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[jenthompson]

It's been a really rough week. Lots of crying and postponed grief hitting me in waves again. Counseling seems to be doing E good, but it stirs up lots of emotions for me, and I'm not handling it well. I've been going into "shut down" mode a lot this past month where I just can't get myself to do anything other than survive. :P Oh well. This

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[mala_14]

Sometimes just surviving is plenty good enough. Hooray on the extra money! Every little bit helps, for sure!

[rose_bertin]

Just surviving is totally fine, it's all you have to do right now and eventually things will get better. At least you've got some extra money! That's always nice and can be put to good fabric hoarding use!

Be sure to save all the phone stuff onto a flash drive or external harddrive or something like that as well! You'll definitely want a backup just in case. But that might be my computer paranoia talking, I have about four backups of pretty much every document and file I've ever had because I'm convinced something will break or crash.

[bauhausfrau]

[jenthompson]

He talks to the counselor for the first part of the session alone, and then I come in and we do some stuff all together. Everything that we do is really aimed at helping E, but it always touches on my feelings and struggles too, I'm usually a wreck after it's over. He likes it and is always happy and in a good mood when we are done, but I'm a mess, and then I have to go back and face work all day, which sucks.

[bauhausfrau]

[padawansguide]

Can you tell the counselor privately what this is doing to you and see if they can make adjustments? It's great that it's good for E, but if it's making you worse and not better, that's no good. They may not know that it's making you a wreck.

I'm sorry it's been so hard. Big hugs.

[butterballbunny]

*huuugs*  You are doing very well progressing on the phone/ect. goal!  Give yourself credit!  Yay re: raise#
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[the_aristocat]

Hugs. I wish I was there to hit the waves back.