Where has all the time flown??

[kaiserkuchen]

As most of you already know through FB and what-not, I've been back in Vienna since late Sunday evening. Civilization, it is a pleasure to be nestled in your welcoming, internet-access enabled bosom yet again! Krimml as a whole was as always predictable and enjoyable if one knew where to get one's little happy moments, and I fully admit that this

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[cheshire_tabby]

are you... one of those internet bullies now? ;o;

also: I am starving, I think. oh no, Olga, do not go into the light. XD

[kaiserkuchen]

Eher an INTERNET DUMBASS, I think >_>;;

I know riiight, dude I was getting hungry just thinking about it again. MMMMH.

[cheshire_tabby]

aaah, and that's the reason why

[kaiserkuchen]

I normally don't really say much beyond fannish squee on the internet too, which made the whole thing give me erst recht a giant jolt of 'shitshitshit how do I react correctly and in a fitting manner shitshitshit *panic*' too.

I AM LÖFFELING SOME ROTE GRÜTZE NOW om nom nom and dude if you are hungry 24-7, going on a pub-crawl wouldn't really help? Unless you are gonna be the one munching on shepard's pie while the rest are chugging beer?

[bravecows]

Dude, not that it's my place to give you cookies, 'cos I could totally see myself being faily in the same way -- what you said re: not having had wide-ranging experiences and being under-educated in a lot of areas totally describes me. But I just wanted to say that I think it's cool how you've reacted. Let's keep trying! \o/

[kaiserkuchen]

I think I can safely say that this is one lesson that will imprint itself in my brain for a long, long time, ahhhh every time I think about the moment when the first bolt of realization hit like a cast-iron frying pan to the head and I am still writhing in total embarrassment and OTL.

But as you said, one must try to soldier on, and faito faito to gain better understanding!

Also, thank you for this comment, because while the whole thing had me feeling horrible in general for being an idiot who wholly deserved the schooling that deepad graciously imparted, a small and selfish part of me was also worried that whatever opinion you have of me would be forever tainted with this fuck-up, since I saw your comment at deepad's post and remembered from RaceFail'09 reading (back when I was still safe and sound in my assumption that I would do no wrong) that you guys were friends.

[bravecows]

a small and selfish part of me was also worried that whatever opinion you have of me would be forever tainted with this fuck-upNo, dude. I've been thinking about how to reply to this because my first impulse is to reassure you, and I don't want to downplay what you did in your story, because that was pretty heinous. At the same time, I think it's probably the same with you as it is with me -- my upbringing didn't throw me much in the way of learning about the fraught racial issues that surround Black hair. But it did give me a lot of opportunities to internalise the deep racism against Black people embedded in Western (and Asian!) society. So "my upbringing! my background!" is not a good excuse, you know

[kaiserkuchen]

I really appreciate this comment, and your explanation, and just-- thank you ♥

[lizfu]

*blink* Forgive my ignorance and forgive me if I'm going to make you relive something you'd rather put behind you, but what happened? I'm asking because I've been drifting out of politifandom and haven't been to RBR since February. After seeing the aftermath, I realized that something happened and that I'm completely out of the loop; and then I saw your journal entry and thought that you could explain.

[lizfu]

Never mind. Followed a few links and found out what happened.

[kaiserkuchen]

Ahh, sorry for the delay in replying-- managed to see your first comment when I left for uni this morning, and had a full day today, but uh now I see I don't have to describe how unbelievably stupid I was again, haah small mercies.

(but man do I ever know that feeling of having missed something going on that everyone involved is kind of just referencing to, and you're just bursting from curiosity to find out what it was)