I didn't want to take that final step.

[joy_of_abigail]

"Abram believed, and it was reckoned to him as righteousness."
Andy Stanley kind of pulled the rug from under me yesterday.  I've heard that verse before, many times, but always from the context of belief.  And the truth is, though I have made some great progress, I was still holding back.  I withdrew from God embers of faith, and though I had seen

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[dondlion]

Faith is a gift. One has to dive in, but without complete certainty. I'm grateful for what measure of faith I have. I pray for that and more for you.

[joy_of_abigail]

Thank you...I want it. I'd like to say something like "at whatever the cost," and I do mean that to some degree, but it sounds too sensationalist to really convey what I mean. Thus: for the first time, I grasp its worth. And its presence in the sideline of myself makes me long for more. "The substance of things not seen," huh? Eternal, worthwhile things...kind of like a poem someone told me about, when I was in a very hard place.

[joy_of_abigail]

Thanks for the words in response.

I think what you call "arrogance" might really be a type of courage, wherein one decides to trust his perception of things, while knowing he or she might be wrong.

And I think it might, too, be a trust in God over man's words. After all, if he's who he says he is, his word bears much more weight.

Again, thanks so much for your advice throughout this time.

[rachelheather04]

i got chills as i read this. it is truly beautiful. thank you for letting me read about your journey.

[joy_of_abigail]

Wow, you're welcome. Thanks.