My stomach burns with the sour bile that is empty. My eye are open but the thin layer of sleep that coated them last night has not lifted. I could sleep for days and yet the feeling would not subside. it’s the feeling after a long cry and you eyes long for dreams to scare a way the reason for your tears. Though I have not shed a tear nor do I ( Read more... )

Unequally they all blend
Each different in the wind
Blanket deaths eyes
With soft white
Swirl it on your tang and
taste it in your mouth
The innocents dissolves
Let it spread through out
It moistens your eye lashes
An melts away a frown
As it covers the earth with a hunting sound

shhhhhhhhhhh
lesson
and for just a moment there isn't a sound

He called me, he called me as soon as he got home. But I don’t think he wants me, why would he. Every thing is all ready on the table. Though the fine china is now plastic plates and we do not slowly bring our lips to champagne we now guzzle beer in which we do not take the time to taste. I like having him but what I really want is the him he was ( Read more... )

Today has been a pretty good day I have almost all my Christmas shopping done and am now broke, yeah for holidays ! My brother is home but it is so strange to have him here, and he is staying next door at my grandmas house so it doesn’t really feel like he his here. Or maybe it feels like he hasn’t been gone all this time that he never joined the ( Read more... )

Oh gee golly garsh! I have friends this week! Yeah Yeah friends Yeah! They are back and I am glad for that! Though I do plan on not remembering to much of there visit! Yeah! I know you can say it I sound so punk as fuck right now, what can I say I kick so much ass! I spelt an entire soda on my self at work and all the papers on my desk got all ( Read more... )

today I plane to brew and that is what makes me get through the day!

My head hurts and I mess him they mix of drinks and boys is exciting but I miss him! I enjoy sex but it really lacks intimacy and I miss him! The hunt is fun but it also is work I am not used to so I just end up missing him! But who is he that I miss is it really the boy I fell in love with or is it someone new I am searching for but keep attaching ( Read more... )

I feel cold today and it’s not just the weather. I feel cold as I stare blankly at the people that blur as the rush by. The snow has made every thing turn silent, but today, for me, its not a silence that feels comforting, instead I am antsy. The blanket of white dose not show the innocence’s as it has for me so many times before. It is tented and ( Read more... )

I am confused today and all I want to do is sleep away this strange week and start new ( Read more... )

There is a rather large orange butter-moth (buterfliy and moths ugly love child it has the fun spirited aspects of the moth and the ness of the butterfly cunts ) eating my brain and it is making me wandering off my path and in to this strange land I shall call ORGOWENEA = (ORG owen e ah)and in the land of orgowenea nothing is what it seems things ( Read more... )