Fresh start?

[jacara]

Well, here we go, my first bona fide LJ entry.

This one will be public, 'til I figure out how to make them private ;)

Just as a sorta Life Status thing:
I'm 30 (bleh), living with my parents (double-bleh), after having gotten divorced (how much more "bleh" can I get?)... so obviously I'm not a very happy person. And yet I'm not so unhappy either

Comments

[srrww2003]

get some coffee and you will feel better :P

[jacara]

I don't drink coffee :-P

[srrww2003]

ok fine, hot tea then :P

[bethyn]

*hugs*

I wish I could just buy you a "charger" :-p

It feels horrible being drained :/
You'll have to look forward to doing something "fun" while you do something that drains you..

[jacara]

Good to see ya here Bethany :)

I was thinking about the "charger" aspect of it (rather than changing the battery, just "plugging-in" more often)...
And a good friend/"partner" is like a charger too. Someone to be with you as you face the chores of life is like a power source that's outside yourself, it's you channelling their energy rather than using your own. They don't do it for you {e.g., make the phone call} but they can remind you to and "hold your hand" as you do it. And I don't have that (to some extent I didn't even when I was married, which is one small reason I'm not married anymore).

The problem for "bad battery people" like me is that we drain those support people if we're not careful (which, on the flipside, is one way it's partly my fault we're not married anymore). The last time I plugged my old cellphone {with a bad battery} into the car charger while the car wasn't running, it totally killed the car battery. I don't wanna do that to anyone else, so as long as I have this defective "battery" I feel like I'm not