Have You? (PoemFic)
Title: Have You?
Pairing: onesided Kyuhyun/Sungmin, (implied) Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi
Genre: Angst
Rating: R
Warning: Character death=
Summary: When it all becomes too much.
Word count: 700
A/N: Inspiration from this poem which I used to turn this into a poemfic, if that's even the correct term.
I just want to curl up into a ball and cry because of this. I blame it all on my English teacher for making me look for sad poems on the Internet. I really just want to cry. And I'm sorry about this, I really am ;-; I feel all depressed now :'(
Unbeta'd, spur of the moment, and I'm not telling anyone to enjoy this because I don't enjoy it myself.
Have You ever loved someone
But knew they didn't care?
Have You ever felt like crying
But Knew you'd get no where?
Sungmin watched from a distance as Kyuhyun smiled and hugged Zhou Mi. He put his hand to his chest as he felt the all to familiar tinge surge through. His eyes filled with tears, but he shook them away. It's no use... he thought.
Have you ever looked into their eyes
And said a little prayer?
Have you ever looked into their hearts
And wished that you were there?
"Ming!" called Kyuhyun.
Sungmin grimaced and turned to face the excited maknae.
"What is it, Kyu?" he asked softly, hoping to God that the smile on his face looked convincing.
"Did you hear? Zhou Mi said yes! We're together now!" Kyuhyun exclaimed.
Sungmin felt his heart throb painfully at those words. His smile faltered for a split second before he managed to put in back on, full force. He looked straight into Kyuhyun's eyes and saw how they sparkled and shined in ways he had never seen before. And then an image swam into those shining orbs. Zhou Mi. Sungmin felt the prick at the back of his eyes and bit his lip to keep from releasing a sob.
"T-that's great, Kyu! I'm really h-happy for you!" he said. But he wasn't. He felt his heart breaking and knew that he had to get away fast. His smile fell and he began backing away from the maknae, but the maknae was too happy and caught up in his own world to notice.
Sungmin ran into the nearest bathroom, locked the door, and fell to the floor, finally releasing the sob he tried so hard to keep in. As tears cascaded down his cheeks, all he could think was, Why? Why can't it be me?
Have you ever felt their heartbeat,
When the lights were turned down low?
Have you ever whispered "God, I love You"
But you'll never let me show?
Sungmin screamed and shot straight up. The room was pitch black and he began fumbling around in the sheets. A light clicked on from the other side of the room. Kyuhyun.
"Ming? What's wrong? What is it?" the maknae threw himself off his bed in his attempt to get to his frightened hyung. Kyuhyun walked the short distance across the room and sat on the other's bed, pulling him into a hug. "Hyung, you're shaking. What is it? What happened?"
Gasping for breath, Sungmin let out a shaky sob and clung to Kyuhyun's shirt. Kyuhyun held on to him until he calmed down and refused to move back to his own bed even then. Kyuhyun eventually fell asleep holding Sungmin, with the latter's head on his chest. Sungmin took the chance to listen to the maknae's heartbeat and looked up at his sleeping face. He whispered the words he fought against for so long. I love you, Kyuhyun. God, I love you.
Love is grand, yet it hurts so much.
The price you pay is high.
If I could choose between Love and Death,
I'd rather choose to die.
Sungmin's sobs viciously tore through his chest and out his throat. The wind around him blew violently as he looked out across the tops of the buildings. He peered out into the distance and watched as the hundreds of thousands of lights across Seoul twinkled. Leaning forward, but keeping his hands glued to the railing, he looked down at the plethora of cars flying past.
Slowly, his tears stopped and his breathing became easier. He looked up at the few stars that were bright enough to be seen passed the brightness of city. Sungmin let out a few more tears as he whispered, "I'm sorry." He let go of the railing. As he was falling, he opened his eyes and smiled. I love you, Kyuhyun.
And then he was gone.
So do not fall in love, my friend,
It doesn't pay a dime.
It only causes broken hearts,
Yet it happens all the time.
So do not fall in love, my friend,
You'll hurt before it's through.
I ought to know, my friend -
I fell in love with you.
~~~~~~
Yeahh, I'm not even going to ask for comments. I really...I really don't know what to say anymore. I think I will go curl into a ball and cry...
A/N2: This does not mean that I am converting from KyuMin to QMi. KyuMin is still my baby, Sungmin is still my love, and my opinion of QMi still stands. It's just that the stupid poem that I found for my English class put this whole idea into my head and now I want to shoot this story and all its contents :/
Pairing: onesided Kyuhyun/Sungmin, (implied) Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi
Genre: Angst
Rating: R
Warning: Character death=
Summary: When it all becomes too much.
Word count: 700
A/N: Inspiration from this poem which I used to turn this into a poemfic, if that's even the correct term.
I just want to curl up into a ball and cry because of this. I blame it all on my English teacher for making me look for sad poems on the Internet. I really just want to cry. And I'm sorry about this, I really am ;-; I feel all depressed now :'(
Unbeta'd, spur of the moment, and I'm not telling anyone to enjoy this because I don't enjoy it myself.
Have You ever loved someone
But knew they didn't care?
Have You ever felt like crying
But Knew you'd get no where?
Sungmin watched from a distance as Kyuhyun smiled and hugged Zhou Mi. He put his hand to his chest as he felt the all to familiar tinge surge through. His eyes filled with tears, but he shook them away. It's no use... he thought.
Have you ever looked into their eyes
And said a little prayer?
Have you ever looked into their hearts
And wished that you were there?
"Ming!" called Kyuhyun.
Sungmin grimaced and turned to face the excited maknae.
"What is it, Kyu?" he asked softly, hoping to God that the smile on his face looked convincing.
"Did you hear? Zhou Mi said yes! We're together now!" Kyuhyun exclaimed.
Sungmin felt his heart throb painfully at those words. His smile faltered for a split second before he managed to put in back on, full force. He looked straight into Kyuhyun's eyes and saw how they sparkled and shined in ways he had never seen before. And then an image swam into those shining orbs. Zhou Mi. Sungmin felt the prick at the back of his eyes and bit his lip to keep from releasing a sob.
"T-that's great, Kyu! I'm really h-happy for you!" he said. But he wasn't. He felt his heart breaking and knew that he had to get away fast. His smile fell and he began backing away from the maknae, but the maknae was too happy and caught up in his own world to notice.
Sungmin ran into the nearest bathroom, locked the door, and fell to the floor, finally releasing the sob he tried so hard to keep in. As tears cascaded down his cheeks, all he could think was, Why? Why can't it be me?
Have you ever felt their heartbeat,
When the lights were turned down low?
Have you ever whispered "God, I love You"
But you'll never let me show?
Sungmin screamed and shot straight up. The room was pitch black and he began fumbling around in the sheets. A light clicked on from the other side of the room. Kyuhyun.
"Ming? What's wrong? What is it?" the maknae threw himself off his bed in his attempt to get to his frightened hyung. Kyuhyun walked the short distance across the room and sat on the other's bed, pulling him into a hug. "Hyung, you're shaking. What is it? What happened?"
Gasping for breath, Sungmin let out a shaky sob and clung to Kyuhyun's shirt. Kyuhyun held on to him until he calmed down and refused to move back to his own bed even then. Kyuhyun eventually fell asleep holding Sungmin, with the latter's head on his chest. Sungmin took the chance to listen to the maknae's heartbeat and looked up at his sleeping face. He whispered the words he fought against for so long. I love you, Kyuhyun. God, I love you.
Love is grand, yet it hurts so much.
The price you pay is high.
If I could choose between Love and Death,
I'd rather choose to die.
Sungmin's sobs viciously tore through his chest and out his throat. The wind around him blew violently as he looked out across the tops of the buildings. He peered out into the distance and watched as the hundreds of thousands of lights across Seoul twinkled. Leaning forward, but keeping his hands glued to the railing, he looked down at the plethora of cars flying past.
Slowly, his tears stopped and his breathing became easier. He looked up at the few stars that were bright enough to be seen passed the brightness of city. Sungmin let out a few more tears as he whispered, "I'm sorry." He let go of the railing. As he was falling, he opened his eyes and smiled. I love you, Kyuhyun.
And then he was gone.
So do not fall in love, my friend,
It doesn't pay a dime.
It only causes broken hearts,
Yet it happens all the time.
So do not fall in love, my friend,
You'll hurt before it's through.
I ought to know, my friend -
I fell in love with you.
~~~~~~
Yeahh, I'm not even going to ask for comments. I really...I really don't know what to say anymore. I think I will go curl into a ball and cry...
A/N2: This does not mean that I am converting from KyuMin to QMi. KyuMin is still my baby, Sungmin is still my love, and my opinion of QMi still stands. It's just that the stupid poem that I found for my English class put this whole idea into my head and now I want to shoot this story and all its contents :/