I have a sudden urge to change my name... my hair color, forget everything I know, everything I am and run away. Run away from here, far away where no one knows me, where I am not used by my closest friends, where I can find who I am without them, with new people. I wanna start all over. Be new ( Read more... )

molten lava was the name on the box... hahahahah... i'm a daredevil... that's rights kids... i dyed my hair again... its an auburn color... i think i like it... i'm not sure yet... but i think i do... i wish i had a digital camera still.

nothing else happening worth telling.

ugh... i hate when people get all up in my business.

I wrote this a few weeks ago ( Read more... )

i think i've just had the best week of my life.

oohhh by the way... don't bother reading these entries and think that you are involved deary because you aren't... you don't bother to call me or talk to me outside of AIM, then don't bother thinking that you know what the hell is going on... because you don't deary! and you know who you are... and if you don't... then you should be ashamed ( Read more... )

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me

Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life

[Chorus]
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who ( Read more... )

old friends die hard -- certainly true in this case. I was talking to my mom yesterday... she came in town. i was talking with her about some friends... she asked me how someone was and i reply with "i have no earthly idea." you know, now that i'm not in hammond and i've practically lost contact with that person, i'm actually glad, its helping me ( Read more... )

i've been reading a book recently... i know i know... jennifer lauren reading a book? wow! haha... i don't normally read books for leisure but my therapist reccommended it to me. i lloooooove it!!! its called "captivating" by john and stasi eldredge. it really reveals what i've been feeling lately and i've only read the like first 20 pages!! haha. ( Read more... )

i'm at the lab on a saturday... sucks major butt... working weekends this summer in the lab!! eww... that sucks!!! i have a test on monday, well actually a test everyday since it is a term class... but anyway... i'll have time to study while i'm here in the lab. wooohoooo. not! i hate studying but i must do it because i need an "A" in the class ( Read more... )