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[jbmcdragon]

I'm feeling emotionally fragile right now. This sucks. There's a lot of stress and anxiety and dealing with issues in my life at the moment, and a lack of sleep, so it's not surprising I'm feeling emotionally fragile (it's more surprising, actually, that I'm not a wreck), but it still sucks.

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[buzzruth]

Hey, odd maybe slightly personal question. Are you on the pill? A lot of your sleepless / anxious / weepy stuff recently sounds alot like some shit I've been going through that my doctor has just suggested might be pill related since it messes with hormones. I'm changing to a lower dose to try solve mine (of course all irrelevant if you're not lol).

[spiffikins]

oy - this resonates with me.

I know that I personally, will blow up on one thing - usually something that really wouldn't have pushed my buttons so hard normally - but if I actually sit down and talk it out, it's like we have to unwind all the stress and anxiety and anger and unhappiness to get down to the root of whatever my *actual* issue is.

I'm trying hard to not let things build up as long..and I'm trying to figure out what the *real* issue is, before I start the conversation with the person I'm upset with - but it doesn't always work out yet.

Looking back - I think my father was like this - he often seemed to get upset about random things - but he never really shared with us what his real issue might have been - so for all I knew he really really WAS pissed off about shoes in the wrong spot (does everyone have this issue with their parents?)

My brothers seem to have been spared this particular issue - although one of them has chronic pain issues, so he has less tolerance and patience at some times than he does at others.

[drabheathen]

Yeah, that's how my family grew up too. My mom would get really mad, and pretend everything was fine, and you'd have to ask her about five times if everything was okay, and she'd say yes the first four times, and then because you'd DRAGGED it out of her and it wasn't HER choice, she'd let you know what she was upset about.

And I did it too, until I realized it basically meant I never had to be responsible for my own anger or feelings, and that it was possible to be angry or to lose my temper without wounding someone else. That it wasn't necessarily a Bad Thing...

[nezumiko]

Hey. I know it's a drive, but I'm here, if you want someone to hang out with, watch movies with, drink with, or whatever. You could hear my own tales of being kinda on the edge emotionally for no good reason and feel emotionally superior because you're keeping it together and functioning, not hiding from your computer like I have been?

Anyway, I'm here. And I want to write, if you have time, or just hang out. You can consult on my new ties and shirts and tell me if you think I'm insane for pairing stripes with paisley.

Love you.