Disturbing nightmare

[kageokami666]

So Saturday night I had a really bad dream that has been bothering me now for the last two days.  The dream is vaguely reminiscent of one I had a few years ago and it really disturbs me now that this is the second time of having a dream of this nature.  I feel horrible, dirty, and guilty for apparently even having such thoughts and that fact that

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[batchix]

probably residual guilt about the rabbit or something else. Sometimes our brains just torment us with the "what if" of doing something horrible. It might be a reaction to you feeling that you have a lack of control over some situation you're in and so your brain is producing violent imagery where you do something drastic just to prove to yourself that you CAN do something. That probably doesn't make sense... but i've had dreams like that too that just haunt me for days. Usually it involves me beating small children. I would never hurt a kid IRL but i periodically have dreams where some kid mouths off and i beat the ever loving crap out of them. They aren't usually really hurt at all, but the conscious part of my brain sort of wakes up at that point and is like THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!

[kageokami666]

That makes sense and I can relate to what you mean. I know I feel bad about hating the rabbit, it's not the rabbits fault that my sister did not clean him or his cage well or frequently enough.

And I know I do have some instances where I feel I lack control over the situation. Like I had to move back in with my family after graduating because I don't make enough to live on my own and pay back all the debts that I have, and there are a lot of limitations just from that one thing.

I could never see myself ever hurting the cats but it's somewhat terrifying how cold and methodical the dream made it. It wasn't hurting the cat by accident or in a fit of rage it was methodically bashing the cats head into the ground with the goal of smashing it's head in. and that ruthlessness and cruelty was absolutely terrifying

[tsarist_secret]

The thing is, people tend to think dreams are related to things irl. They are yes, but I've had some crazy ass dreams too and you know what? They're dreams. Did you actually do it? No, of course not.

So relax. A dream is not a precursor to something or a latent desire. In dreams...things get all mixed up and messed around.

[kageokami666]

I just have to keep telling myself that until I can fully accept it.

Usually I love my dreams they are vivid and full of adventure and fun. This one was just too disturbing in how realistic and vivid everything was especially with the cruelty involved.

[tsarist_secret]

Yeah, you just need to relax. No need to accept it... just brush it off. You're not a cat murderer haha.