this is it. i will never let you get your hands on me again. you're so far gone and i have come to realize i never let you go. i am sorry for holding on this long. i am slitting my wrists, just trying to make my fingers release you. i gave you everything i had in hopes that you might return to me something .. anything. but i am being starved and ( Read more... )

I am so angry with you right now. Like the past year and a half has just been a ploy to benefit you. You never meant any of it. I don't even want to look at you anymore.

And on my parents ruining Christmas? My little sister is six years old. First grade. And she no longer believes in Santa. For some reason, this really upsets me. It takes away the ( Read more... )

The song [Stay] by Lisa Loeb says everything I am feeling and thinking right now ( Read more... )

Today was lots of fun. I went to church, then picked up Peggy and Missie. We went to Wal-Mart and were fat girls. We bought an entire box of cream puffs and ate all but two. There were 36 in the box. We bought some milk and eclair pies. Heh. We are such fat girls. Minus the fat part. Its so silly ( Read more... )

You make my hands shake.

I hate secrets.

Tonight is the Christmas party. I was supposed to work. I'm not. I am sick and its not cool at all.

I want it to be Christmas. And I want things to be different.

Texas is the Reason cd = thumbs up ( Read more... )

Today was so so so great!! I am licensed!!! Woo hoo! Man. That was great. Ryssah and I went out after school. We went to the mall and to Burger King to celebrate. Then we decided to go visit Craigy-poo at work because its right down the road from dear Peggilyn's house. He was so surprised. It was beautiful. I've missed him so much ( Read more... )

+write english paper.

+write bowling paper.

+do ap us objective questions.

+start physics?

+read [the scarlet letter.]

+theme christmas cds.

Tomorrow?
+send out christmas cards!!
+do physics.
+read scarlet letter.
+get license!!

Do not pretend to understand. You don't. And you really never will. You brush it off like absolutely nothing, and you have no idea what it was for me. Was I dumb? Of course. That's undeniable. But there is no reason for you to laugh in my face. It really isn't that big of a deal, it just made me angry because you really do not understand at all ( Read more... )

My body = whore. I do not appreciate it much at all.

I have nothing left to say. I foolishly let words fly out of my mouth. I was fighting tears the whole time. I just wish you could see. What you have yet to realize is that I know. It hurts. Its an awful situation. I know. No one will ever be who she is to you. You can either hold on, or move on ( Read more... )