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jilliantate

the 2005 retrospective

Jan 01, 2006 16:22

Rather than do the meme that sammynella stole from jentwo, I'm going to copy Carly instead, and just review the Events That Shaped My Life In 2005.

1. On the Road To New Orleans
Last trip to New Orleans before Katrina. My last chance to visit the city. I had no idea I wouldn't get a chance to again in 2005.

2. Regaining Traction at WorkAfter completely ( Read more... )

depression, 2005

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blackshimmer January 2 2006, 02:01:18 UTC

I've learned that, while chastity is terrible, it is more terrible to have to compromise who I am or make my identity changeable just so I can date someone. And that there are boys out there who will love me for who I am and what I look like, smartass remarks, left wing beliefs, dark hair and all.

it's like looking in a mirror ;) awesome tho!

sammynella January 2 2006, 03:12:28 UTC

In November, thanks to criticism from a few sources, I began to believe the negative PR about me, and had to question everything. Am I a nice person? Am I even a good person? Or am I irrevocably selfish, self-absorbed, self-centered? Do I even deserve to be human? What is wrong with me? Am I likeable? Have I been too selfish to accept anyone else's perspective on anything? Have I hurt people's feelings or insulted them without any remorse? And it felt like I had been turned inside out, like all my nerve endings and internal organs were exposed, raw and bleeding. It took weeks of thought, introspection - and a lot of apologies - to even start the healing. And since then, I have been putting more thought into my actions and words, and trying harder to live up to the virtues I wasn't practicing before.Jillian, you are a good person, and the things that happened with Skye and the immediate fallout were not entirely your doing. I'm glad that you are growing more and more each day as a woman, and as always, I'm so proud of you! Every day ( ... )