je_united gift fic for mousapelli
je_united gift fic for mousapelli
Title: Half Right and Not Wrong At All
Pairing: Taiga/Juri, Hokuto/Juri, Taiga/Hokuto/Juri
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: threesome, mild angst, non-graphic mentions of slightly under-age shenanigans
Summary: Juri resorts to desperate measures to get Taiga and Hokuto to realise they both still like each other after all
Notes: Dear Mousi~ I was aiming for a meaningful plot but all that came out was convoluted mild angst! I’m so very sorry, I hope that it’s not too angsty for you and that there’s at least something in here that you can get behind!
“You didn’t want to room with me tonight?” Taiga asks with a raised eyebrow when Juri finally enters the hotel room and dumps his bag down on the second bed.
“It’s not that...me and Shin just wanted to go over some choreography is all...” Juri says, his nonchalant tone not working for one second.
Taiga stops himself from making a joke about whether the kind of dancing he’d be doing with Shintaro is better than the kind of dancing they’d be doing together, it’s mostly because it’s not in his character to make such lame jokes but it’s also because he’s aware of how clingy it would sound and he’s really not. Juri can fuck whoever he wants just like Taiga can, if it were even about that, which it isn’t because Shintaro doesn’t even swing that way.
What it is about is who would have been sharing with Taiga had they all agreed to the room switch Juri had proposed. “I wish you would quit trying to force us into uncomfortable situations” he says instead and Juri’s expression drops into something more sheepish. “I already spent the last four hours nudging elbows with Hokuto on the bullet train thanks to you.”
“You didn’t have fun?” Juri asks, and Taiga hardens his glare enough that Juri’s grin turns to a grimace “I guess I’m not getting laid tonight then?”
He is, Taiga admits internally, he is because Taiga is horny, because he spent four hours next to Hokuto on a bullet train today.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
“It’s a shame you and Hokuto don’t do this...” Juri says, arching his back with a sharp cry as Taiga crooks the fingers inside him again. “Hokuto loves getting fingered...and you’re so fucking...ahhh...good at it.” Taiga just jabs a little harder, the comment a little raw because he knows Hokuto loves getting fingered, he’s the reason Taiga is so fucking good at it.
“Can you just shut up?” Taiga snaps, and he thinks it’s a fair point, whether it were about Hokuto or not, it’s still a little rude to talk about one guy while another is stretching you open. Juri does shut up, it’s far too late though, Hokuto is already on his brain, worse because they’re not fantasies, they’re memories, still vivid despite how many years it’s been.
With a huff he pulls his fingers free and tugs Juri up onto his knees. It feels better when he’s inside Juri, he feels vindicated, the memories can’t chase him here because he and Hokuto never did get this far.
They were only kids back then - it happened a lot, between everyone. It was just about budding hormones and the confusion of puberty. It was nothing more than heated kisses behind costume racks and fumbled touches beneath hotel sheets, grinding each other into the wall in abandoned corners on drama sets, rushed hand jobs in empty storage closets at NHK hall and it didn’t mean anything, it wasn’t supposed to. Because they were just kids.
And then Taiga wasn’t. He turned eighteen shortly after they’d finished the Bakaleya movie, and he was inescapably aware that for the next six months, touching Hokuto would be a whole new kind of illegal.
They weren’t exclusive, not officially, but Hokuto was the only one Taiga was seeing and as far as he could discern Hokuto wasn’t involved with anyone either and Taiga liked him enough that he didn’t even really mind waiting.
He did wait too, only by the time Hokuto turned eighteen he’d already out-risen Taiga in popularity and was off having headlining shows with Jesse in Johnny’s Ginza and getting drama after drama, and Hokuto didn’t wait. He doesn’t resent Hokuto for it, he has no reason too, they were never technically in a relationship, only Taiga felt like there was something special between them, even if they never did say it.
And that’s when he decided that feeling things and fooling around were things that should never be mixed and if Hokuto resented him for his sudden lack of interest then that wasn’t his problem. If there’s a strange, strained rift between them now then that’s not his fault. Not all his fault.
Regardless of whose fault it is, the world seems hell bent on making things awkward between them. And it’s not awkward, most of the time. They’re friends and they get along fine as part of the group, it’s only when they’re alone that things feel weird, when Taiga feels the echo of old emotions.
And somehow the world, helped in no small part by Juri, has a way of getting them alone together.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
They’re rostered together for a room share a few nights later. There was no devious switching involved but Taiga suspects Juri still had something to do with it - it’s weird how often they get paired together.
Taiga goes straight in the bath once they arrive at the hotel. He showered back at the venue but he tells Hokuto he’s going to go relax for a while. The bath is nice enough, Taiga does appreciate it after a long day of rehearsals and live shows but it’s more that he’s avoiding the inevitable being alone with Hokuto.
When he can’t put it off any longer - when his fingers and toes are wrinkled and the water isn’t as comfortably warm as it was half an hour ago - Taiga gets out.
Hokuto doesn’t take a bath, but he does take a quick shower because the venue showers are always crowded and a little on the cold side and you never do feel quite clean. Taiga is thankful a little longer respite, but then Hokuto is finished, and he’s walking out of the bathroom in cut off sweatpants and an indecently baggy tank top, his wet hair still dripping onto his shoulders.
It’s been a long and stressful day, and suddenly Taiga doesn’t feel relaxed at all, despite his bath. It’s been days since he shared a room with Juri, and one blow-job the morning after from Watanabe aside, Taiga hasn’t had chance for any other kind of relaxation.
Hokuto settles himself on the bed next to Taiga’s and pulls out his Uni textbooks. “Do you mind if I study?” Hokuto asks, and while Taiga would prefer he didn’t - he can’t lose himself in late night television while Hokuto is trying to read - Taiga nods.
He regrets not being honest a few minutes later, when Hokuto shoves his pen between his lips to flick to the back of his textbook and Taiga’s eyes are drawn to the way they’re slightly pursed, the way the pen waggles as Hokuto toys it with his tongue.
“I’m going for a walk...” Taiga says, before he’s even really made the decision and for a moment there’s something almost dissatisfied in Hokuto’s eyes before he nods and turns back to his book.
Taiga grabs his phone and key card and heads out into the corridor, and then he pauses because he doesn’t actually have anywhere to go. He sends around a few texts, but it seems the entirety of Snow Man are already tied up, literally most likely, in a group orgy and unless he wants in on that - which he really doesn’t because Snow Man orgies get pretty intense - he’s out of luck.
“What are you doing here?” Juri asks in surprise when Taiga gives up hope of any alternative and goes to him instead.
“I was bored...” Taiga answers flatly.
“Talk to Hokuto...” Juri says and the look Taiga shoots him says to wipe the suggestiveness out of that tone.
“He’s studying.” Taiga says firmly, and then he gives the room a quick look over to check Jesse isn’t here. “Anyway, I’m horny, I don’t want to just sit and talk...”
“I happen to know first hand that Hokuto is very good at...” Juri starts but Taiga’s glare cuts him off, making him sigh. “I mean it...if the two of you would talk, or even just fuck and get all that unresolved sexual tension out of the way...”
“There is no unresolved sexual tension.” Taiga says defensively. There is. But if that’s all it was then Taiga could just do it and be through, it’s the other things between them, on Taiga’s part at least, those weird little fuzzy feelings that Taiga doesn’t want to get involved with. Taiga hates that Juri is right, half right. “What’s it to you anyway? Why do you care what things are like between me and Hokuto? What is this weird obsession that you have with us about?”
“Group unity.” he answers, though Juri’s expression says even he doesn’t think it’s a convincing argument.
“The group is fine.” Taiga scoffs easily, because it is, they’re fine when the other members are there as a buffer, as something to fill the silence, they can even talk directly to each other, it’s only when they’re alone that that weird tension arises. Juri just looks at a loss for words and suddenly feeling rather less excitable than before, Taiga gets up to leave. “Fuck this.”
“Fine.” Juri snaps back before letting out a long exhale. “Fine, I’ll tell you but you have to promise not to laugh...”
Taiga finds laughing the furtherest thing from his mind but he moves back towards the bed to sit down anyway. “What?”
“Ever since the thing with the chains...I’ve had this...fetish I guess...for seeing the two of you together...” Taiga just raises an eyebrow at him so Juri huffs and continues “It’s weird...as someone that fucks around with both of you...being attracted to both of you and knowing how compatible you would be together...I figured there was no chance of getting a threesome with the two of you unless I could get the two of you to realise you were interested in each other first...”
“Well that’s never going to happen.” Taiga snorts. He tries very hard as it happens, to not let himself think about how interested he is in Hokuto is in that way. When Juri just looks at him as though he’s about to argue, Taiga feels his arousal fading into irritation and without another word he gets up and leaves the room again.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
“Hey Taiga.” Juri says, pulling Taiga to the side the next day and Taiga’s eyes are already rolling. “I’m sorry about last night...about all the other stuff too, trying to get you alone together. I’ll quit it.”
“Good.” Taiga says.
“But...” Juri continues as though Taiga hadn’t even spoken. “I talked to Hokuto about it, I figured I owed him an explanation too and for what it’s worth he said he’s interested in it...in a threesome, I mean.”
Taiga actually laughs “Hokuto said that?”
Juri nods sheepishly. “He admitted that the two of you used to fool around when we were filming Bakaleya and said he doesn’t know why you stopped being interested in him like that but that he’s never stopped being interested in you.” Taiga’s cheeks flush and the heat of it seems to run all the way down to his chest. “He thought maybe if I was there too, then things wouldn’t be as awkward..so...” Juri is clearly waiting for an answer from Taiga but none comes to him, he doesn’t know what to think about it all, about Hokuto still being into him after all this time. “We’re in the same room tonight...so think about it and if you want to give it a try, come over at like eleven?”
He’s not going to go over, Taiga decides immediately, it’s too much, too fast and he doesn’t have enough time to think about it. And yet it’s all he can think about for the rest of the day. Hokuto wants to do it, Hokuto never stopped being interested. There’s that warm fluttery feeling in his chest again and he chases the thought away, that’s exactly why he shouldn’t go over.
Juri will be there though, he reasons, hours later when the offer is still occupying his mind. It’s not like he can mistake it for what it was back then, the intimacy and the yearning, it won’t be tender and loving the way he imagined their first time would go. It will just be sex, and Juri will be there, and that’s easy because he fucks Juri on regular basis and it means nothing, just like it was meant to back then.
He’s still not decided entirely when he leaves Kouchi behind in their room at five minutes to eleven. He can’t sleep is all, he’s just going for a walk to clear his head. And he’s still not entirely decided five minutes after that when his knuckles are poised to knock on Juri’s door.
It’s just sex, he convinces himself in the end. And really, how much worse can things get between him and Hokuto? He takes a deep breath and knocks.
Juri’s smile is wide when he opens the door in a pair of sweatpants, and then he steps back to let Taiga in. The two single beds in the room are already pushed together and in the middle of them Hokuto is sitting, sinfully attractive in just a hotel robe, his hair still dripping from his shower.
“Well.” Juri says, the grin still audible in his voice “Make yourself more comfortable” and he reaches for the zipper of Taiga’s hoodie himself, leaning in to press a light kiss against Taiga’s lips as he pulls it down and then pushes the hoodie off of his shoulders to slide down his arms. “A little better” Juri says against his lips, and his hands move next to Taiga’s belt, peeling it open before unfastening his jeans and letting them fall to the floor as well.
Taiga steps out of them once Juri steps back, but Juri just takes his hand and leads him over to the bed. Juri climbs onto it and shuffles back to sit beside Hokuto and Taiga pauses awkwardly, knelt on the end of it until Hokuto gets up.
It’s awkward, it’s sexy and it’s surreal and it’s awkward as Hokuto shuffles his way over, his eyes locked on Taiga’s, the expression in them uncertain.
“Hey.” Hokuto says quietly, and there’s a shaky smile, something sheepish in the tone of his voice.
“Hey” Taiga replies, watching Hokuto’s eyes flicker once or twice between his lips and eyes, before closing the distance himself. It’s like something igniting, something forgotten and deep and powerful. A low moan forms in his throat as he kisses Hokuto harder, his hand moving up to knot in Hokuto's hair.
It’s Hokuto that shuffles back, leading Taiga along with him, and when Hokuto lays down he pulls Taiga over him. Juri lays beside them, content for now, it seems, with watching them, one hand rubbing against the front of his sweatpants as Taiga tilts Hokuto’s head back to kiss him deeper.
“I think it’s about time we lost some clothes.” Juri says eventually, and Taiga couldn’t agree more. He sits up, admiring the flush on Hokuto’s cheeks and the way his lips are lightly swollen, as Juri gets up onto his knees and moves behind Taiga. There are fingers on the hem of his shirt, skirting his skin softly a few times before pulling up, and Taiga raises his arms to help Juri rid him of it.
With his shirt gone, Juri’s hands move to the waistband of his boxers and Taiga shuffles back enough for Juri to peel them down and off. Hokuto watches appreciatively as Juri’s hand wraps around Taiga’s length, stroking him slow but firm.
Hokuto's hand move to the belt of his robe and slowly unties it before spreading the robe apart. He’s naked beneath it, his chest already heaving with deep breaths and his erection laying flushed against his hip. It shouldn’t surprise Taiga how much Hokuto's body has changed, he’s seen him shower countless times since Bakaleya but as his hands move over the firm pecs, his defined abs it feels like he’s noticing for the first time that the soft flesh has been replaced with had muscle, that Hokuto is grown up now. It excites him.
He leans away from Juri’s touch to replace his hands with his mouth, moving his lips down over Hokuto’s chest, pausing only to flick his tongue gently over Hokuto's nipple, the way he remembers Hokuto likes it, and then he’s moving down.
When he reaches Hokuto’s cock there’s already a bead of pre-come forming at the head and Taiga leans in to lick it away, surprised at how familiar Hokuto tastes, even now. He wants more of it. He swallows Hokuto's length down but the moan Hokuto lets out is muffled and Taiga looks up to find Juri now laying beside Hokuto, their lips moving together. It’s strangely appealing, and Taiga continues to watch as he sucks Hokuto slowly in and out.
He’s still watching when after a few more minutes, Hokuto pulls away from Juri’s lips and looks down at Taiga instead, his eyes hazy with lust. “I want your fingers” Hokuto gasps and the sound of his voice sends a shudder down Taiga’s spine. “I’ve missed your fingers.”
Before Taiga can even respond there’s a crinkled tube being pressed into his hand, and he gives Juri a grateful nod before turning his attention back to Hokuto. He sits up as he spreads the slick substance over his fingers and Hokuto’s legs part to let him settle between them. And then he keeps his eyes fixed on Hokuto’s face as he gropes between his legs to find his rim and ease one long finger straight inside.
Hokuto groans loudly, his eyes rolling back into his head as his hips shift into the touch, and Taiga thrusts his finger in and out a few times before going back in with a second. It’s startling how familiar it is, just like the taste, he remembers exactly where to curl his fingers, exactly where to press harder. Hokuto’s eyes are fixed on his too, heavy lidded, mesmerising, and Taiga feels like he might be seventeen again for how much he wants Hokuto, for how desperate he is for more, only now he doesn’t have to wait.
“I want you.” He breathes, and Hokuto sucks his lip into his mouth as he nods and Juri is there with that crinkled tube again, sitting up to kiss Taiga as he squirts some into his own hand to stroke along Taiga’s cock. Taiga moans into Juri’s mouth, but too soon he has to pull away, his hand gripping Juri’s wrist to stop him. Juri gives him a knowing smile and lets go, moving his slick hand instead to Hokuto’s cock, and he strokes slowly up and down it as Taiga eases inside.
He pauses for a moment once he’s all the way in, catches his breath only to loose it again as Hokuto’s head tips back with a shuddery moan and then he leans down to kiss Hokuto as he starts to thrust. Juri settles back down beside them, one hand still reaching between their bodies to stroke Hokuto in time with Taiga’s steady thrusts while the other urges Hokuto’s hand towards his own cock. Hokuto moans into Taiga’s kiss as they stroke him together and Taiga kisses Hokuto faster.
He’s missed Hokuto’s voice, the depth of it, the way even his moans sound husky, pressed against his lips. He’s missed Hokuto’s lips too, the way he kisses so soft and yet so demanding, so hungry. His hand tightens in Hokuto’s hair, tries to pull him closer, to savour him, but he couldn’t for the world stop his hips from speeding up as Hokuto’s moans turn to sharp cries, his insides massaging Taiga just right as Juri’s hand speeds up between them.
“I’m gonna come.” Hokuto gasps, and Taiga groans with him as everything gets so much tighter, impossibly tight and all he can do is bite into Hokuto’s shoulder to hold on until the the sticky pulse of Hokuto’s release against his abs drags him over.
He’s still trying to catch his breath when Juri groans beside them. “I’m close.” Juri moans and Taiga manages to push himself up just in time for Juri to get to his knees and stroke himself out over Hokuto’s stomach.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
A loud thud wakes him, and then Hokuto’s hushed laughter shakes the bed beneath them. Taiga looks around, it’s light enough with the street-lights filtering in through the thin hotel curtains to make out Hokuto beside him, and then the second duvet half hanging off the bed on the other side where Juri has evidently just fallen onto the floor. There’s the gentle sound of Juri’s snores starting up again and Taiga sniggers a little as he settles back down against the sheets.
“Hey.” Hokuto says quietly, and Taiga can feel him shifting, shuffling closer in the half darkness. “I had a lot of fun tonight...”
Taiga wonders if it’s light enough for Hokuto to see the way his cheeks flush, if he’s quite close enough to hear Taiga’s heart speeding up. “Yeah.” he agrees. “Yeah, it was really good.”
“I was surprised though.” Hokuto says, and there’s something more reluctant in his voice now, “When Juri told me you wanted to have a threesome...I was surprised, but really happy...”
“He told you that I wanted...” Taiga starts in surprise. “Juri told me that you were the one interested in doing it...”
“Me?” Hokuto says in the same surprise.
“Well, he said it was his idea...but that when he told you about it you said you would be into it...he said you told him about how we used to fool around during Bakaleya...” Taiga clarifies.
“What?” Hokuto asks. “When was this? I told him about that a year ago when we did Rocking Party and...” Hokuto cuts himself off and clears his throat a little “And that’s why he’s been trying to get us alone ever since...”
“That’s why?” Taiga asks, “He told me just yesterday that he wanted to see us...” and then it all makes sense. “That little shit. This whole thing was just another one of his schemes to get us...” he trails off, because things suddenly make even less sense. “To get us to do what? What is it that he wants from us if it wasn’t about wanting a threesome with us?”
“He’s been trying to get us to make up.” Hokuto says and Taiga can just make out the eye-roll that goes with the exasperation in his voice. “I kept telling him to leave it alone, because it’s not like we fell out or anything...right? Things jut stopped...”
“Yeah.” Taiga agrees, though he’s sure there was something more imploring in Hokuto’s tone, like he’s looking for an explanation that Taiga doesn’t feel comfortable giving, because if he could have talked to Hokuto about it then maybe things would never have turned out quite the way they did.
“Taiga?” Hokuto says quietly after a few minutes of silence. “Why did things stop?”
Taiga sucks in a long breath and holds it while he thinks of a way out of this. “I was eighteen and you weren’t...”
He sees the slight shake of his Hokuto’s head “I know that...we talked about that, about waiting until I was eighteen...” Taiga bites into his lip, he knows how pathetic it would sound. When he doesn’t answer Hokuto continues, his voice raising in both volume and pitch “but then we had Gamushara...I was eighteen too, and we were together nearly every day practising Double Dutch and every time I suggested...you just pushed me away...” Taiga still doesn’t comment, he doesn’t know how to. “Why did you push me away? I know you were doing stuff with Juri...and I know it wasn’t anything serious because I was too...so why me? Why didn’t you...”
“Because I waited.” Taiga blurts out, he doesn’t mean to, he just wants Hokuto to stop because the sad aching in his voice is resonating in Taiga’s chest.
“What?” Hokuto asks in confusion and Taiga sighs before he elaborates.
“Because I liked you and I thought you liked me...so I waited for you, just for you...and you didn’t…and it hurt” Hokuto just stares at him, his expression half alarmed. “I know that it’s stupid and that you didn’t do anything wrong at all...” Taiga continues. “I was never mad at you...I just...I realised you didn’t feel the same way and I didn’t want to get involved with you when I had feelings and you didn’t...”
It’s quiet for another moment and Taiga lets out a long breath, it feels like there’s a weight lifted from his chest, but it also feels a little empty. “I did.” Hokuto says eventually. “Not wait, I mean, I didn’t do that, but I did have feelings for you...I just thought...when you said about waiting until I was eighteen I didn’t know you meant...waiting all together...god I feel like such an ass-hole.”
“You’re not.” Taiga assures him. “I didn’t ask you to wait...it’s not like I expected it of you...I just thought that we had something special...”
“We did.” Hokuto tells him. “But I thought that it would still be there when I was ready, that’s what I thought I was waiting for. Even when I was off doing things with Jesse my feelings for you never changed...they still haven’t...”
“They haven’t?” Taiga asks.
“Why do you think I’m always so awkward around you?” Hokuto asks, his voice a mix of exasperated and embarrassed “All I can think when I’m near you is how beautiful you are, how talented and how much you’ve grown as a person, how much I’ve grown to respect you and admire you...”
“I didn’t know.” Taiga tells him, the realisation still sinking in. “I don’t know what to say...” It’s quiet for a long moment, Taiga still trying to sort through his thoughts while Hokuto looks at him anxiously.
“Tell him you’ve been in love with him for years too.” a voice says from somewhere down on the floor, making them both jump. Taiga had completely forgotten that Juri was even there, but sure enough Juri clambers back up onto the bed and looks back and forth between them expectantly. “And then both of you can admit you’re fucking idiots and that if you’d just have talked to each other like I’ve been trying to get you to do for a year now then this whole mess would have been cleared up ages ago and the pair of you could just be happy already.”
“He’s right.” Taiga admits, hates that he has to admit it. He’s half right anyway, because it’s been complicated, too complicated for too many years for Taiga to know for sure that it’s love, he can’t deny that it’s something though. “I’ve been trying so hard to lock away my feelings for you that I’m not entirely sure what they are. They are there though, they always have been...and if you think we could try again...”
Juri cuts off his words with an over-dramatic sigh “First I can’t get you to talk, now you won’t bloody shut up, just kiss already.” Taiga is about to make some retort but before he’s even thought of one, Hokuto is pulling him in for a kiss. “I think that’s a yes to trying again.” Juri tells Taiga, and there’s some of that usual smugness back in Juri’s voice. “Now can you manage from here or do I need to orchestrate another threesome?”
Title: Half Right and Not Wrong At All
Pairing: Taiga/Juri, Hokuto/Juri, Taiga/Hokuto/Juri
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: threesome, mild angst, non-graphic mentions of slightly under-age shenanigans
Summary: Juri resorts to desperate measures to get Taiga and Hokuto to realise they both still like each other after all
Notes: Dear Mousi~ I was aiming for a meaningful plot but all that came out was convoluted mild angst! I’m so very sorry, I hope that it’s not too angsty for you and that there’s at least something in here that you can get behind!
“You didn’t want to room with me tonight?” Taiga asks with a raised eyebrow when Juri finally enters the hotel room and dumps his bag down on the second bed.
“It’s not that...me and Shin just wanted to go over some choreography is all...” Juri says, his nonchalant tone not working for one second.
Taiga stops himself from making a joke about whether the kind of dancing he’d be doing with Shintaro is better than the kind of dancing they’d be doing together, it’s mostly because it’s not in his character to make such lame jokes but it’s also because he’s aware of how clingy it would sound and he’s really not. Juri can fuck whoever he wants just like Taiga can, if it were even about that, which it isn’t because Shintaro doesn’t even swing that way.
What it is about is who would have been sharing with Taiga had they all agreed to the room switch Juri had proposed. “I wish you would quit trying to force us into uncomfortable situations” he says instead and Juri’s expression drops into something more sheepish. “I already spent the last four hours nudging elbows with Hokuto on the bullet train thanks to you.”
“You didn’t have fun?” Juri asks, and Taiga hardens his glare enough that Juri’s grin turns to a grimace “I guess I’m not getting laid tonight then?”
He is, Taiga admits internally, he is because Taiga is horny, because he spent four hours next to Hokuto on a bullet train today.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
“It’s a shame you and Hokuto don’t do this...” Juri says, arching his back with a sharp cry as Taiga crooks the fingers inside him again. “Hokuto loves getting fingered...and you’re so fucking...ahhh...good at it.” Taiga just jabs a little harder, the comment a little raw because he knows Hokuto loves getting fingered, he’s the reason Taiga is so fucking good at it.
“Can you just shut up?” Taiga snaps, and he thinks it’s a fair point, whether it were about Hokuto or not, it’s still a little rude to talk about one guy while another is stretching you open. Juri does shut up, it’s far too late though, Hokuto is already on his brain, worse because they’re not fantasies, they’re memories, still vivid despite how many years it’s been.
With a huff he pulls his fingers free and tugs Juri up onto his knees. It feels better when he’s inside Juri, he feels vindicated, the memories can’t chase him here because he and Hokuto never did get this far.
They were only kids back then - it happened a lot, between everyone. It was just about budding hormones and the confusion of puberty. It was nothing more than heated kisses behind costume racks and fumbled touches beneath hotel sheets, grinding each other into the wall in abandoned corners on drama sets, rushed hand jobs in empty storage closets at NHK hall and it didn’t mean anything, it wasn’t supposed to. Because they were just kids.
And then Taiga wasn’t. He turned eighteen shortly after they’d finished the Bakaleya movie, and he was inescapably aware that for the next six months, touching Hokuto would be a whole new kind of illegal.
They weren’t exclusive, not officially, but Hokuto was the only one Taiga was seeing and as far as he could discern Hokuto wasn’t involved with anyone either and Taiga liked him enough that he didn’t even really mind waiting.
He did wait too, only by the time Hokuto turned eighteen he’d already out-risen Taiga in popularity and was off having headlining shows with Jesse in Johnny’s Ginza and getting drama after drama, and Hokuto didn’t wait. He doesn’t resent Hokuto for it, he has no reason too, they were never technically in a relationship, only Taiga felt like there was something special between them, even if they never did say it.
And that’s when he decided that feeling things and fooling around were things that should never be mixed and if Hokuto resented him for his sudden lack of interest then that wasn’t his problem. If there’s a strange, strained rift between them now then that’s not his fault. Not all his fault.
Regardless of whose fault it is, the world seems hell bent on making things awkward between them. And it’s not awkward, most of the time. They’re friends and they get along fine as part of the group, it’s only when they’re alone that things feel weird, when Taiga feels the echo of old emotions.
And somehow the world, helped in no small part by Juri, has a way of getting them alone together.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
They’re rostered together for a room share a few nights later. There was no devious switching involved but Taiga suspects Juri still had something to do with it - it’s weird how often they get paired together.
Taiga goes straight in the bath once they arrive at the hotel. He showered back at the venue but he tells Hokuto he’s going to go relax for a while. The bath is nice enough, Taiga does appreciate it after a long day of rehearsals and live shows but it’s more that he’s avoiding the inevitable being alone with Hokuto.
When he can’t put it off any longer - when his fingers and toes are wrinkled and the water isn’t as comfortably warm as it was half an hour ago - Taiga gets out.
Hokuto doesn’t take a bath, but he does take a quick shower because the venue showers are always crowded and a little on the cold side and you never do feel quite clean. Taiga is thankful a little longer respite, but then Hokuto is finished, and he’s walking out of the bathroom in cut off sweatpants and an indecently baggy tank top, his wet hair still dripping onto his shoulders.
It’s been a long and stressful day, and suddenly Taiga doesn’t feel relaxed at all, despite his bath. It’s been days since he shared a room with Juri, and one blow-job the morning after from Watanabe aside, Taiga hasn’t had chance for any other kind of relaxation.
Hokuto settles himself on the bed next to Taiga’s and pulls out his Uni textbooks. “Do you mind if I study?” Hokuto asks, and while Taiga would prefer he didn’t - he can’t lose himself in late night television while Hokuto is trying to read - Taiga nods.
He regrets not being honest a few minutes later, when Hokuto shoves his pen between his lips to flick to the back of his textbook and Taiga’s eyes are drawn to the way they’re slightly pursed, the way the pen waggles as Hokuto toys it with his tongue.
“I’m going for a walk...” Taiga says, before he’s even really made the decision and for a moment there’s something almost dissatisfied in Hokuto’s eyes before he nods and turns back to his book.
Taiga grabs his phone and key card and heads out into the corridor, and then he pauses because he doesn’t actually have anywhere to go. He sends around a few texts, but it seems the entirety of Snow Man are already tied up, literally most likely, in a group orgy and unless he wants in on that - which he really doesn’t because Snow Man orgies get pretty intense - he’s out of luck.
“What are you doing here?” Juri asks in surprise when Taiga gives up hope of any alternative and goes to him instead.
“I was bored...” Taiga answers flatly.
“Talk to Hokuto...” Juri says and the look Taiga shoots him says to wipe the suggestiveness out of that tone.
“He’s studying.” Taiga says firmly, and then he gives the room a quick look over to check Jesse isn’t here. “Anyway, I’m horny, I don’t want to just sit and talk...”
“I happen to know first hand that Hokuto is very good at...” Juri starts but Taiga’s glare cuts him off, making him sigh. “I mean it...if the two of you would talk, or even just fuck and get all that unresolved sexual tension out of the way...”
“There is no unresolved sexual tension.” Taiga says defensively. There is. But if that’s all it was then Taiga could just do it and be through, it’s the other things between them, on Taiga’s part at least, those weird little fuzzy feelings that Taiga doesn’t want to get involved with. Taiga hates that Juri is right, half right. “What’s it to you anyway? Why do you care what things are like between me and Hokuto? What is this weird obsession that you have with us about?”
“Group unity.” he answers, though Juri’s expression says even he doesn’t think it’s a convincing argument.
“The group is fine.” Taiga scoffs easily, because it is, they’re fine when the other members are there as a buffer, as something to fill the silence, they can even talk directly to each other, it’s only when they’re alone that that weird tension arises. Juri just looks at a loss for words and suddenly feeling rather less excitable than before, Taiga gets up to leave. “Fuck this.”
“Fine.” Juri snaps back before letting out a long exhale. “Fine, I’ll tell you but you have to promise not to laugh...”
Taiga finds laughing the furtherest thing from his mind but he moves back towards the bed to sit down anyway. “What?”
“Ever since the thing with the chains...I’ve had this...fetish I guess...for seeing the two of you together...” Taiga just raises an eyebrow at him so Juri huffs and continues “It’s weird...as someone that fucks around with both of you...being attracted to both of you and knowing how compatible you would be together...I figured there was no chance of getting a threesome with the two of you unless I could get the two of you to realise you were interested in each other first...”
“Well that’s never going to happen.” Taiga snorts. He tries very hard as it happens, to not let himself think about how interested he is in Hokuto is in that way. When Juri just looks at him as though he’s about to argue, Taiga feels his arousal fading into irritation and without another word he gets up and leaves the room again.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
“Hey Taiga.” Juri says, pulling Taiga to the side the next day and Taiga’s eyes are already rolling. “I’m sorry about last night...about all the other stuff too, trying to get you alone together. I’ll quit it.”
“Good.” Taiga says.
“But...” Juri continues as though Taiga hadn’t even spoken. “I talked to Hokuto about it, I figured I owed him an explanation too and for what it’s worth he said he’s interested in it...in a threesome, I mean.”
Taiga actually laughs “Hokuto said that?”
Juri nods sheepishly. “He admitted that the two of you used to fool around when we were filming Bakaleya and said he doesn’t know why you stopped being interested in him like that but that he’s never stopped being interested in you.” Taiga’s cheeks flush and the heat of it seems to run all the way down to his chest. “He thought maybe if I was there too, then things wouldn’t be as awkward..so...” Juri is clearly waiting for an answer from Taiga but none comes to him, he doesn’t know what to think about it all, about Hokuto still being into him after all this time. “We’re in the same room tonight...so think about it and if you want to give it a try, come over at like eleven?”
He’s not going to go over, Taiga decides immediately, it’s too much, too fast and he doesn’t have enough time to think about it. And yet it’s all he can think about for the rest of the day. Hokuto wants to do it, Hokuto never stopped being interested. There’s that warm fluttery feeling in his chest again and he chases the thought away, that’s exactly why he shouldn’t go over.
Juri will be there though, he reasons, hours later when the offer is still occupying his mind. It’s not like he can mistake it for what it was back then, the intimacy and the yearning, it won’t be tender and loving the way he imagined their first time would go. It will just be sex, and Juri will be there, and that’s easy because he fucks Juri on regular basis and it means nothing, just like it was meant to back then.
He’s still not decided entirely when he leaves Kouchi behind in their room at five minutes to eleven. He can’t sleep is all, he’s just going for a walk to clear his head. And he’s still not entirely decided five minutes after that when his knuckles are poised to knock on Juri’s door.
It’s just sex, he convinces himself in the end. And really, how much worse can things get between him and Hokuto? He takes a deep breath and knocks.
Juri’s smile is wide when he opens the door in a pair of sweatpants, and then he steps back to let Taiga in. The two single beds in the room are already pushed together and in the middle of them Hokuto is sitting, sinfully attractive in just a hotel robe, his hair still dripping from his shower.
“Well.” Juri says, the grin still audible in his voice “Make yourself more comfortable” and he reaches for the zipper of Taiga’s hoodie himself, leaning in to press a light kiss against Taiga’s lips as he pulls it down and then pushes the hoodie off of his shoulders to slide down his arms. “A little better” Juri says against his lips, and his hands move next to Taiga’s belt, peeling it open before unfastening his jeans and letting them fall to the floor as well.
Taiga steps out of them once Juri steps back, but Juri just takes his hand and leads him over to the bed. Juri climbs onto it and shuffles back to sit beside Hokuto and Taiga pauses awkwardly, knelt on the end of it until Hokuto gets up.
It’s awkward, it’s sexy and it’s surreal and it’s awkward as Hokuto shuffles his way over, his eyes locked on Taiga’s, the expression in them uncertain.
“Hey.” Hokuto says quietly, and there’s a shaky smile, something sheepish in the tone of his voice.
“Hey” Taiga replies, watching Hokuto’s eyes flicker once or twice between his lips and eyes, before closing the distance himself. It’s like something igniting, something forgotten and deep and powerful. A low moan forms in his throat as he kisses Hokuto harder, his hand moving up to knot in Hokuto's hair.
It’s Hokuto that shuffles back, leading Taiga along with him, and when Hokuto lays down he pulls Taiga over him. Juri lays beside them, content for now, it seems, with watching them, one hand rubbing against the front of his sweatpants as Taiga tilts Hokuto’s head back to kiss him deeper.
“I think it’s about time we lost some clothes.” Juri says eventually, and Taiga couldn’t agree more. He sits up, admiring the flush on Hokuto’s cheeks and the way his lips are lightly swollen, as Juri gets up onto his knees and moves behind Taiga. There are fingers on the hem of his shirt, skirting his skin softly a few times before pulling up, and Taiga raises his arms to help Juri rid him of it.
With his shirt gone, Juri’s hands move to the waistband of his boxers and Taiga shuffles back enough for Juri to peel them down and off. Hokuto watches appreciatively as Juri’s hand wraps around Taiga’s length, stroking him slow but firm.
Hokuto's hand move to the belt of his robe and slowly unties it before spreading the robe apart. He’s naked beneath it, his chest already heaving with deep breaths and his erection laying flushed against his hip. It shouldn’t surprise Taiga how much Hokuto's body has changed, he’s seen him shower countless times since Bakaleya but as his hands move over the firm pecs, his defined abs it feels like he’s noticing for the first time that the soft flesh has been replaced with had muscle, that Hokuto is grown up now. It excites him.
He leans away from Juri’s touch to replace his hands with his mouth, moving his lips down over Hokuto’s chest, pausing only to flick his tongue gently over Hokuto's nipple, the way he remembers Hokuto likes it, and then he’s moving down.
When he reaches Hokuto’s cock there’s already a bead of pre-come forming at the head and Taiga leans in to lick it away, surprised at how familiar Hokuto tastes, even now. He wants more of it. He swallows Hokuto's length down but the moan Hokuto lets out is muffled and Taiga looks up to find Juri now laying beside Hokuto, their lips moving together. It’s strangely appealing, and Taiga continues to watch as he sucks Hokuto slowly in and out.
He’s still watching when after a few more minutes, Hokuto pulls away from Juri’s lips and looks down at Taiga instead, his eyes hazy with lust. “I want your fingers” Hokuto gasps and the sound of his voice sends a shudder down Taiga’s spine. “I’ve missed your fingers.”
Before Taiga can even respond there’s a crinkled tube being pressed into his hand, and he gives Juri a grateful nod before turning his attention back to Hokuto. He sits up as he spreads the slick substance over his fingers and Hokuto’s legs part to let him settle between them. And then he keeps his eyes fixed on Hokuto’s face as he gropes between his legs to find his rim and ease one long finger straight inside.
Hokuto groans loudly, his eyes rolling back into his head as his hips shift into the touch, and Taiga thrusts his finger in and out a few times before going back in with a second. It’s startling how familiar it is, just like the taste, he remembers exactly where to curl his fingers, exactly where to press harder. Hokuto’s eyes are fixed on his too, heavy lidded, mesmerising, and Taiga feels like he might be seventeen again for how much he wants Hokuto, for how desperate he is for more, only now he doesn’t have to wait.
“I want you.” He breathes, and Hokuto sucks his lip into his mouth as he nods and Juri is there with that crinkled tube again, sitting up to kiss Taiga as he squirts some into his own hand to stroke along Taiga’s cock. Taiga moans into Juri’s mouth, but too soon he has to pull away, his hand gripping Juri’s wrist to stop him. Juri gives him a knowing smile and lets go, moving his slick hand instead to Hokuto’s cock, and he strokes slowly up and down it as Taiga eases inside.
He pauses for a moment once he’s all the way in, catches his breath only to loose it again as Hokuto’s head tips back with a shuddery moan and then he leans down to kiss Hokuto as he starts to thrust. Juri settles back down beside them, one hand still reaching between their bodies to stroke Hokuto in time with Taiga’s steady thrusts while the other urges Hokuto’s hand towards his own cock. Hokuto moans into Taiga’s kiss as they stroke him together and Taiga kisses Hokuto faster.
He’s missed Hokuto’s voice, the depth of it, the way even his moans sound husky, pressed against his lips. He’s missed Hokuto’s lips too, the way he kisses so soft and yet so demanding, so hungry. His hand tightens in Hokuto’s hair, tries to pull him closer, to savour him, but he couldn’t for the world stop his hips from speeding up as Hokuto’s moans turn to sharp cries, his insides massaging Taiga just right as Juri’s hand speeds up between them.
“I’m gonna come.” Hokuto gasps, and Taiga groans with him as everything gets so much tighter, impossibly tight and all he can do is bite into Hokuto’s shoulder to hold on until the the sticky pulse of Hokuto’s release against his abs drags him over.
He’s still trying to catch his breath when Juri groans beside them. “I’m close.” Juri moans and Taiga manages to push himself up just in time for Juri to get to his knees and stroke himself out over Hokuto’s stomach.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
A loud thud wakes him, and then Hokuto’s hushed laughter shakes the bed beneath them. Taiga looks around, it’s light enough with the street-lights filtering in through the thin hotel curtains to make out Hokuto beside him, and then the second duvet half hanging off the bed on the other side where Juri has evidently just fallen onto the floor. There’s the gentle sound of Juri’s snores starting up again and Taiga sniggers a little as he settles back down against the sheets.
“Hey.” Hokuto says quietly, and Taiga can feel him shifting, shuffling closer in the half darkness. “I had a lot of fun tonight...”
Taiga wonders if it’s light enough for Hokuto to see the way his cheeks flush, if he’s quite close enough to hear Taiga’s heart speeding up. “Yeah.” he agrees. “Yeah, it was really good.”
“I was surprised though.” Hokuto says, and there’s something more reluctant in his voice now, “When Juri told me you wanted to have a threesome...I was surprised, but really happy...”
“He told you that I wanted...” Taiga starts in surprise. “Juri told me that you were the one interested in doing it...”
“Me?” Hokuto says in the same surprise.
“Well, he said it was his idea...but that when he told you about it you said you would be into it...he said you told him about how we used to fool around during Bakaleya...” Taiga clarifies.
“What?” Hokuto asks. “When was this? I told him about that a year ago when we did Rocking Party and...” Hokuto cuts himself off and clears his throat a little “And that’s why he’s been trying to get us alone ever since...”
“That’s why?” Taiga asks, “He told me just yesterday that he wanted to see us...” and then it all makes sense. “That little shit. This whole thing was just another one of his schemes to get us...” he trails off, because things suddenly make even less sense. “To get us to do what? What is it that he wants from us if it wasn’t about wanting a threesome with us?”
“He’s been trying to get us to make up.” Hokuto says and Taiga can just make out the eye-roll that goes with the exasperation in his voice. “I kept telling him to leave it alone, because it’s not like we fell out or anything...right? Things jut stopped...”
“Yeah.” Taiga agrees, though he’s sure there was something more imploring in Hokuto’s tone, like he’s looking for an explanation that Taiga doesn’t feel comfortable giving, because if he could have talked to Hokuto about it then maybe things would never have turned out quite the way they did.
“Taiga?” Hokuto says quietly after a few minutes of silence. “Why did things stop?”
Taiga sucks in a long breath and holds it while he thinks of a way out of this. “I was eighteen and you weren’t...”
He sees the slight shake of his Hokuto’s head “I know that...we talked about that, about waiting until I was eighteen...” Taiga bites into his lip, he knows how pathetic it would sound. When he doesn’t answer Hokuto continues, his voice raising in both volume and pitch “but then we had Gamushara...I was eighteen too, and we were together nearly every day practising Double Dutch and every time I suggested...you just pushed me away...” Taiga still doesn’t comment, he doesn’t know how to. “Why did you push me away? I know you were doing stuff with Juri...and I know it wasn’t anything serious because I was too...so why me? Why didn’t you...”
“Because I waited.” Taiga blurts out, he doesn’t mean to, he just wants Hokuto to stop because the sad aching in his voice is resonating in Taiga’s chest.
“What?” Hokuto asks in confusion and Taiga sighs before he elaborates.
“Because I liked you and I thought you liked me...so I waited for you, just for you...and you didn’t…and it hurt” Hokuto just stares at him, his expression half alarmed. “I know that it’s stupid and that you didn’t do anything wrong at all...” Taiga continues. “I was never mad at you...I just...I realised you didn’t feel the same way and I didn’t want to get involved with you when I had feelings and you didn’t...”
It’s quiet for another moment and Taiga lets out a long breath, it feels like there’s a weight lifted from his chest, but it also feels a little empty. “I did.” Hokuto says eventually. “Not wait, I mean, I didn’t do that, but I did have feelings for you...I just thought...when you said about waiting until I was eighteen I didn’t know you meant...waiting all together...god I feel like such an ass-hole.”
“You’re not.” Taiga assures him. “I didn’t ask you to wait...it’s not like I expected it of you...I just thought that we had something special...”
“We did.” Hokuto tells him. “But I thought that it would still be there when I was ready, that’s what I thought I was waiting for. Even when I was off doing things with Jesse my feelings for you never changed...they still haven’t...”
“They haven’t?” Taiga asks.
“Why do you think I’m always so awkward around you?” Hokuto asks, his voice a mix of exasperated and embarrassed “All I can think when I’m near you is how beautiful you are, how talented and how much you’ve grown as a person, how much I’ve grown to respect you and admire you...”
“I didn’t know.” Taiga tells him, the realisation still sinking in. “I don’t know what to say...” It’s quiet for a long moment, Taiga still trying to sort through his thoughts while Hokuto looks at him anxiously.
“Tell him you’ve been in love with him for years too.” a voice says from somewhere down on the floor, making them both jump. Taiga had completely forgotten that Juri was even there, but sure enough Juri clambers back up onto the bed and looks back and forth between them expectantly. “And then both of you can admit you’re fucking idiots and that if you’d just have talked to each other like I’ve been trying to get you to do for a year now then this whole mess would have been cleared up ages ago and the pair of you could just be happy already.”
“He’s right.” Taiga admits, hates that he has to admit it. He’s half right anyway, because it’s been complicated, too complicated for too many years for Taiga to know for sure that it’s love, he can’t deny that it’s something though. “I’ve been trying so hard to lock away my feelings for you that I’m not entirely sure what they are. They are there though, they always have been...and if you think we could try again...”
Juri cuts off his words with an over-dramatic sigh “First I can’t get you to talk, now you won’t bloody shut up, just kiss already.” Taiga is about to make some retort but before he’s even thought of one, Hokuto is pulling him in for a kiss. “I think that’s a yes to trying again.” Juri tells Taiga, and there’s some of that usual smugness back in Juri’s voice. “Now can you manage from here or do I need to orchestrate another threesome?”