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[john_gaunt]

i
i suck at this
i want to be better

in more ways than one
in everyday and every way
in all our worlds

want to be
want to need
want to become

now i am miserable
now i see what i SHOULD have
now i twist and burn

you know what?
you are
you...

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[_shedonist_]

I still have (somwhere) this tiny piece of paper onto which you and Kris Clough commented on wonderful things about myself. We were hanging out with Shauna as well and you each wrote 10 wonderful things about us both. What a gift. I couldn't tell you where this piece of paper is right this minute, but I know I still have it and have laid eyes on it in the past year or two.

The most striking this on it was something you said about me - "always striving to improve herself". It took me a while to fully understand/appreciate this aspect of myself you described for the 1st time bringing it to my awareness. And yet, has always stuck with me as something you also always worked at.

For whatever reason, I feel like this has continued for you (with unknown success) as well as me and it is a thing that bonds us. I would love to chat with you more about it. Find a night, come to dinner, let me get to know you again. I miss you. You were the first person I knew who openly pondered things. Bring it on...

[_shedonist_]

At the end, I mean "openly pondered *these* things", but you get the idea, even in my slightly drunk rambling, or even more so than if I was sober...

[john_gaunt]

not feeling very social all of a sudden-like. maybe in a while...

[_shedonist_]

'sokay. I'll still be here.