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karaokegal

Impromptu gratitude list.

Jan 20, 2015 14:29

1. Shoes
2. I ate my lunch (all of it) sitting down, with a fork and I feel satisfied with it.
3. My Torchwood rage (or even House MD rage) feels like a lifetime ago.
4. Yoga at Laughing Lotus
5. Especially the Kirtan practice led by Astrud, kind of my latest girl-crush.
6. Bulletproof coffee tea ( Read more... )

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Comments 3

joanne_c January 24 2015, 02:15:12 UTC

I'm kind of glad about the fandom rage seeming so long ago. There were times I worried how vitriolic you were being, but didn't say anything, it was just fandom stuff, you know?

The rest all sounds great :) So glad you are doing better.

Who knows? Maybe someday a fandom will catch you again and it'll be quieter and more enjoyable this time around. If not? I'm glad to know you. The internet is amazing - I know all these great people who I never would without it :)

karaokegal January 24 2015, 14:14:45 UTC

Let's say that it was a coping mechanism for the misery I was already in at work. Not necessarily a healthy one, although it certainly unleashed a LOT of creativity...or wasted it, as the case may be. It was easier to deal with hating YOU KNOW WHO than to face how trapped and unhappy I was and take any action.

If amends are necessary as the journey continues, I'll make them or it just might the realization that when I'm that focused on something, I need to look elsewhere for the root causes...like in the mirror.

joanne_c January 26 2015, 04:46:27 UTC

Honestly, I do remember that a lot of the time you'd rage against work and rage against fandom within a couple of posts (can't remember now if it was the same day but I'd be unsurprised if they were), so I think subconsciously I had made the connection at some point. I think that creativity is never really wasted when it comes to writing, but maybe some of it should've stayed in the drawer with hindsight - I have a few things posted around that if they weren't already out there I would rethink now myself, and it's not even some of my earlier efforts (though some of those might stay in the drawer for other reasons). But I get it, I really do.

If nothing else, at least you've come to that, which makes it worth it - knowing yourself helps.