grumpy

[jenxel]

Good morning. Not really. I am tired and grumpy. And still sad. Yesterday was OK, except I sorta had an emotional breakdown thinking about my mom. It sucks. I miss her. Part of me is angry because I think she knew her death was coming and chose not to do anything about it. It was just such a shock. I guess that's what I can't get over

Comments

[violetsky]

:( how long has it been?

i've been having some flashback problems lately, about some really crappy stuff from my past. don't know where it's coming from but i sure wish it'd stop.

[jenxel]

It's been about 8 years. Most of the time I am OK, but every few months or so I will just have a crying breakdown thinking about her. There's a community near here that has alot of psychics and mediums. One of our neighbors goes there occasionally and I was actually thinking about asking to go with. Maybe it would help me deal with stuff. On the other hand, it might give me a major case of heebie-jeebies, I don't know.

[violetsky]

i think i remember now...did she die around the same time my best friend did? genelle passed oct 5 1997.

as for the medium, i say go for it. i am a little biased, but anything they can tell you should just make you feel more comfortable with it. it may help take a load off your shoulders, you know?

[jenxel]

Yes, it was Jan. 1998. I haven't been to the medium yet, but when I do I will probably write about it.