Insight

[jaynajoy]

Okay, so I decided to write a little story to get a little bit of an insight into my mind so you can understand why I am the following:

1) A bitch to the general population.
2) Why I don't trust people, don't get close and like to push people away.
3) Why I hate my father.
4) Why I never have and I never will live a normal teenage life.

Comments

[joecook]

Parts of this sound familiar. They sound like me. I'm actually printing out copies of my autobiographical work. I think it could interest you if I could manage to print enough out. It's titled The Feeble Glimmer of Earthly Corruption: Reminiscences of Teenage Depression. It deals with the matters of trust and betrayal and hopelessness, etc. I've actually put sections up on my LJ before (back when nobody read my LJ), but then I deleted most of them, and set the rest to private. I've sworn the same things as you; the problem is that I still do care for people.

[jaynajoy]

Love the title. Yes, I would probably be interested in reading what you wrote. As for caring about people, I still do too. That's the hard part. In the end it's too hard not to care, but it hurts to care. It's kind of a double edged sword.

[joecook]

I just put up a small excerpt from my book, if you're ever interested or just bored and need something to do. There's one person I sorta don't want to read it 'cause I think she might get even the slightest bit concerned and I don't want that after I kinda corrected things today (I think you could figure out what I'm talking about).

[jaynajoy]

Read it. It's well written. Yes, I can figure out what you're talking about. I think that sometimes we write what we feel to get it out, not to worry people. It's healthy to write to get out our feelings. Once we do that- for some people- it lifts a weight. Writing about something doesn't mean you have/will do it.