awww this shit STILL sucks. whhhyyyyy???????? i'll get better soon...i'm sure of it.

Dear World ( Read more... )

The first guy I kissed at Yale died. I'm having a really really hard time right now. I can't stop thinking about him. Not for a second. I also can't figure out if the reason why I am crying so much is his death or the fact that I just want to cry a lot these days. Sophomore more year is a slump. I can't handle all of this. We hadn't talked in a ( Read more... )

Death. i can't stand this feeling. i just really wish with all my heart these things weren't true.

oh goodness i hope i don't kill myself before the semester is done. talk about a sophomore slump. if this wasn't Yale i would have already dropped out. I'm having a terrible time. I hate Blue Books. These libraries make me feel so inadequate. I want to ball. I almost punched several people this weekend. I hope I don't start to be a violent drunk, ( Read more... )

i'm working on a performance piece for the Heritage Theater Ensemble and its a compilation of monologues from black students at Yale over the past 40 years. Apparently there has always been a lack of boyfriendage via black males in our Ivy. i'm tired of more than 25% being gay. sometimes i just want to sex you, and then i hear your effeminate voice ( Read more... )

i'm supposed to be doing math homework right now, but instead i'm just imagining how much fun i plan to have with my beautiful children! i can't wait to have a family. i just want to paint easter eggs, and buy gifts! Teach them how to sew and knit and finger paint and be happy! it just fills me with glee thinking about it

i'm all set.

you know how you're like totally okay, but then you're like totally not... that's like what's happening. ehhhggg. i'm stupid.

Lately I have desperately pondered,
Spent my nights awake and I wonder
What I could have done in another way
To make you stay
-Cardigans