and suddenly i'm really sad

will things ever change?

I dont know how else to get in touch with you, so i'll give this a shot ( Read more... )

I feel as though i've been backed into a bit of a corner

and while i love the attention

if you tap on the glass

i might bite.

and while I dont like corners

its better than an empty room

so for now i'll press my back to the wall

close my eyes, and duck low.

I'm sittin in the library w/ Sam, Becky, Kim, Meredith and Emily. Geesh. I was stupid to think I'd get any work done. My stomach is making hideous noises in the silence, but luckily its not silent all that often so I dont have to worry about it. Besides the terrible headache i'm not doing too terrible. I dont want to study religion at all, but I ( Read more... )

its come to my attention that I"m perhaps being spied upon.....

ooooh GOOOOOODY. Whatever. Everything from here on in is friends only, oh yeah, and i'm backdating everything to be friends only/private too. SO if you think you're actually going to get anything, assuming you havent been reading this for awhile, then you are sadly, sadly mistaken.

Interesting to imagine how different my life is from post to post. Yesterday was a awful. A lot of the things i've been avoiding or 'skipping over' the past two weeks all met up yesterday and decided to have a party. Unfortunately, the party was hosted in my brain and ended up having a breakdown for about 4 hours. It ended, as they always do, but i ( Read more... )

Well, the day was off to a rough start, but i think i overcame it nicely. Woke up @ 8:20 and did a Macaully Culkin from Home Alone before calling my dad and flipping out. Oh yeah, I was supposed to be in Nicholasville in Court @ 840. Whoops!! I now vaguely remember waking up and turning my alarm off, but i woke up a lot throughout the night and ( Read more... )

I feel inert. Like everything in my life has come to a disturbing stop. Not like a chaotic and abrupt hault where everything gets thrown out of proportion and my world is tossed about, but a slow and subtle...cease. Like i opened my eyes one morning and everything around me had sunken into jello. Thick and unmoveable. Everyone around me seems to be ( Read more... )

fuck makeup. fuck tight jeans. fuck alcohol. fuck cheap smiles. fuck awkward flirtation. fuck staying out late. fuck provocative dancing. Fuck lack of eye contact. Fuck inhuman diets. Fuck low self esteem. Fuck resistance to submission. Fuck inability to behave. Fuck lack of desire. Fuck sleeping alone. Fuck empty kisses on my pillow. Fuck lack of ( Read more... )

"And that's the way it always seems to happen,
She's on my countertop
and i'm on my tippy toes.
I can almost hear a little voice inside me -
Looks like I caught you boy with your hands in the cookiejar"