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kairuokami

Learning to Communicate

Jul 31, 2007 00:44

I tire of attempting to clarify my thoughts for myself. Tying to find enough filler to make more than a few scattered sentences that really only create a sensation of.. of what I don't know, abrupt is what I do know ( Read more... )

communicating

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lawgrrl_23 July 31 2007, 15:35:43 UTC

It has been a while. The better question is, how have you been?

And why worry about writing self-indulgently? It's your blog; write what you want. I think self-indulgent blogs can be the most interesting and, upon re-reading in the future, the most insightful to the writer. So write on!

kairuokami July 31 2007, 17:33:09 UTC

How have I been? I am so programed to say fine, but no really it almost is, despite the fact I've had a lot of pain, it troubles me but not to a degree of feeling required to have it examined. The threshold is too high.
Running away from everyone I know didn't do me any good, but I don't feel any more lonely. They feel more important now.
I don't want to annoy my imaginary audience, I want to appeal to them but still present something of personal value.

How have I been? I've been hanging off a cliff beginning to wish the rope would just snap seeing as no is coming to save me. It is wrong to expect to be saved. But if I had the guts it would be easy to get to the top.