Weirdness

[zealofzebra]

I've been in the conversion process for over a year now, mostly due to the fact that I started with a student rabbi. I'm applying for a position at a JCC run camp (they found me, which was so cool), and I'm debating saying something about possibly needing time off to travel down to Miami to finish my conversion. The camp hires people of all faiths, so that's not the issue. I'm really self-concious about being known as a convert, even though I know that we aren't treated any differently in the Jewish community. It's one of my silly irrational fears. For instance, I loathe saying my last name when I go to a services at a synagogue that I haven't been to before, because it sounds so non-Jewish compared to my fiances. Again, I know it's a stupid fear which I will hopefully eventually get over, but I know it's not going to happen anytime soon.

What would you do? Do any of you have the same crazy fear/insecurity that I do?