NEW VID: "You and I"
Wow, talk about a vid that came out of nowhere. If you cut me open and looked inside, this is what you would find.
"You and I"
Source: Tomboy
Music: Antoine Dufour
Summary: Just a boy.
Download: [here] (xvid, 52MB)
Thanks to fan_eunice and absolutedestiny for cheerleading and beta help! And to Tumblr, I suppose, for showing me this film exists.
password: tomboy
I watched Tomboy for the first time yesterday, and about five minutes in I knew I had to vid it. Immediately. This movie was pushing ALL of my buttons. ALL OF THEM. And literally, as soon as it was done I was pulling it into VirtualDub. The beautiful part is that I just posted a song a few days ago from my vidding pocket, having discovered it only 2 weeks ago, without any ideas for it. As I watched the film, I knew this song would be a perfect fit. Isn't that crazy? (Hey! French film, French-Canadian musician. OMG. Also, watch the artist play the song, HE IS AMAZING.) The vid just fell together. Once I got into Premiere, it vidded itself. I have never had a vid go this quickly. I went from starting the clipping process to a full timeline in only seven hours. That is RIDICULOUS. Never before have I posted a vid 24 hours after starting it. Hands down, the fastest vid I've ever made.
I think part of why this vid came so easily for me is because of my very deep, immediate emotional connection to the source and to Mickael. First of all, can we just say: FAAAAAAAAAAACE. ♥ HIS LITTLE FACE. But more than that, this child was having boyhood experiences that I wish I'd had. If I had been truly aware that I was transgender at a pre-pubescent age, my life would have gone very differently. But I saw so much of myself in him still. This, more than any film I've ever seen, was like watching myself onscreen. (Point of reference: me at his age.) I was having many, "OH HONEY. I UNDERSTAND COMPLETELY" moments, and it was intensely gratifying to see Mickael experience the joy of being himself and fitting in with the other boys. Of course, the sad third act was all the more painful, but hey, at least it ain't Boys Don't Cry. I'm just sayin.
My beef with the film is that it is touted as a story about a girl who gets caught in a lie and has to stick to it. I'm sorry, that's not the film I watched. Maybe I just saw what I wanted to see, but I believe whole-heartedly that this child saw an opportunity to be the person he truly wanted to be, and he took it. He was discovering himself through this film. You can see the joy in his face when he's in his element and the pain when he's not. The last 10 seconds of the film undo so much of the good it had done, so I wanted to vid the Mickael I see, the relationship with Lisa that brought him to life, the relationships with his family that are so warm, and the rich range of emotions and questioning he goes through on his journey. Anyone who wants to get into a philosophical discussion of this film with me, feel free; I can talk about it for hours. I am stopping myself here for your sake, heh.
I love vidding instrumentals. They're so freeing, and you can do so much with the musical structure they do have. I love finding themes to use in each part of the song. And perhaps most importantly, I enjoyed making such a simple, straight-forward vid with this source because I feel there is a beautiful simplicity to his story. He is who he is. Why does it have to be more complicated than that?
Feedback and recs are always appreciated. Thanks for watching!
"You and I"
Source: Tomboy
Music: Antoine Dufour
Summary: Just a boy.
Download: [here] (xvid, 52MB)
Thanks to fan_eunice and absolutedestiny for cheerleading and beta help! And to Tumblr, I suppose, for showing me this film exists.
You can watch this video on www.livejournal.com
password: tomboy
I watched Tomboy for the first time yesterday, and about five minutes in I knew I had to vid it. Immediately. This movie was pushing ALL of my buttons. ALL OF THEM. And literally, as soon as it was done I was pulling it into VirtualDub. The beautiful part is that I just posted a song a few days ago from my vidding pocket, having discovered it only 2 weeks ago, without any ideas for it. As I watched the film, I knew this song would be a perfect fit. Isn't that crazy? (Hey! French film, French-Canadian musician. OMG. Also, watch the artist play the song, HE IS AMAZING.) The vid just fell together. Once I got into Premiere, it vidded itself. I have never had a vid go this quickly. I went from starting the clipping process to a full timeline in only seven hours. That is RIDICULOUS. Never before have I posted a vid 24 hours after starting it. Hands down, the fastest vid I've ever made.
I think part of why this vid came so easily for me is because of my very deep, immediate emotional connection to the source and to Mickael. First of all, can we just say: FAAAAAAAAAAACE. ♥ HIS LITTLE FACE. But more than that, this child was having boyhood experiences that I wish I'd had. If I had been truly aware that I was transgender at a pre-pubescent age, my life would have gone very differently. But I saw so much of myself in him still. This, more than any film I've ever seen, was like watching myself onscreen. (Point of reference: me at his age.) I was having many, "OH HONEY. I UNDERSTAND COMPLETELY" moments, and it was intensely gratifying to see Mickael experience the joy of being himself and fitting in with the other boys. Of course, the sad third act was all the more painful, but hey, at least it ain't Boys Don't Cry. I'm just sayin.
My beef with the film is that it is touted as a story about a girl who gets caught in a lie and has to stick to it. I'm sorry, that's not the film I watched. Maybe I just saw what I wanted to see, but I believe whole-heartedly that this child saw an opportunity to be the person he truly wanted to be, and he took it. He was discovering himself through this film. You can see the joy in his face when he's in his element and the pain when he's not. The last 10 seconds of the film undo so much of the good it had done, so I wanted to vid the Mickael I see, the relationship with Lisa that brought him to life, the relationships with his family that are so warm, and the rich range of emotions and questioning he goes through on his journey. Anyone who wants to get into a philosophical discussion of this film with me, feel free; I can talk about it for hours. I am stopping myself here for your sake, heh.
I love vidding instrumentals. They're so freeing, and you can do so much with the musical structure they do have. I love finding themes to use in each part of the song. And perhaps most importantly, I enjoyed making such a simple, straight-forward vid with this source because I feel there is a beautiful simplicity to his story. He is who he is. Why does it have to be more complicated than that?
Feedback and recs are always appreciated. Thanks for watching!