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[kara_marie]

I'm extremely moody at the moment - I think it's just normal mom stuff - stupid really. It's nothing big. I think too it's coz I'm just so aimless in my life, too. Everyone has these periods, right? I mean, I used to be so sure of myself and where I was headed, it was all so clear, I had goals and I had a path to totally get myself there - and now

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[somecutpup]

I dunno how you work out what to do with your life. For me I think I just pick some big goal and work toward getting it.

[kara_marie]

I know! But the question is how do you pick goals? I used to be SO good and I'd pick and I'd stick and I was SO SERIOUSLY AWESOME. And for, like, years now - I just can't stand myself. And I keep trying new things and to be what I need to be and whatever? It just hasn't worked.

I mean, I was so into yoga and then I just quit yoga. One day I was just like - I don't care about this - I don't care - I don't care!

I was like - fuck you, Yoga!

Yes, I was!

And I feel all the time like everyone hates me! And I try to talk to people and be nice but my REAL SELF shines thru and people HATE me.

It's a pickle.

Anyway - I've decided to apply for a BA of fine arts in Interior Design.

[somecutpup]

Aw, the yoga thing seemed cool.

But whoo, BA. Were you wanting to start in the fall?

[kara_marie]

I know. I'm clearly just a loser. I can't stick to ANYTHING.

I don't know. I don't know!