[chaptered] Angel Devil (1/?)
Title: Angel Devil (1/?)
Author: junjun_pon
Pairing: Sakumiya, Ohmiya
Genre: angst, drama, smut, romance (maybe?)
Rating: NC-17 (language, sexual situations, etc.)
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the boys!
Summary: Nino has a wonderful life, however he finds himself in a tough spot and is in a constant battle with his emotions.
a/n: It's been a reeeeeally long time since I've last written a fic. So be kind. Also, comments are love :3
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Sweat drips from his forehead and down his pale neck. The bathroom fan buzzes loudly and his reflection peeks past the messy fog on the toothpaste spattered mirror. His lips tremble as he makes eye contact with himself, a rusted box-cutter blade purposefully resting against his neck. He grips the metal handle of the blade tight enough to turn his knuckles white. His muscles tense to make the move. He shuts his dusty brown eyes tightly, his face turning to a grimace. He hears his heart racing, every beat pounding against his eardrums; he can feel it.
“Blood…I’ve seen blood before,” he whispers to himself, parting his dry lips, “It’s just my blood…it won’t hurt.”
He presses the blade to his skin and feels it sink in as his breath becomes labored and his hand begins to shake.
He tries to hold it steady with his free hand but lets out a frustrated cry.
“Fuck!” He pulls the blade from his neck and throws it against the sandy counter top. The heavy metal chips off a flake of the stone and hits the tile floor with a jarring clatter. He lets out another frustrated cry and crumples to the ground. Crouching, he puts his hands over his face and lets out a gentle sob. It’s dark behind his hands, the pink shine of healed cut scars on his wrists laugh at him for all his previous failures.
“Why can’t I do it?!” he says, running his short fingers through his hair and pulling enough to induce him to scream with rage. “It’s not that fucking hard!”
“Tadaima~” a soft voice says from the other room as the front door shut, shaking the bathroom door, “Kazu? Are you home?”
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My name is Ninomiya Kazunari and I hate myself. Nothing about me is good. I’m ill natured, annoying, cheap, and worst of all, selfish. I want to die.
I’ve tried many ways, suffocation, drowning, medications and alcohol, and lastly, cutting.
…
I have a wonderful life, a loving boyfriend, a nice home, friends…No one knows what I think about, what I’m going through. I choose to say nothing and hide the evidence.
…
What’s wrong with me? I should get help…but…
…
I am Ninomiya Kazunari, and I want to die.
You need to die…
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“Ow…Oh-chan,” Nino moans face down in a fluffy white pillow, “Don’t grab so hard.”
Ohno chuckles and thrusts his member hard into Nino, gripping him tighter. Nino can’t help but moan loudly but then whines and turns his head to look over his bare shoulder.
“I said you’re grabbing too hard!” he says, glaring, “Sho-chan will ask about the bruises again!”
Noting the serious tone in his lover’s voice, he loosens his grip on Nino’s hips but continues to thrust slowly.
Nino turns his head back and pushes his hips back against Ohno’s causing Ohno to grunt.
“I love when you actually try, baby,” Ohno says, his voice smooth and low.
“Shut up, old man,” Nino snaps, “I do try!”
Ohno moans deep in his throat and picks up the pace. He loved Nino’s sharp tongue, especially when they were fucking. The soft bed creaks loudly underneath them.
“Fuck, Kazu, your ass is always so tight!” Ohno groans, thrusting quickly. He spanks Nino’s left ass cheek hard with a loud ‘smack’.
Nino cries out in pleasure as Ohno simultaneously spanks him and hits his sensitive spot, “Ahn~ Oh-chan!” Nino moans, “Come inside me!”
Ohno licks his lips, “Here I come, baby.” He moans low and whispers under his breath and pulls Nino as close to him as possible. Nino relaxes his body and lies limply, mewling softly. Ohno releases inside Nino, thrusting slowly.
“Oh-chan…” Nino whispers, “You’re amazing.”
Ohno pulls out slowly and lies down on the bed, enjoying the soft fitted sheet against his sweaty tan skin.
Nino still lies face down, but curls his legs under his body into a fetal position shape. He turns his head to face Ohno and gives a tired, warm smile.
“There’s my cute boy,” Ohno says tenderly, returning the smile. He sits up and pulls the light tan blankets that had fallen off the bed up and over Nino’s naked body, “You’ll get cold.”
Nino plops on his side and curls up next to Ohno, “You’re such a gentleman afterward…what’s up with that?” Nino says. Ohno welcomes Nino into his arms and steals some of Nino’s blankets.
“I’m always a gentleman, you’re just pissed because I spanked you,” Ohno chuckles.
“Am not!” Nino whines. He sticks his bottom lip out and pouts. Ohno pokes Nino’s lip with his finger.
“No pouting.”
“I can pout all I want!” Nino complains.
“You’re cuter when you smile,” Ohno replies. Nino blushes and stops pouting. He looks past Ohno toward the sleek black digital alarm clock on the bedside table.
“What time does Sakurai-san come back?” Ohno asks.
Nino squints and reads the time, “Two hours. He gets off work at 7:30…”
“Then I should get going…” Ohno whispers and pulls away from Nino.
Nino pulls him back and whines. He doesn’t want to let Ohno leave so early, otherwise he’d be lonely until Sho arrives back home.
“Just one more hour?” Nino pleads.
“I can’t, Kazu. That’s cutting things too close for me. I’m sorry…” Ohno says, “But I can help you clean up if you want.”
Nino nods and sits up, “I need to clean myself first…but if you want to take the sheets off the bed…”
“I can do that, go clean yourself,” Ohno replies.
Nino nods and slides out of the bed and shuffles his naked body to the bathroom where he disappears. He shuts the door behind him and locks it. He sighs heavily and looks at himself in the mirror. He murmurs, “You’re such a slut, Kazunari…” His eyes are dead and cold, a complete opposite mood then he shows Ohno.
Meanwhile, Ohno puts his boxers back on and strips the dirty sheets off the bed. He crumples them up and tosses them aside. He searches around the room for some new sheets but the trail came up cold. He spends the rest of the time putting his white dress shirt and jeans back on. He fumbles with the grey buttons while looking at the frames photos of Nino and Sho together on their vacation from a few months prior.
Nino opens the door to the bathroom and Ohno turns away from the photos and strolls toward Nino.
“You all squeaky clean?” he asks.
Nino nods and gives Ohno a soft smile, “I’m all clean! You couldn’t find the clean sheets?”
“No, I didn’t want to dig around too much, that would be awkward,” Ohno replies. Ohno leans over and kisses Nino’s cheek, “You’re so cute, don’t change, baby.”
Nino blushes a soft pink and blinks, “W-what do you mean? Where’d that come from?”
“Nowhere, I just think you’re cute!” Ohno says, kissing him again.
Nino opens a small closet door and pulls out a set of light green sheets and begins making the bed. Ohno just watches and continue buttoning up his shirt. He hums a random popular song to himself as Nino makes the bed rather sloppily.
When Nino finishes, he opens a light blonde wood dresser’s drawer and pulls out a pair of boxers and red and brown plaid checked shorts. He sits on the edge of the bed. Ohno joins him and just watches.
“Why are you watching me, old man?” Nino chuckles.
“Why not? I stared at your ass for twenty minutes straight, and you’re embarrassed about this?” Ohno retorts.
Nino rolls his eyes and chuckles as he slips his boxers on with both legs and then slides his shorts up afterward. He stands up and pulls them up all the way and fastens his shorts. Ohno continues staring at Nino.
“Stop staring, old man!” Nino whines, holding back a snarky smile.
“Okay okay,” Ohno says, defeated. He stands up and starts putting his black leather wallet, car keys, and random receipts from the liquor store, into his pockets. “By the way, I’m only thirty; I’m not old yet…”
“Well I’m only twenty-three, so that makes you an old man,” Nino replies. He gets up and sticks his tongue out. He hugs Ohno tightly, “We should go out to dinner soon, okay?”
Ohno smiles, “Of course, baby. I’ll text you later tonight.”
Nino nods and leads Ohno to the front door, “Bye bye, Oh-chan.” They kiss rather passionately and Ohno leaves.
He sighs lightly and sits on the couch for a bit and plays with the faux suede trim of a green throw pillow, “Why are you such a slut, Kazunari…?” he mumbles, “You already have someone…why are you playing with this other guy?” He hugs the pillow and pulls his legs onto the couch. He stares at a dark stain on the carpet and he begins to doze off as he sways gently side to side.
You’re such a slut! You have a boyfriend. You’ve been together for four years already! What are you doing you sick fuck?!
I don’t know…I…
You’re such an unhappy person, you’re scum of the earth, cheater. You should just go and die…
But…I love Sho-chan…I…I couldn’t leave him alone…
Then why are you cheating with that old man?
I…I don’t know…he’s nice…
So you’d just go and fuck any guy who’s nice?
N-no! I-
You don’t deserve anyone. You’re tainted.
But-
You. Are. Worthless.
…
…
…maybe-maybe you’re right.
The front door to the apartment unlocks and stumbling footsteps wake Nino from his impromptu nap. Ohno had tired him out and hour and a half before.
“Kazu, baby, you here?” Sho looks around the room and lays his eyes on a sleepy shadow of Nino. He flips the light switch up to turn the light on. “Were you sleeping? Didn’t you go to work today?”
Nino shakes his head and gets up from the couch, rubbing his eyes, “No, I got called and they told me not to come in to work…”
Sho nods as if he understand, “That’s weird, they’ve been doing that a lot to you lately…do you think they are going to fire you?”
“I don’t think so, they’re just over-staffed. The convenience store can only have so many people working, Sho-chan,” Nino replies.
Sho smiles brightly, “Yeah, I know, I know, just try to work a bit more…we need to pay bills.”
Nino just nods silently and shuffles off to the bedroom and lies down. Sho follows him.
“You made the bed again! Well at least you’re doing something,” he says plopping on the bed, the pillows bouncing around, and one falling down off the side of the bed.
“Mmm…yeah…” Nino replies.
Yeah, you’ve really been doing something, Kazunari.
But-
Slutty Kazunari. Tsk Tsk
St-stop!
Not going to…until you die…
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a/n: I hope you all liked it! I've been trying really hard to get back into writing and what better to christen my new LJ than with a really dramatic fic, haha. I will try to keep updating as best I can. Thank you for reading~
Author: junjun_pon
Pairing: Sakumiya, Ohmiya
Genre: angst, drama, smut, romance (maybe?)
Rating: NC-17 (language, sexual situations, etc.)
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the boys!
Summary: Nino has a wonderful life, however he finds himself in a tough spot and is in a constant battle with his emotions.
a/n: It's been a reeeeeally long time since I've last written a fic. So be kind. Also, comments are love :3
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Sweat drips from his forehead and down his pale neck. The bathroom fan buzzes loudly and his reflection peeks past the messy fog on the toothpaste spattered mirror. His lips tremble as he makes eye contact with himself, a rusted box-cutter blade purposefully resting against his neck. He grips the metal handle of the blade tight enough to turn his knuckles white. His muscles tense to make the move. He shuts his dusty brown eyes tightly, his face turning to a grimace. He hears his heart racing, every beat pounding against his eardrums; he can feel it.
“Blood…I’ve seen blood before,” he whispers to himself, parting his dry lips, “It’s just my blood…it won’t hurt.”
He presses the blade to his skin and feels it sink in as his breath becomes labored and his hand begins to shake.
He tries to hold it steady with his free hand but lets out a frustrated cry.
“Fuck!” He pulls the blade from his neck and throws it against the sandy counter top. The heavy metal chips off a flake of the stone and hits the tile floor with a jarring clatter. He lets out another frustrated cry and crumples to the ground. Crouching, he puts his hands over his face and lets out a gentle sob. It’s dark behind his hands, the pink shine of healed cut scars on his wrists laugh at him for all his previous failures.
“Why can’t I do it?!” he says, running his short fingers through his hair and pulling enough to induce him to scream with rage. “It’s not that fucking hard!”
“Tadaima~” a soft voice says from the other room as the front door shut, shaking the bathroom door, “Kazu? Are you home?”
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My name is Ninomiya Kazunari and I hate myself. Nothing about me is good. I’m ill natured, annoying, cheap, and worst of all, selfish. I want to die.
I’ve tried many ways, suffocation, drowning, medications and alcohol, and lastly, cutting.
…
I have a wonderful life, a loving boyfriend, a nice home, friends…No one knows what I think about, what I’m going through. I choose to say nothing and hide the evidence.
…
What’s wrong with me? I should get help…but…
…
I am Ninomiya Kazunari, and I want to die.
You need to die…
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“Ow…Oh-chan,” Nino moans face down in a fluffy white pillow, “Don’t grab so hard.”
Ohno chuckles and thrusts his member hard into Nino, gripping him tighter. Nino can’t help but moan loudly but then whines and turns his head to look over his bare shoulder.
“I said you’re grabbing too hard!” he says, glaring, “Sho-chan will ask about the bruises again!”
Noting the serious tone in his lover’s voice, he loosens his grip on Nino’s hips but continues to thrust slowly.
Nino turns his head back and pushes his hips back against Ohno’s causing Ohno to grunt.
“I love when you actually try, baby,” Ohno says, his voice smooth and low.
“Shut up, old man,” Nino snaps, “I do try!”
Ohno moans deep in his throat and picks up the pace. He loved Nino’s sharp tongue, especially when they were fucking. The soft bed creaks loudly underneath them.
“Fuck, Kazu, your ass is always so tight!” Ohno groans, thrusting quickly. He spanks Nino’s left ass cheek hard with a loud ‘smack’.
Nino cries out in pleasure as Ohno simultaneously spanks him and hits his sensitive spot, “Ahn~ Oh-chan!” Nino moans, “Come inside me!”
Ohno licks his lips, “Here I come, baby.” He moans low and whispers under his breath and pulls Nino as close to him as possible. Nino relaxes his body and lies limply, mewling softly. Ohno releases inside Nino, thrusting slowly.
“Oh-chan…” Nino whispers, “You’re amazing.”
Ohno pulls out slowly and lies down on the bed, enjoying the soft fitted sheet against his sweaty tan skin.
Nino still lies face down, but curls his legs under his body into a fetal position shape. He turns his head to face Ohno and gives a tired, warm smile.
“There’s my cute boy,” Ohno says tenderly, returning the smile. He sits up and pulls the light tan blankets that had fallen off the bed up and over Nino’s naked body, “You’ll get cold.”
Nino plops on his side and curls up next to Ohno, “You’re such a gentleman afterward…what’s up with that?” Nino says. Ohno welcomes Nino into his arms and steals some of Nino’s blankets.
“I’m always a gentleman, you’re just pissed because I spanked you,” Ohno chuckles.
“Am not!” Nino whines. He sticks his bottom lip out and pouts. Ohno pokes Nino’s lip with his finger.
“No pouting.”
“I can pout all I want!” Nino complains.
“You’re cuter when you smile,” Ohno replies. Nino blushes and stops pouting. He looks past Ohno toward the sleek black digital alarm clock on the bedside table.
“What time does Sakurai-san come back?” Ohno asks.
Nino squints and reads the time, “Two hours. He gets off work at 7:30…”
“Then I should get going…” Ohno whispers and pulls away from Nino.
Nino pulls him back and whines. He doesn’t want to let Ohno leave so early, otherwise he’d be lonely until Sho arrives back home.
“Just one more hour?” Nino pleads.
“I can’t, Kazu. That’s cutting things too close for me. I’m sorry…” Ohno says, “But I can help you clean up if you want.”
Nino nods and sits up, “I need to clean myself first…but if you want to take the sheets off the bed…”
“I can do that, go clean yourself,” Ohno replies.
Nino nods and slides out of the bed and shuffles his naked body to the bathroom where he disappears. He shuts the door behind him and locks it. He sighs heavily and looks at himself in the mirror. He murmurs, “You’re such a slut, Kazunari…” His eyes are dead and cold, a complete opposite mood then he shows Ohno.
Meanwhile, Ohno puts his boxers back on and strips the dirty sheets off the bed. He crumples them up and tosses them aside. He searches around the room for some new sheets but the trail came up cold. He spends the rest of the time putting his white dress shirt and jeans back on. He fumbles with the grey buttons while looking at the frames photos of Nino and Sho together on their vacation from a few months prior.
Nino opens the door to the bathroom and Ohno turns away from the photos and strolls toward Nino.
“You all squeaky clean?” he asks.
Nino nods and gives Ohno a soft smile, “I’m all clean! You couldn’t find the clean sheets?”
“No, I didn’t want to dig around too much, that would be awkward,” Ohno replies. Ohno leans over and kisses Nino’s cheek, “You’re so cute, don’t change, baby.”
Nino blushes a soft pink and blinks, “W-what do you mean? Where’d that come from?”
“Nowhere, I just think you’re cute!” Ohno says, kissing him again.
Nino opens a small closet door and pulls out a set of light green sheets and begins making the bed. Ohno just watches and continue buttoning up his shirt. He hums a random popular song to himself as Nino makes the bed rather sloppily.
When Nino finishes, he opens a light blonde wood dresser’s drawer and pulls out a pair of boxers and red and brown plaid checked shorts. He sits on the edge of the bed. Ohno joins him and just watches.
“Why are you watching me, old man?” Nino chuckles.
“Why not? I stared at your ass for twenty minutes straight, and you’re embarrassed about this?” Ohno retorts.
Nino rolls his eyes and chuckles as he slips his boxers on with both legs and then slides his shorts up afterward. He stands up and pulls them up all the way and fastens his shorts. Ohno continues staring at Nino.
“Stop staring, old man!” Nino whines, holding back a snarky smile.
“Okay okay,” Ohno says, defeated. He stands up and starts putting his black leather wallet, car keys, and random receipts from the liquor store, into his pockets. “By the way, I’m only thirty; I’m not old yet…”
“Well I’m only twenty-three, so that makes you an old man,” Nino replies. He gets up and sticks his tongue out. He hugs Ohno tightly, “We should go out to dinner soon, okay?”
Ohno smiles, “Of course, baby. I’ll text you later tonight.”
Nino nods and leads Ohno to the front door, “Bye bye, Oh-chan.” They kiss rather passionately and Ohno leaves.
He sighs lightly and sits on the couch for a bit and plays with the faux suede trim of a green throw pillow, “Why are you such a slut, Kazunari…?” he mumbles, “You already have someone…why are you playing with this other guy?” He hugs the pillow and pulls his legs onto the couch. He stares at a dark stain on the carpet and he begins to doze off as he sways gently side to side.
You’re such a slut! You have a boyfriend. You’ve been together for four years already! What are you doing you sick fuck?!
I don’t know…I…
You’re such an unhappy person, you’re scum of the earth, cheater. You should just go and die…
But…I love Sho-chan…I…I couldn’t leave him alone…
Then why are you cheating with that old man?
I…I don’t know…he’s nice…
So you’d just go and fuck any guy who’s nice?
N-no! I-
You don’t deserve anyone. You’re tainted.
But-
You. Are. Worthless.
…
…
…maybe-maybe you’re right.
The front door to the apartment unlocks and stumbling footsteps wake Nino from his impromptu nap. Ohno had tired him out and hour and a half before.
“Kazu, baby, you here?” Sho looks around the room and lays his eyes on a sleepy shadow of Nino. He flips the light switch up to turn the light on. “Were you sleeping? Didn’t you go to work today?”
Nino shakes his head and gets up from the couch, rubbing his eyes, “No, I got called and they told me not to come in to work…”
Sho nods as if he understand, “That’s weird, they’ve been doing that a lot to you lately…do you think they are going to fire you?”
“I don’t think so, they’re just over-staffed. The convenience store can only have so many people working, Sho-chan,” Nino replies.
Sho smiles brightly, “Yeah, I know, I know, just try to work a bit more…we need to pay bills.”
Nino just nods silently and shuffles off to the bedroom and lies down. Sho follows him.
“You made the bed again! Well at least you’re doing something,” he says plopping on the bed, the pillows bouncing around, and one falling down off the side of the bed.
“Mmm…yeah…” Nino replies.
Yeah, you’ve really been doing something, Kazunari.
But-
Slutty Kazunari. Tsk Tsk
St-stop!
Not going to…until you die…
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a/n: I hope you all liked it! I've been trying really hard to get back into writing and what better to christen my new LJ than with a really dramatic fic, haha. I will try to keep updating as best I can. Thank you for reading~