, got dressed and making as less noise as possible he get the receipt from the paper bag with groceries that was still on the floor. Quickly he scribbled four words on it and went outside the house. He decided to go south, hoping he will be able to see the ocean before he get caught. After forty minutes of walking he turned around to look at the shadow of the building and took a deep breath.
***
Somewhere on the floor, close to Jun’s shoes a small piece of paper was gently glowing in the light of disappearing crescent. Four words were the only smudge that destroyed its whiteness.
I fell for you…