It absolutely does. Reading these logs made me D: about it all over again, and made me remember our recent 5x10 rewatch. (Was that recent?? What does "recent" mean anymore.)
I'm so glad my computer saved these, aaaah. They are so embarrassing and I don't recognize myself, but in that August timespan where I was first getting into SPN, three things this journal was talking about were 1) SPN, 2) feeling lots of anxiety about overwhelming my conversation partners with information about my hyperfixations, and 3) HITSUGAYA LOL SO SOMEHOW WE'VE COME LIKE, ALL THE WAY FULL CIRCLE. The SPN gravity just pulled him with it, apparently. XDDD
I was thinking about when we watched it, too! I think "recent" has lost its meaning, ahaha. I HAVE NO IDEA WHEN THAT WAS. (Long ago enough that we are definitely due for another!) But yeah, I'd almost forgotten how gut-wrenching that whole scene is. Even though I cry EVERY TIME. From that phone conversation through end of the episode, it's just one crisis after another and I love it I love it I love it.
feeling lots of anxiety about overwhelming my conversation partners with information about my hyperfixations This feeling is timeless. XD
You prompted me to go back and see if I could find my first eljay post about SPN. I think it was on April 1st, 2006, and I recced a vid by wistful_fever. SO LONG AGO.
Congratulations! And it's amazing that you've kept your old chat messages! You must have switched phones thousands of times since then. I'm very happy you are reliving your old fandom memories! <3
I am VERY pleased that iChat saved all these chats. Macs use the same app for text messages and other instant messages, so these are actually old AIM chats LOLOL. Bless up for the archives from dinosaur technology. <3333
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"Bobby and Dean are talking"
Oh GOSH that scene will GET YOU. Still one of my top favorites in 15 years on Show. Gut punches EVERY TIME.
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I'm so glad my computer saved these, aaaah. They are so embarrassing and I don't recognize myself, but in that August timespan where I was first getting into SPN, three things this journal was talking about were 1) SPN, 2) feeling lots of anxiety about overwhelming my conversation partners with information about my hyperfixations, and 3) HITSUGAYA LOL SO SOMEHOW WE'VE COME LIKE, ALL THE WAY FULL CIRCLE. The SPN gravity just pulled him with it, apparently. XDDD
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feeling lots of anxiety about overwhelming my conversation partners with information about my hyperfixations
This feeling is timeless. XD
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