Dreams Chapter 2
Title: Dreams
Author: jlrui
Pairing: YamaShi
Genre: Music, Angst, Romance
Summary: Ryosuke met a tragic accident that caused his dreams to crashed. During that time that all his dreams are over he suddenly met Mirai who has the same talent and dreams as him.
A/N: There is a note for my Say I Love you readers at the bottom...
(c) `strawberryparfait at purple-sashiin.blogspot.com
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After a long night of crying and screaming, I really thought that there was no tomorrow for me.
I felt like my world just ended, like the string that I have been holding on to suddenly break.
I wanted to blame someone, but who can I blame?
I don't want to face the sun the next day. I just want to sleep forever.
"Good morning Yamada-san," the nurse that is in charge of me said. "How are you feeling today?"
I ignored her and pretended to sleep.
"I'll bring your breakfast right away," it is as if she knows that I'm just pretending to sleep.
Moments later she came back with a tray that contains my breakfast.
I give up trying to act like I'm asleep.
"Eat well Yamada-san," the nurse said to me.
"Excuse me Kawashima-san, anou--," I stopped her before she even left the room. "Is it okay if you feed me? As you can see I can't use my
hands."
"Of course," she seat in the nearest chair beside my bed. "By the way you can call me Umika if you like, since were only the same age."
She's the same age as me? But I'm only in high school that means so does she. How can a high school student be a nurse here in the hospital.
"I'm the daughter of the owner of this hospital so they let me help out some small things like giving food to patients," it's as if she have read
the questions I have in my mind just like that.
"How did you know I'm thinking about that?" I raise an eyebrow.
"I've been asked by many patients here already so I guess you were thinking of that as well when I told you we're the same age."
"I see, well I prefer to call you Kawashima-san," I look at her for any weird or violent reaction she would have because of what I said but in
the end she just smiled at me.
"I see. Your parents will be here soon," I just nod at her.
She continue to feed me like I'm a little child but I am grateful to her.
"Kawashima-san thank you very much," I said to her before she left the room. "About not calling you by you're first name I want to explain. It's
because I only call a person's first name if they're important or close to me."
"I understand Yamada-san. You don't have to apologize," she bowed to me and left.
My parents soon came to my room, they have inform me about the state where my sister is.
My mother was sobbing. I don’t know how to react; my sister is in a comma.
The scene where I saw my sister beside unconscious just keeps on repeating in my mind.
I don’t know who to blame. I don’t know what to do.
Tears suddenly flown down from my eyes but I do not know who it is for.
If it was for my sister who is in a very critical state, or if it was for me.
--
My mother said to visit my sister in the other room but I declined, no I beg her not to let me see her.
I can’t see her, not like that. I don’t want to.
--
Weeks have pass and some of my classmates in music school came to visit me. Today it was Yuto again.
“Ryo get well soon ne?” Yuto said to me, he always visits me daily after his drum practice at school. “It’s hard to maintain the classroom
without our class representative! It’s always chaos there.”
“I thought there were two of you to replace me for a while? What’s her name again?” Yuto take the apple in the table and starts to cut it.
“Suzuka? Yeah! That’s it Suzuka Ohgo!”
“Itte!” Yuto got startle from the name that I said and accidentally cut himself.
Even if it was only a little cut I manage to see the blood on his hands.
I remember the accident again it keeps on repeating in my head like it’s hunting me.
“Ryo are you okay?” I shut my eyes trying to calm myself down.
“Yuto is it okay if you leave?” Yuto never replied but I heard someone leave my room.
--
I was alone when I open my eyes that have to be expected I guess.
I feel empty inside of me, my eyes were blank.
I was literally dead inside.
I can never let Yuto see me like this, or even my other classmates.
I never want to look pitiful in their eyes.
So I use a facade whenever my friends come by and visit.
I look at my hands once again. I can move them better now but just for a short moment.
Whenever I try to push it and move my hands faster like before I always feel like it is being stab repeatedly by the sharpest knife you could
ever find.
--
“Here we are Ryosuke! Welcome home!” my dad open the door for me. “Oh! It’s okay! I’ll carry this”
The doctor said my hands are still healing so I’m not allowed to carry heavy things.
I went straight to the living room, my piano is still there.
I open the case; I let my fingers touch the keys of it. It’s been a long time since I played, I miss playing music.
I decided to seat on the chair, I close my eyes. I try to remember the sound of the piece that I never have the chance to perform.
I press one key first, but before I could successfully play it dad came in.
“Ryosuke no!” he pull me away from the piano. “The doctor said it is bad for you to play again. Son, I know you love the piano, but you need to let go of it.”
I nodded even if my heart opposes it.
“You’re Aunt Mayu will be here soon, she will be the one who will take care of you while we are in the hospital.” I nod again. “Tomorrow you’ll go back to school, take care okay?”
Dad’s eyes were sad, I know he’s scared both dad and mom is scared.
My sister hasn’t regained consciousness even after a month already pass.
--
An annoying sound suddenly wakes me up the next morning.
I turned off the alarm clock and get up and take a morning bath.
I’m not the least happy going back to school, but I have to.
“Ittekimasu!” I said before I left the house.
“Ittarasai!” my aunt replies back.
“Hai,” I close the door behind me and left.
Walking at the same road, at the same environment it all look so normal yet everything was different now. I am different now.
I feel like everything was anew. That I am in a new world. How could I face this new world ahead of me?
I stop, and feel the air. As I thought I don't want to go back to school.
"Ganbatte!"just before I turn back to go back to the house I heard a voice.
"Who's there?" I look around, no one answer me back. I never saw who the person is but I manage to see a glance of her school uniform and bag. She was definitely from our school. I wonder who it is? I feel like she gave me a lot of courage to go and not turn back.
"I'll definitely look for her at school," I smile and start walking again.
That definitely is weird. Receiving encouragement from someone I never knew, but at least there is something I look forward on seeing in our school.
For some reason, just that short moment made me forget the tragic things happening to me now.
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A/N: -for some reason I'm not satisfied that I ended the chapter two here....
- I added some characters too....
- I think I might post the next chapter of this after I finished the next chapter of my other fic OhgoJima.
- For Say I Love You readers of mine I'm still really sorry because I can't update it as of now.... Ran-chan is I guess still busy... I'm really really sorry.... In return I'll make UmiChii one-shot for now or make a new chapter-ed fic... Again sorry.... *bows*
Thank you for reading!
Comments and critics are love
Author: jlrui
Pairing: YamaShi
Genre: Music, Angst, Romance
Summary: Ryosuke met a tragic accident that caused his dreams to crashed. During that time that all his dreams are over he suddenly met Mirai who has the same talent and dreams as him.
A/N: There is a note for my Say I Love you readers at the bottom...
(c) `strawberryparfait at purple-sashiin.blogspot.com
--
After a long night of crying and screaming, I really thought that there was no tomorrow for me.
I felt like my world just ended, like the string that I have been holding on to suddenly break.
I wanted to blame someone, but who can I blame?
I don't want to face the sun the next day. I just want to sleep forever.
"Good morning Yamada-san," the nurse that is in charge of me said. "How are you feeling today?"
I ignored her and pretended to sleep.
"I'll bring your breakfast right away," it is as if she knows that I'm just pretending to sleep.
Moments later she came back with a tray that contains my breakfast.
I give up trying to act like I'm asleep.
"Eat well Yamada-san," the nurse said to me.
"Excuse me Kawashima-san, anou--," I stopped her before she even left the room. "Is it okay if you feed me? As you can see I can't use my
hands."
"Of course," she seat in the nearest chair beside my bed. "By the way you can call me Umika if you like, since were only the same age."
She's the same age as me? But I'm only in high school that means so does she. How can a high school student be a nurse here in the hospital.
"I'm the daughter of the owner of this hospital so they let me help out some small things like giving food to patients," it's as if she have read
the questions I have in my mind just like that.
"How did you know I'm thinking about that?" I raise an eyebrow.
"I've been asked by many patients here already so I guess you were thinking of that as well when I told you we're the same age."
"I see, well I prefer to call you Kawashima-san," I look at her for any weird or violent reaction she would have because of what I said but in
the end she just smiled at me.
"I see. Your parents will be here soon," I just nod at her.
She continue to feed me like I'm a little child but I am grateful to her.
"Kawashima-san thank you very much," I said to her before she left the room. "About not calling you by you're first name I want to explain. It's
because I only call a person's first name if they're important or close to me."
"I understand Yamada-san. You don't have to apologize," she bowed to me and left.
My parents soon came to my room, they have inform me about the state where my sister is.
My mother was sobbing. I don’t know how to react; my sister is in a comma.
The scene where I saw my sister beside unconscious just keeps on repeating in my mind.
I don’t know who to blame. I don’t know what to do.
Tears suddenly flown down from my eyes but I do not know who it is for.
If it was for my sister who is in a very critical state, or if it was for me.
--
My mother said to visit my sister in the other room but I declined, no I beg her not to let me see her.
I can’t see her, not like that. I don’t want to.
--
Weeks have pass and some of my classmates in music school came to visit me. Today it was Yuto again.
“Ryo get well soon ne?” Yuto said to me, he always visits me daily after his drum practice at school. “It’s hard to maintain the classroom
without our class representative! It’s always chaos there.”
“I thought there were two of you to replace me for a while? What’s her name again?” Yuto take the apple in the table and starts to cut it.
“Suzuka? Yeah! That’s it Suzuka Ohgo!”
“Itte!” Yuto got startle from the name that I said and accidentally cut himself.
Even if it was only a little cut I manage to see the blood on his hands.
I remember the accident again it keeps on repeating in my head like it’s hunting me.
“Ryo are you okay?” I shut my eyes trying to calm myself down.
“Yuto is it okay if you leave?” Yuto never replied but I heard someone leave my room.
--
I was alone when I open my eyes that have to be expected I guess.
I feel empty inside of me, my eyes were blank.
I was literally dead inside.
I can never let Yuto see me like this, or even my other classmates.
I never want to look pitiful in their eyes.
So I use a facade whenever my friends come by and visit.
I look at my hands once again. I can move them better now but just for a short moment.
Whenever I try to push it and move my hands faster like before I always feel like it is being stab repeatedly by the sharpest knife you could
ever find.
--
“Here we are Ryosuke! Welcome home!” my dad open the door for me. “Oh! It’s okay! I’ll carry this”
The doctor said my hands are still healing so I’m not allowed to carry heavy things.
I went straight to the living room, my piano is still there.
I open the case; I let my fingers touch the keys of it. It’s been a long time since I played, I miss playing music.
I decided to seat on the chair, I close my eyes. I try to remember the sound of the piece that I never have the chance to perform.
I press one key first, but before I could successfully play it dad came in.
“Ryosuke no!” he pull me away from the piano. “The doctor said it is bad for you to play again. Son, I know you love the piano, but you need to let go of it.”
I nodded even if my heart opposes it.
“You’re Aunt Mayu will be here soon, she will be the one who will take care of you while we are in the hospital.” I nod again. “Tomorrow you’ll go back to school, take care okay?”
Dad’s eyes were sad, I know he’s scared both dad and mom is scared.
My sister hasn’t regained consciousness even after a month already pass.
--
An annoying sound suddenly wakes me up the next morning.
I turned off the alarm clock and get up and take a morning bath.
I’m not the least happy going back to school, but I have to.
“Ittekimasu!” I said before I left the house.
“Ittarasai!” my aunt replies back.
“Hai,” I close the door behind me and left.
Walking at the same road, at the same environment it all look so normal yet everything was different now. I am different now.
I feel like everything was anew. That I am in a new world. How could I face this new world ahead of me?
I stop, and feel the air. As I thought I don't want to go back to school.
"Ganbatte!"just before I turn back to go back to the house I heard a voice.
"Who's there?" I look around, no one answer me back. I never saw who the person is but I manage to see a glance of her school uniform and bag. She was definitely from our school. I wonder who it is? I feel like she gave me a lot of courage to go and not turn back.
"I'll definitely look for her at school," I smile and start walking again.
That definitely is weird. Receiving encouragement from someone I never knew, but at least there is something I look forward on seeing in our school.
For some reason, just that short moment made me forget the tragic things happening to me now.
--
A/N: -for some reason I'm not satisfied that I ended the chapter two here....
- I added some characters too....
- I think I might post the next chapter of this after I finished the next chapter of my other fic OhgoJima.
- For Say I Love You readers of mine I'm still really sorry because I can't update it as of now.... Ran-chan is I guess still busy... I'm really really sorry.... In return I'll make UmiChii one-shot for now or make a new chapter-ed fic... Again sorry.... *bows*
Thank you for reading!
Comments and critics are love