The way I feel

[jmpovrthemoon23]

I think I've finally realized the deeper reason I felt the need to be in Michigan this summer. Sadly enough, it's probably not a very healthy reason.

I think it basically boils down to the fact that contrary to my belief that being here would make me more fully realize John's death, being here surrounded by his family is actually a way for me to

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[loudmeggaphone]

Oh honey I am so sorry you have to go through this. I understand what it is like, I really do. After losing my cousin 2 years ago I still look around expecting to see him, hear him at family events.

I know it is cliche but it will eventually get better. It never goes away completely and you may always look for it. But it does lessen to some degree.

We all missed you at Prophecy but understand why you weren't there. I hope you can make it to one of hte ones next summer.

*big hugs* Take care of yourself. I did not know your brother but I am certain he would have wanted you to remember him and still retain who you are in all of this.