We have no always...or have we?
So yesterday I had this little odd experiment about Buffy’s death ( an older, ill Buffy who would breathe her last breath with Spike by her side ) which was sad and put painful images in my head. I just wanted to put into words something that had been disturbing me . I don’t know where the impulsion came from ,maybe it’s the books that I have been reading lately .
I have been thinking that when fictions give us happy, or at least hopeful endings ,it ‘s good for the heart but in a love story with a mortal Buffy and an immortal ( or at least never aging ) Spike and as much as we want it it’s not going to last forever thus there’s likely to be drama and tears when curtains fall and their story goes on.
I ‘ve tried to banish the notion from my safe spuffy world for it holds a lot of sorrow. Or I console myself with the belief that they always find their way back to each other and that no heaven will keep them apart , but that’s another matter.
I do remember the poignant Our Evenings are farewells by st_salieri or The Last Days of Autumn by cindergal , bittersweet and beautiful reminders that Spike and Buffy must deal with years passing ,and contemplating the changes their life goes through may be hard.
Anyway I thought that as bleak or upsetting as my views were at the moment, I wasn’t unhappy yesterday with the picture that came out of my melancholy mood , however while I can cope with time being cruel to them ,Buffy’s death is something that I absolutely avoid in fictions. I came to the conclusion that it was easier to write this kind of pain rather than to read about it . As if the visceral discomfort reading about something utterly sad was slightly fading away ..or is it because the sense of emptiness and loss doesn't come from the same perspective?
So I wonder if you writers have experienced it. Is it less distressing to create a sad/heartwrenching situation than to be told one ?
And readers how do you deal with alive and aging Buffy and undead /not aging Spike? Anyone having thoughts to share , I would be glad to hear them.
I have been thinking that when fictions give us happy, or at least hopeful endings ,it ‘s good for the heart but in a love story with a mortal Buffy and an immortal ( or at least never aging ) Spike and as much as we want it it’s not going to last forever thus there’s likely to be drama and tears when curtains fall and their story goes on.
I ‘ve tried to banish the notion from my safe spuffy world for it holds a lot of sorrow. Or I console myself with the belief that they always find their way back to each other and that no heaven will keep them apart , but that’s another matter.
I do remember the poignant Our Evenings are farewells by st_salieri or The Last Days of Autumn by cindergal , bittersweet and beautiful reminders that Spike and Buffy must deal with years passing ,and contemplating the changes their life goes through may be hard.
Anyway I thought that as bleak or upsetting as my views were at the moment, I wasn’t unhappy yesterday with the picture that came out of my melancholy mood , however while I can cope with time being cruel to them ,Buffy’s death is something that I absolutely avoid in fictions. I came to the conclusion that it was easier to write this kind of pain rather than to read about it . As if the visceral discomfort reading about something utterly sad was slightly fading away ..or is it because the sense of emptiness and loss doesn't come from the same perspective?
So I wonder if you writers have experienced it. Is it less distressing to create a sad/heartwrenching situation than to be told one ?
And readers how do you deal with alive and aging Buffy and undead /not aging Spike? Anyone having thoughts to share , I would be glad to hear them.