I tend to write here infrequently, about very specific things or events that require a fair amount of thought to process. I don’t do the usual “this is what’s happening in my life” entries, because that is the sort of thing I tell to Steph, and then my need for human contact is sated. But in honor of
hohum’s return to the livejournalnets, I’m going to
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I guess I am pretty knowledgeable on what you do and don't like - if one of those lame pub trivia night games were titled "Shit Allen Likes and That Which Irritates Him," I would take first place.
You'll bounce back. I have no idea how one would go about enlarging their comfort zone though, if that's even what you want to do.
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as i've said before, i think i made the best decision i could at every point in the process, given the information i had at the time. except maybe for the meta-decision that it's okay to go work for yet another mediocre company. maybe that's just not tenable over the long haul.
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i don't generally pay attention to microsoft, but the kinect seems kind of interesting, due to its hacking potential. i saw on news.ycombinator.com that somebody finished a proof-of-concept open-source driver for it three hours after it was available to the public.
here's an interesting tidbit you might appreciate. history tends to credit four guys as the progenitors of the xbox project within microsoft. one of them was a guy i knew when i was in my 20s and he was in his teens, when we both lived in wichita, ks. i didn't stay friends with him, because i thought he was kind of a phony. his career choices post-microsoft make me think he still is.
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Well, starting the Xbox project does require more than technical skills at Microsoft - you need to push the idea too to their leadership. Maybe your friend was good at that. Or just good at surfing behind the bigger fish.
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after microsoft and the xbox project, my former friend went on to be ceo of the company that was supposedly working on the phantom gaming console. remember that one? how about 'biggest piece of vaporware since duke nukem forever,' ringing any bells now? heh!
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My dream is to structure my life around a job. But a damn good one that means a lot. Think you can find that-- is that good-sounding to you at all? It hurts me to know you're struggling when you helped me out so much a few years ago. I'm still working towards the conclusion of paying-it-forward. I hope your current situation rights itself soon.
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i didn't do all that much for you. i wish you had let me do more. i was rummaging through your old entries a couple of weeks ago. i had completely forgotten that you were at one point living in your car. that was really worrying me at the time. could have ended badly.
i don't feel like i'm struggling. i just had crappy role models, so i'm about 25 years late getting stuff sorted out in my life. i managed to trash all previous major relationships, or prevented them from happening in the first place, so i don't have much to build on. steph is the first and only valuable relationship that i've been able to maintain. that's a good sign, though. if i can do it once, i can do it again.
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You did -a lot-. I didn't know I wrote about living in my car on here... Yeah, a lot of things in my life could have ended badly. I luck out a lot!
Having at least one solid friendship really takes the edge off shitty times, I think.
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