oh how i wish i was not inlove with him....oh how i wish i could just forget about him(ok not forget about him) but just be able to know that he will never love me the same way i love him.... I wish i knew what to do. I really wish we could just be a happy family together, and raise our daughter together... :( i dont know i am just sad that he ( Read more... )

aww the baby shower was a blast :) I am so happy that my family got to meet some of my friends from Church... Mel i do want ot thank you for the baby shower... it was so awsome .. :) so yea baby shower was great and i am still so out of it... :) well i got to go MiKayla wants her mommie to eat something :)

Well I went to the Dr yesterday, She said everything looks great and that the baby is still not ready to come anytime soon... which might be a really good thing right now.. even though i want her out so much.. i dont think right now is the time to have her... so i will just keep waiting for my MiKayla ( Read more... )

oh yea..... i am so happy today... Mellisa GOT TO FEEL THE BABY MOVE:) sorry i am just really happy about that... because i have tried to let her feel her move and well MiKayla is just a little brat and would never move when Mel was right there...so that was an awsome thing.... Mel i love you ( Read more... )

1st off i need to say that i love the ladies in my one group, but oh my i really think they are trying to make me afraid of having the baby. mmmm not to much is going on other than that... trying to stay out of trouble.

Well i am getting so excited about having MiKayla... Everything is going good... My Melbell and Christina are both planning my baby shower for the end of the month. so that will be really nice... i just have to make sure that i dont have the baby before then. :) I went to this birthing group thing with my friend who taught me about my options ( Read more... )

i am going to first take some things from my Xanga. and then i will write more

I have to say that i really love my youth pastor(even though he is not the youth pastor any more) but wow do i love him and his wife... Well I now know that this baby is going to have an army raising her...... P Don is so funny... I think if it was up to him I would not have any soda, candy, or anything good...... Well the baby shower is going to ( Read more... )

last night was really awsome.. i had the chance to talk to my best guy friend (Alex). and we just talked about really awsome things. i so can not wait to move to Tx for TeenMania internship. i mean just think about it one full year in a place that is made for teens and young adults to grow into the person God wants them to be... i think it is so ( Read more... )

the funeral was yeasterday. and boy i wish i did not go... it was so freaky... i mean she was so lifeless and cold... well i dont know ... i mean i know she is died... but why.... this su.cks.... it was so creapy... i mean yeah wow i have never been to an open one in a long time... the last one was my own great grand mother but that was when i was ( Read more... )