Before (and If) you read this, you need to kno that I was nothing but brutally honest about what has happened, about everything. And a few things could possibly be taken out of context, but I dont care. I kno exactly what they mean, and you can think whatever you want about what the words say to you. Comment if you care to, question if you like.

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I just had a long talk with my dad about taxes and social security and things of the like... I actually found myself really getting into it, dare I say enjoying it. What's wrong with me. Lol. XD

And never getting help doesnt make you brave...I love that quote so damn much. It "makes me happy." So I applied to Walmart. Annnnd If I get hired, I dont intend to quit CB, just work Tuesdays. And that way, I'll actually get more hours at Walmart and make more money, yet still have that feeling of safety with my first job still waiting in the ( Read more... )

Tonight I went to CB to visit my Bruce. And while I was there, I wrote out a few things that I think should be said.

In the past month, I have single-handedly hurt every person that calls me Friend. (Sadly, that is no exaggeration.) And that breaks my heart. That openly destroys me. That is the reason I cried, the reason I punched my bedroom wall ( Read more... )

Something Corporate's album "Leaving Through the Window" has got to be some of the best music I have ever listened to... Every fucking one of you should own a copy. XD ( Read more... )

The last person I ever expected to see at Walmart...I saw. Fubi Reynolds. The last time we spoke was months ago, right after highschool... I really miss her. But it also brought back painful memories, memories of all that she went thru, what we went thru together...all of it. And the core of all of these problems? Pot. I remember the many, many ( Read more... )

FUCK

I've thought a lot about what you said. I cant stop myself from thinking a lot about what you always say... And it was good to kno that you werent being careful, you were being honest. I needed someone to be straight with me, to tell me the truth. Because without that, not much else would help ( Read more... )

I almost hate that you asked me to move to Texas with you. Because I think...I want to go. And I think I just might. And that scares me.

For as long as I can remember, I have wanted to start over. To just...pick up and leave, just like he did. The funny thing is, I havent been happy since then... And just maybe its my turn. Just maybe ( Read more... )

And maybe if you thought the worst of me, without a question of good, things would be better sometimes... Because then I wouldnt disappoint you like I do. Things would be better sometimes. But then again, I suppose, it wouldnt be real. It would be a facade of comfort. And you'd be paying a favor to no one. ...And maybe that's why I call you Friend ( Read more... )