If I only had all of you J2, Nc-17 part1
Title: If I only had All of You.
Author: Dolavine
Rating: NC-17 for sex and graphic images.
Word Count: 40,220
Pairings: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki, brief mentions of Jensen/Matt Cohen
Warnings: Hurt!Jared, Cheating!Jensen Top!Jensen, Bottom!Jared
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys. This is just a work of fiction to appease my own inner voices.
Summary: Jared has almost everything he could ever hope for, a job he loves, great friends and family, and a marriage to his best friend since he was a freshman in college. The only thing lacking in his life is to be the only man his husband desires. But due to a pact made almost ten years earlier it’s the only thing he feels he has no right to want.
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A/N: Thank you to all of the mods at spn_illuminated for another great round and the opportunity to climb out of my box and write a fic of such magnitude. To imogen_lily for the amazing art prompt and numerous ideas that had me writing something longer than I ever thought I could. To my betas memoonster and deansgirl369. Thank you both so much for taking the time to make this fic readable.
Jared is balancing a notebook on his knees as he sits cross-legged on Jensen’s dorm room floor. “Are you sure you want me to read this to you out loud?” he asks Jensen before starting.
“Absolutely, just let me pour another bottle of wine so I am sufficiently drunk enough to undergo the hour long reading while you wax poetic about your literature class in essay form,” he takes a long swallow of wine from the bottle before refilling Jared’s glass too.
“Seriously Ackles, I do not wax poetic, I simply enjoy the finer parts of the more flowery literary works,” he takes a drink of his wine before clearing his throat and trying to focus his blurry vision on the scribbled words. “Some bonds are forged for life and some are but a fleeting moment in time.”
“Wait a minute there Padalecki,” Jensen puts his hand on the page to cover the words. “You’re starting this thing off with a line like that?”
Jared sways a little, he’s feeling the wine’s effects, and cocks his head to the side. “Most certainly, it is about the passion of the written word,” he moves Jensen’s hand from the page but doesn’t let it go.
“Whoa, are you sure you weren’t eating those mushrooms that your roommate Chad has stored under his mattress when you wrote that line?” he squeezes Jared’s fingers and lets his gaze linger a little longer as the corners of his lips turn up in a mischievous grin.
Jared lets out a long loose lipped exhale with a tiny chuckle at the end. “Mushrooms, that boy doesn’t share his shrooms with anyone and I resent the fact that you would accuse me of such a thing,” he finishes off his glass of wine. “You know I totally loved Jane Eyre and read Elizabeth Barrett Browning poetry, they are my passionate inspiration.”
“Case in point,” Jensen laughs as he takes another long swig from the almost completely empty wine bottle.
Losing his balance Jared falls backwards onto the floor laughing, he pulls Jensen on top of himself in the process, and they meet eye to eye, an awkward feeling floods Jared’s belly. “I’m not sure if it’s the wine or not but I have the most uncontrollable urge to kiss you right now,” he blurts out.
“Uncontrollable urges should never be announced,” Jensen replies as he leans in expectantly for the kiss.
He thinks about it for an instant and with breathless words he tries to rationalize why they shouldn’t. “But…” he tilts his head upward. “Maybe…” his lips brush Jensen’s. “Oh hell,” he crashes into Jensen’s waiting mouth with the full intensity of a passionate kiss.
Returning every sloppy wet tongue swipe, every breath stealing dip of Jared’s tongue, and adding a few soft nips to Jared’s lower lip Jensen allows Jared to ravage his willing mouth.
They’re lost in each others wine drenched kisses as Jared stretches out under Jensen’s lean body, his hips moving hastily against Jensen’s groin. Their hard cocks are rubbing through stiff denim. Jensen is panting and moaning into Jared’s mouth. “Mmm yeah,” he groans.
“Oh fuck,” Jared mutters as he tilts his head back, his body covered in a thin sheen of sweat. Jensen’s mouth is on his neck kissing at that sweet spot along his collarbone and suddenly he shutters uncontrollably as his orgasm rips through him, he lets out a loud groan and presses hard into Jensen, his hands gripping him tight, holding him as close as a second skin.
“Oh my God Jared,” Jensen gushes as he feels the wetness seep out from under the waistband of Jared’s jeans. “Holy fuck,” he mumbles as he continues to grind into the wetness beneath him, it’s only moments later and he’s sharing in the sweet release of his own orgasm.
Panting Jensen rolls off of Jared and starts to giggle slightly. “I guess I share in your passion of flowery literature too,” he turns toward Jared who is lying there slightly orgasm dazed and euphoric.
Jared looks over at Jensen and runs his hand over the wet spot on his jeans as he adjusts his crotch. “It grows on you, ya know,” Jared reaches across and touches Jensen’s cheek tenderly.
Jensen smiles and turns his head to kiss Jared’s fingers gently. This is the very second that Jared Tristan Padalecki falls madly and deeply in love with his best friend Jensen Ross Ackles. It is a memory that will forever be burned into his mind.
The next morning Jared is completely hung over, he never handles wine very well. He sees Jensen coming out of his room as he rushes past heading for class. “Hey,” he says taking a second to stop.
“Hey,” Jensen says as he locks his door. “Heading to class?” he asks cheerfully.
“Yeah, but I’m late due to my wonderful hangover,” he rubs his temples.
“Aspirin and tomato juice, always works for me,” he hoists his book bag over his shoulder as they start to walk to the stairwell.
“Yeah, well, if someone hadn’t fed me so much wine last night,” Jared nudges Jensen with his shoulder.
“Hey, you needed to forget about old what’s his name and the fact that he’s a cheating asshole,” he puts his hand on Jared’s shoulder and squeezes. “It worked didn’t it?”
Jared smiles, he thinks about what Jensen felt like on his body, how nobody ever felt like that in his arms before and he’s sure never will again. “Yeah,” he pretends to relent. “But other things helped too,” he’s being coy.
“Oh, I am sure they did,” Jensen says cockily, his eyes shifting into a territorial squint and his mouth turns up into his patented smirk.
When they reach the outside they part ways as Jared has to go to the other end of campus. Jared wants to give him a kiss good-bye but hesitates when Jensen just pats his shoulder and heads off in the other direction.
“Catch you later tonight buddy,” he says walking away from Jared.
Studying isn’t Jared’s favorite pastime so when his roommate Chad barges in with his band of waste of space friends and the bong is pulled out of Chad’s closet, it is his excuse to make a hasty exit.
He heads straight up the hall to Jensen’s room. He never knocks just lets himself in but when he opens the door he’s greeted with the sight of Jensen half naked and making out on the floor with another guy. Jared stares for a bit, watches the erotic display unnoticed before stepping back and quietly closing the door again.
He’s not surprised, Jensen is a fan favorite on campus, it’s not like he’s ever had trouble finding a one night stand. Jared’s rational mind knows this but it doesn’t stop his irrational mind from hoping that last night might have been the start of something new for them.
He wanders off to think things over and before he knows it, he ends up at his friend Genevieve’s dorm room.
She answers her door in just a skimpy tank top, boy shorts, her usual bouncy personality and huge toothy smile that usually cheer Jared right up.
“Jared,” she says surprised to see him.
“Hey, are you expecting someone else?” he leans on the door jam, his sullen expression trying to tell his emotional story.
“Oh, no, just hanging out studying is all,” she grabs the oversized shirt off of the back of the door and puts it on. “Something wrong sweetie,” she observes Jared’s body language and frowns. “Come on in baby,” she takes his arm and leads him inside.
They flop down on her bed. She sympathetically takes his hands, puts them on her lap and holds them.
“Tell Genny all about it,” her big brown eyes are sincere and sympathetic to whatever is bothering Jared.
He sighs and looks down at their clasped hands. “Where should I start?”
“Maybe starting with Professor Roche is a cheating asshole might be a good place,” she squeezes his hands ever tighter offering a comforting solidarity.
“Huh, what, wait, no,” he shakes his head in confusion. “This has nothing to do with Sebastian, its Jensen and the fact that we made out last night.”
“But, I thought you were having a secret affair with Professor Roche, not Jensen,” she is very confused. “Or am I that out of loop these days?”
Jared laughs. “I wouldn’t call one very awkward kiss in his office a secret affair. Besides there was never anything else, he’s a douche, I don’t do douche bags, you know that. When are you ever going to start listening to me when I call you with my personal gossip?”
“Oh, well then, what’s the dish on Jensen?” she rolls her eyes.
He rubs his hand over his face in frustration and grunts. “Argh,” he stands up and walks over to the window and looks across the dark campus. “I think I love him.”
She couldn’t look more surprised if he had just dropped a bowling ball on her head. “You love Jensen “the dawg” Ackles?” She chuckles like it’s a joke.
Jared looks back at her with a scowl. “It’s not that funny.”
“Yes it is sweetie. Jensen is a playboy, he’s slept with almost every guy on campus that fancies dick and you think he’s going to what, give it all up for you because you made out?” She puts her hand on his shoulder as she looks up into his watery hazel eyes.
“He could,” he blinks twice as he thinks about what she just said.
“But will he,” she makes her eyes wide and gives him her best, mother knows best expression.
Jared’s eyes fall towards the floor as he relents to her question. “He didn’t,” his shoulders drop as he exhales softly and puts an arm around her shoulder to pull her in tight for a hug.
“Didn’t, as in you saw him with another guy today?”
“He doesn’t know I saw him but yes, he was making out with him on his dorm room floor. I went up to see him after Chad and his wasteoid friends got out the mega bong,” he rolls his eyes.
“Oh, the mega bong,” she smiles dreamily before clearing her throat. “So what, his door was open?”
“No, I always just let myself in and when I opened the door there he was, shirt off and writhing on another guy, right where we got off last night,” he flops down on the bed stretching out with his arm over his face.
“No doubt his favorite sex spot,” she says sarcastically as she lays down next to him and puts her head on his chest.
Jared groans again. “I don’t want to think about being one of his boy toys.”
“Look, you two are friends and whatever happened shouldn’t get between you, just consider it friends with benefits and go with it.”
Jared thinks about it for a second. “Yeah, friends with benefits, you think Jensen would think of it that way too?”
“Probably, he doesn’t usually seem to get too attached to his boys but you were friends first, so it’s a definite benefit to him.”
“I doubt if many of his guys have the same connection we do, I think I’d like being his friend with lots of benefits,” he smiles and pulls Genevieve closer. “Thanks Gen, you’re so wise about these things,” he kisses her forehead and squeezes her tight.
She smiles and snuggles in tighter. “Always glad to help. Now spill on the details of your make out session,” she giggles.
“How dare you, I never kiss and tell,” he mocks shock.
“Oh pooh, you know I live vicariously through your gay sex.” They both laugh.
It’s Saturday morning, Jared is heading to the shower room when he sees Jensen making his way down the hall. He’s disheveled and sleepy looking.
“Hard night,” Jared asks in passing.
“You could say that,” Jensen’s words are a bit slurred. “Hey haven’t seen you since Thursday, what’s up,” he leans on the wall, his sleepy eyes are heavy as his head slumps off to the side, held up only by the wall.
“Ah, had things to do,” he’s trying to sound nonchalant but he’s been kind of avoiding Jensen, seeing if he’ll come looking for him.
“Noticed you weren’t in your room last night, Chad said you went out. Couldn’t blame you the room smelt like pot and ass,” Jensen chuckles.
“Yeah Chad had his buddies over Thursday night, I crashed at Gen’s since I only had one class yesterday and then we went to a movie last night.”
“Cool. I wanted to hang out but since you were MIA went out with the boys, you can see how that turned out,” he smirks with that devious smile.
“Glad you had a good time,” he has to admit he’s a little bit jealous but the fact that Jensen said he wanted to hang out but only chose to go out with the boys as his second choice kind of makes him feel special.
“Would have been better with you,” Jensen winks a half hearted flirtatious wink, his exhausted expression hindering any sexy undertones.
“I think you better go get some sleep.”
Jensen yawns as he slumps heavier into the wall. “Yeah, I guess so.”
“Come on sleepyhead,” Jared hoists him up and helps him to his room. He helps him to undress and when he gets his jeans off, Jensen is commando. “Do you always go commando?” he asks embarrassedly yet he can’t help but check out the goods.
“Those damned bastards,” his words are slurred.
“What?” Jared’s helping him into bed.
“They kept my underwear. They just better wait, I’ll get my revenge,” he says pulling the covers to his neck and snuggling into his pillow.
“How did they get your underwear?” he asks with curiosity even though he has some ideas shooting through his brain.
Jensen just mumbles something before letting out a half snort half snore sound. Jared just tucks him in and is kissing his salty flavored sweaty forehead when Jensen stirs. “Make sure you lock the door,” he mutters. “See you tonight,” he finishes with the sleepiest voice Jared’s ever heard. He puts a bottle of aspirin and a glass of water on his beside table before leaving.
It’s three days until Jared sees Jensen again. Finals have him a wreck and he has three papers due by the end of the week. He’s furiously typing away on his laptop when it suddenly goes blue screen and stops. Instant panic freezes his brain, when he gains control of his senses again he freaks out. “Stupid fucking piece of crap,” he pulls the flash drive from the USB port before unsuccessfully trying to restart the computer. “Damn fucking piece of shit,” he yells again as he tries with great frustration to reset and restart yet again but all he gets is a systems error message. Exasperated and panicked he throws it on the bed and rushes up the hall to Jensen’s room.
He bursts through the door without thinking; he’s sweating and breathing hard. “Jen, are you busy?” he yells with panic in his voice.
Jensen looks up from his laptop with a confused and annoyed look, “Umm, trying to finish my thesis so I can hand it in tomorrow or I don’t graduate.”
Gaining some control of his panic Jared does a quick assessment of the situation noticing that Jensen is busily working on something on his computer, he has a pencil tucked behind his ear and a notebook beside him on the floor. “Oh, I’m sorry, didn’t mean to interrupt you,” he starts to leave again.
“Wait, what do you need Jared?” Jensen asks with curiosity.
“My piece of crap laptop crashed again just as I was finishing my term paper and I thought if you weren’t using yours but you are and yours is so much more important than mine so I’ll just maybe head over and see if I can get a computer at the lab.”
Jensen looks at the black words on the white screen and up at Jared’s bewildered face then back down at the backlit screen again. He bites the inside of his mouth as he wrestles with his need to finish his paper or helping Jared out with his bind. “I’ll tell you what Jay, let me take a look at your laptop and if I can’t get it restarted for you we’ll take a walk over to the lab to see if they have a computer you can use and if not, we’ll see what we can work out.”
Jared flashes a wide smile. “Alright,” he runs down to his room and returns within seconds with his laptop in hand.
Jensen plugs it in to the wall in case the battery went dead like last time. “It’s not the battery Jen, I got a systems error message, I charged it all night so the battery is 100%.”
“Better safe than sorry Jay, now just let me do my thing,” he gives Jared a quick stern glance. “You do want me to get it working again right?”
“Yes,” he sits down on the floor next to Jensen.
Jensen gets it to boot up, he runs a virus scan and it finds a lot of viruses. “Here’s your problem, you are loaded with viruses,” he scans the history. “Holy Shit Jay,” he starts to laugh.
“What,” Jared leans over Jensen’s shoulder to see what he’s looking at.
“You need to find safer porn sites, all of your viruses are linked to Hotguyscum.com free porn site,” he starts to laugh.
Jared instantly blushes. “Damned Chad,” he mumbles trying to look innocent.
“I’ll clean this up for you but this isn’t the best site for you to be looking at,” he’s smirking.
“It wasn’t me, honest,” he’s lying because he doesn’t want Jensen to know he is a borderline porn addict.
“It’s okay, I’ll just send you some links I have to sites that are safe and you can drool over the same hot guys as I do,” he’s still smirking as he finishing removing the viruses and links from Jared’s computer.
“But..” he starts to continue the lie and then decides if Jensen looks at porn with all of the sex he gets, then he can’t be doing anything wrong. “Yeah, well it was the only site with mini movie clips of the cum scenes,” he’s still blushing because actually it was the only one with a porn star that looked a lot like Jensen but he’ll never admit that out loud.
“Yeah well I have some sites with entire movies on them for free and they’re pretty smoking hot, lots of cum shots,” he finishes and resets everything. “There you go, all clean now and I’ll send you an email list of the safe porn links. You are back in business,” Jensen hands it back to Jared.
“Thanks, you are a godsend,” he gives Jensen a big hug and kisses him on the cheek.
“Oh Gorsh, t’aint nuttin,” he pretends he’s being shy but he can’t fake the slight blush that rises in his cheeks from Jared’s lips on his skin.
“Well, better get cracking on this paper, it’s due tomorrow,” he stops at the door and turns around with a super wide grin. “I owe you big time,” he gives Jensen a wink before he walks out the door.
“Don’t think I won’t collect,” Jensen whispers under his breath as he watches Jared walk away.
Jensen hasn’t finished all of his classes yet but it’s just a few weeks until he officially graduates so Jared and a few friends decide to throw him a graduation party.
Jared assembles everyone on the rooftop of the dorm; they set up the beach umbrella’s and bamboo mats, lounge chairs, tables with chips and finger foods, the keg and put bottles of tequila and grapefruit juice in huge plastic tubs full of chipped ice.
They’ve strung a canopy of Christmas lights crisscross over the rooftop for after dark. Jared plugs them in to the emergency outlet in the stairwell, the multicolored lights flicker to life and Jared smiles. He knows that this is the only thing Jensen has admitted to finding romantic in what he calls a chick flick movie; while they were watching She’s All That on TNT one Saturday afternoon.
Jensen’s friend Steve has offered to be the DJ and since he plays a decent guitar he even offered to do a little live musical performance for the shindig. Jared accepts his offer since he’s already spent far too much on everything.
He’s pretty sure his credit card is close to being maxed out and he is going to have a lot of explaining to do to his father on summer break while working extra hours at the family business to pay it off.
Rushing quietly to his dorm room Jared quickly throws a can of hot Rotel tomatoes in a bowl with a block of Velveeta cheese and sets the microwave to 5min. He looks out into the hall to make sure Jensen isn’t investigating the sound of his microwave; he knows Jensen loves to mooch his free food and the microwave is his dinner bell. When the timer goes off there is no sign of Jensen so Jared quickly absconds with the bowl of hot cheese dip and rushes to the rooftop with it.
Everything is ready; the only thing missing is the man of the hour Mr. Jensen Ackles.
Standing in Jensen’s doorway Jared clears his throat. “Ahem,” he’s staring intently at Jensen who is concentrating on something on his laptop.
He removes the pen tucked between his lips and looks up at Jared with wide eyes. “Something you want Jay?” he smirks.
“Just a little of your time and company,” Jared steps into the room farther and stands beside Jensen and looks at the laptop screen.
“My company huh,” Jensen closes the computer and stands up. He runs his hand over the thin shoulder seam of Jared’s t-shirt, his thumb making purposeful brushes against Jared’s neck. “And what might you want to do with my,” he clears his throat, “company?”
Jared’s cheeks are flushed, his heart is racing and he wants nothing more than to shut the door and let Jensen ravish him but then his rational brain kicks in and he remembers the party on the roof. “Come with me up to the rooftop,” he says playfully as he takes Jensen’s hand and leads him out of the room.
“Jared I have too much to get done,” Jensen protests. “I thought you wanted a quickie and then I could get back to work,” he tugs Jared back inside his room. “Let’s just have a quickie,” he smiles broad and toothy, there is a mischievous twinkle in his green eyes. “You know you want to,” he coaxes.
There is nothing he would like better than to just let himself give in to Jensen, but he can’t, not this time anyway. “Come up to the roof with me, I have beer on ice and lawn chairs with umbrellas ready for us. You need a break,” he looks hopeful, his lower lip caught between his teeth as he gives Jensen puppy dog eyes.
“Oh shit, I can’t resist those puppy dog eyes or a cold beer, lead the way.”
Jared smiles from ear to ear. “You are not going to regret this,” he’s excited to see Jensen’s face when they finally get to the roof top.
“If there is beer involved, I am sure I won’t,” he chuckles as he follows Jared up the stairwell.
Opening the door the sunlight blinds them for a few seconds and then Jensen’s eyes adjust to the brightness and he sees multicolored umbrellas, lawn chairs and bamboo mats, tray tables and a long table with food and drinks on it. He also sees lots of people standing around smiling at him before he hears the loud booming cheer. “SURPRISE!!”
He looks around very surprised and bewildered. “Jared what’s going on?” he’s stunned and then he feels a hand on his arm.
“Come on Jen, join the party. It’s your graduation party,” Jared says leading him through the people shaking his hand and fawning over him, to one of the brightly colored tubs filled with ice and alcoholic drinks.
“So this is what you had planned and I thought you wanted sex,” he’s getting used to the people milling around him. “Looks like you invited the entire floor up.”
“No, just a few friends but then they invited people and it sort of turned into this whole thing you see here,” he fans his arms out and looks around. “I wanted intimate, just you me and about six friends but they had other ideas.”
“Its’ cool Jay, the more the merrier,” he says popping the cap off of a beer and taking a long swallow. “Now what kind of food do we have, I’m starving.”
The day seemed to pass them all by and as the sun set Jared slipped inside and plugged in the canopy of lights they’d strung up. The bright multicolored lights twinkle in the fading sunlight and glow bright and beautiful like the afterglow of dusk.
Jensen walks over and puts his arm around Jared’s waist. “So, are the lights your idea?” he asks quietly.
“Maybe,” he smiles timidly and bites the inside of his cheek.
“I never should have told you about She’s All That,” Jensen says as he smacks Jared’s ass before walking away. Jared smiles bright, a gleam in his eye and he’s totally glad that he took the time to hang the lights.
Everyone’s pretty drunk, the tequila is making its way into navels for body shots and Jared has to reel in one freshman who decides streaking is the answer to a good party. Steve’s band is sounding tight tonight and bodies are moving and grinding to the funky beats. Jared looks over and sees Jensen grinding on one of Jared’s friends and he feels the green eyed monster of jealousy creeping up but he reigns in the control and takes a deep breath. We’re just friends with benefits and that’s all he tells himself before impetuously grabbing the closest hot guy to dance with and throwing his chaperoning duties to the wind.
Its almost midnight and thankfully the police have not been called for a disturbance of the peace but Jared’s been keeping the music at a normal level and he’s not letting things get too far out of control, besides all of the guests are basically in the same building so it’s not like the entire campus is running around drunk. People are leaving and the last few guests are mingling and lounging. Steve’s band is packing things up to leave too so the only music is what is being played on an old stereo that someone brought up about an hour ago.
Jensen sits next to Jared on a folding chair and nurses a beer. He’s pretty drunk but still coherent enough to hold a decent conversation. “Need any help cleaning this mess up?” he asks.
“I’m good, Gen is going to stay and help, she actually just took a bag of trash down to the garbage shoot. I swear she’s the only sober person here,” he laughs.
“Oh I saw her tying one on with some hot blonde dude. They were sharing the Vodka bottle like it was soda and swapping spit on a bamboo mat. I’m pretty sure we are going to want to burn that one over there,” Jensen points to the specific mat.
“Thanks for the mental hetero image there Jen,” he winces. “Well better get my ass moving,” he stands up and stretches. “This place isn’t going to clean itself up.
“Let me help,” Jensen says standing up.
“Sit back down, you’re the party boy, they never help do the clean up,” he pushes Jensen back into his seat.
“Yes sir, whatever you say.”
Everyone is gone and Jared is giving Gen a big hug good-bye. “Thanks for helping hon,” he kisses her forehead.
“Get some sleep Jay,” she says before disappearing into the stairwell.
Jared takes a deep breath as he walks over to wake Jensen up. “Hey, time to get up sleepyhead,” he laughs.
Jensen looks up sleepily and smiles. “Sit down, join me,” he points to the chair next to his.
“We should go down, it’s 4am,” Jared says plopping down exhaustedly.
“We’ll watch the sun come up,” he points over the roof tops of the college buildings.
“Jensen, that’s west, the sun rises in the east,” he chuckles as he points in the other direction. “We’ll have to turn our chairs around.”
“Too tired, let’s just enjoy the fact that we know it’s going to come up at some point.”
Jared reaches into a cold water filled tub and retrieves the last beer. He opens it up and takes a swig, he sways a little. “I think I’m a just a little drunk,” his words are a little slurred but not too much. “I don’t think those tequila body shots were a good idea,” he says feeling the roof top start to spin.
“But sucking shots of Tequila out of tight freshman abs is what all gay seniors live for at their graduation parties,” Jensen reaches over and takes the beer from Jared and drinks from it.
“Hey,” he says in protest and then gives up. “You know I think I am the only freshman that you didn’t suck a shot of alcohol out of,” he frowns.
“Well we can fix that,” Jensen stands up and gets on his knees in front of Jared who looks down at him. He pushes Jared’s shirt up and rucks it under his arm pits before making a tight seal with his lips over his navel and blows really hard causing his lips to flap on Jared’s flesh.
Jared bucks up with the tickling sensation; he pulls his knees up and starts to giggle. “Stop! Stop! Please, I surrender,” he cries.
Jensen leans back on his heels and starts to laugh uncontrollably. “Is your navel over being jealous of the other navels?”
Trying to catch his breath Jared relaxes and sighs hard. “Yes, yes it is.”
“Good,” Jensen stands up, he’s looking down at Jared’s flushed red cheeks and half lidded eyes and he’s never looked more beautiful as the pink sky starts to light up behind them. “You know, my brother Josh is getting married next weekend,” he takes a more serous tone. “Would you like to be my date?”
Jared sits straight up; his jaw hits the floor with surprise. “I..” he finds it hard to finish his sentence.
“Never mind, I’m sorry,” he starts to walk away. “It’s okay Jared, I get it.”
Jared grabs his wrist and stands up, Jensen turns back to face him. “I’d love to be your date,” he’s looking directly into Jensen eyes with utter sincerity.
Jensen smiles with the relief. “I thought you were going to turn me down.”
“What, and miss the opportunity to see you in a tux. You would have to drag me away with wild horses,” he laughs. “Besides, a free bar and the chance to do silly wedding dances with you, I’m all in for that.”
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part2
Author: Dolavine
Rating: NC-17 for sex and graphic images.
Word Count: 40,220
Pairings: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki, brief mentions of Jensen/Matt Cohen
Warnings: Hurt!Jared, Cheating!Jensen Top!Jensen, Bottom!Jared
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys. This is just a work of fiction to appease my own inner voices.
Summary: Jared has almost everything he could ever hope for, a job he loves, great friends and family, and a marriage to his best friend since he was a freshman in college. The only thing lacking in his life is to be the only man his husband desires. But due to a pact made almost ten years earlier it’s the only thing he feels he has no right to want.
Art Prompt: Imogen_lily's art
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A/N: Thank you to all of the mods at spn_illuminated for another great round and the opportunity to climb out of my box and write a fic of such magnitude. To imogen_lily for the amazing art prompt and numerous ideas that had me writing something longer than I ever thought I could. To my betas memoonster and deansgirl369. Thank you both so much for taking the time to make this fic readable.
Jared is balancing a notebook on his knees as he sits cross-legged on Jensen’s dorm room floor. “Are you sure you want me to read this to you out loud?” he asks Jensen before starting.
“Absolutely, just let me pour another bottle of wine so I am sufficiently drunk enough to undergo the hour long reading while you wax poetic about your literature class in essay form,” he takes a long swallow of wine from the bottle before refilling Jared’s glass too.
“Seriously Ackles, I do not wax poetic, I simply enjoy the finer parts of the more flowery literary works,” he takes a drink of his wine before clearing his throat and trying to focus his blurry vision on the scribbled words. “Some bonds are forged for life and some are but a fleeting moment in time.”
“Wait a minute there Padalecki,” Jensen puts his hand on the page to cover the words. “You’re starting this thing off with a line like that?”
Jared sways a little, he’s feeling the wine’s effects, and cocks his head to the side. “Most certainly, it is about the passion of the written word,” he moves Jensen’s hand from the page but doesn’t let it go.
“Whoa, are you sure you weren’t eating those mushrooms that your roommate Chad has stored under his mattress when you wrote that line?” he squeezes Jared’s fingers and lets his gaze linger a little longer as the corners of his lips turn up in a mischievous grin.
Jared lets out a long loose lipped exhale with a tiny chuckle at the end. “Mushrooms, that boy doesn’t share his shrooms with anyone and I resent the fact that you would accuse me of such a thing,” he finishes off his glass of wine. “You know I totally loved Jane Eyre and read Elizabeth Barrett Browning poetry, they are my passionate inspiration.”
“Case in point,” Jensen laughs as he takes another long swig from the almost completely empty wine bottle.
Losing his balance Jared falls backwards onto the floor laughing, he pulls Jensen on top of himself in the process, and they meet eye to eye, an awkward feeling floods Jared’s belly. “I’m not sure if it’s the wine or not but I have the most uncontrollable urge to kiss you right now,” he blurts out.
“Uncontrollable urges should never be announced,” Jensen replies as he leans in expectantly for the kiss.
He thinks about it for an instant and with breathless words he tries to rationalize why they shouldn’t. “But…” he tilts his head upward. “Maybe…” his lips brush Jensen’s. “Oh hell,” he crashes into Jensen’s waiting mouth with the full intensity of a passionate kiss.
Returning every sloppy wet tongue swipe, every breath stealing dip of Jared’s tongue, and adding a few soft nips to Jared’s lower lip Jensen allows Jared to ravage his willing mouth.
They’re lost in each others wine drenched kisses as Jared stretches out under Jensen’s lean body, his hips moving hastily against Jensen’s groin. Their hard cocks are rubbing through stiff denim. Jensen is panting and moaning into Jared’s mouth. “Mmm yeah,” he groans.
“Oh fuck,” Jared mutters as he tilts his head back, his body covered in a thin sheen of sweat. Jensen’s mouth is on his neck kissing at that sweet spot along his collarbone and suddenly he shutters uncontrollably as his orgasm rips through him, he lets out a loud groan and presses hard into Jensen, his hands gripping him tight, holding him as close as a second skin.
“Oh my God Jared,” Jensen gushes as he feels the wetness seep out from under the waistband of Jared’s jeans. “Holy fuck,” he mumbles as he continues to grind into the wetness beneath him, it’s only moments later and he’s sharing in the sweet release of his own orgasm.
Panting Jensen rolls off of Jared and starts to giggle slightly. “I guess I share in your passion of flowery literature too,” he turns toward Jared who is lying there slightly orgasm dazed and euphoric.
Jared looks over at Jensen and runs his hand over the wet spot on his jeans as he adjusts his crotch. “It grows on you, ya know,” Jared reaches across and touches Jensen’s cheek tenderly.
Jensen smiles and turns his head to kiss Jared’s fingers gently. This is the very second that Jared Tristan Padalecki falls madly and deeply in love with his best friend Jensen Ross Ackles. It is a memory that will forever be burned into his mind.
The next morning Jared is completely hung over, he never handles wine very well. He sees Jensen coming out of his room as he rushes past heading for class. “Hey,” he says taking a second to stop.
“Hey,” Jensen says as he locks his door. “Heading to class?” he asks cheerfully.
“Yeah, but I’m late due to my wonderful hangover,” he rubs his temples.
“Aspirin and tomato juice, always works for me,” he hoists his book bag over his shoulder as they start to walk to the stairwell.
“Yeah, well, if someone hadn’t fed me so much wine last night,” Jared nudges Jensen with his shoulder.
“Hey, you needed to forget about old what’s his name and the fact that he’s a cheating asshole,” he puts his hand on Jared’s shoulder and squeezes. “It worked didn’t it?”
Jared smiles, he thinks about what Jensen felt like on his body, how nobody ever felt like that in his arms before and he’s sure never will again. “Yeah,” he pretends to relent. “But other things helped too,” he’s being coy.
“Oh, I am sure they did,” Jensen says cockily, his eyes shifting into a territorial squint and his mouth turns up into his patented smirk.
When they reach the outside they part ways as Jared has to go to the other end of campus. Jared wants to give him a kiss good-bye but hesitates when Jensen just pats his shoulder and heads off in the other direction.
“Catch you later tonight buddy,” he says walking away from Jared.
Studying isn’t Jared’s favorite pastime so when his roommate Chad barges in with his band of waste of space friends and the bong is pulled out of Chad’s closet, it is his excuse to make a hasty exit.
He heads straight up the hall to Jensen’s room. He never knocks just lets himself in but when he opens the door he’s greeted with the sight of Jensen half naked and making out on the floor with another guy. Jared stares for a bit, watches the erotic display unnoticed before stepping back and quietly closing the door again.
He’s not surprised, Jensen is a fan favorite on campus, it’s not like he’s ever had trouble finding a one night stand. Jared’s rational mind knows this but it doesn’t stop his irrational mind from hoping that last night might have been the start of something new for them.
He wanders off to think things over and before he knows it, he ends up at his friend Genevieve’s dorm room.
She answers her door in just a skimpy tank top, boy shorts, her usual bouncy personality and huge toothy smile that usually cheer Jared right up.
“Jared,” she says surprised to see him.
“Hey, are you expecting someone else?” he leans on the door jam, his sullen expression trying to tell his emotional story.
“Oh, no, just hanging out studying is all,” she grabs the oversized shirt off of the back of the door and puts it on. “Something wrong sweetie,” she observes Jared’s body language and frowns. “Come on in baby,” she takes his arm and leads him inside.
They flop down on her bed. She sympathetically takes his hands, puts them on her lap and holds them.
“Tell Genny all about it,” her big brown eyes are sincere and sympathetic to whatever is bothering Jared.
He sighs and looks down at their clasped hands. “Where should I start?”
“Maybe starting with Professor Roche is a cheating asshole might be a good place,” she squeezes his hands ever tighter offering a comforting solidarity.
“Huh, what, wait, no,” he shakes his head in confusion. “This has nothing to do with Sebastian, its Jensen and the fact that we made out last night.”
“But, I thought you were having a secret affair with Professor Roche, not Jensen,” she is very confused. “Or am I that out of loop these days?”
Jared laughs. “I wouldn’t call one very awkward kiss in his office a secret affair. Besides there was never anything else, he’s a douche, I don’t do douche bags, you know that. When are you ever going to start listening to me when I call you with my personal gossip?”
“Oh, well then, what’s the dish on Jensen?” she rolls her eyes.
He rubs his hand over his face in frustration and grunts. “Argh,” he stands up and walks over to the window and looks across the dark campus. “I think I love him.”
She couldn’t look more surprised if he had just dropped a bowling ball on her head. “You love Jensen “the dawg” Ackles?” She chuckles like it’s a joke.
Jared looks back at her with a scowl. “It’s not that funny.”
“Yes it is sweetie. Jensen is a playboy, he’s slept with almost every guy on campus that fancies dick and you think he’s going to what, give it all up for you because you made out?” She puts her hand on his shoulder as she looks up into his watery hazel eyes.
“He could,” he blinks twice as he thinks about what she just said.
“But will he,” she makes her eyes wide and gives him her best, mother knows best expression.
Jared’s eyes fall towards the floor as he relents to her question. “He didn’t,” his shoulders drop as he exhales softly and puts an arm around her shoulder to pull her in tight for a hug.
“Didn’t, as in you saw him with another guy today?”
“He doesn’t know I saw him but yes, he was making out with him on his dorm room floor. I went up to see him after Chad and his wasteoid friends got out the mega bong,” he rolls his eyes.
“Oh, the mega bong,” she smiles dreamily before clearing her throat. “So what, his door was open?”
“No, I always just let myself in and when I opened the door there he was, shirt off and writhing on another guy, right where we got off last night,” he flops down on the bed stretching out with his arm over his face.
“No doubt his favorite sex spot,” she says sarcastically as she lays down next to him and puts her head on his chest.
Jared groans again. “I don’t want to think about being one of his boy toys.”
“Look, you two are friends and whatever happened shouldn’t get between you, just consider it friends with benefits and go with it.”
Jared thinks about it for a second. “Yeah, friends with benefits, you think Jensen would think of it that way too?”
“Probably, he doesn’t usually seem to get too attached to his boys but you were friends first, so it’s a definite benefit to him.”
“I doubt if many of his guys have the same connection we do, I think I’d like being his friend with lots of benefits,” he smiles and pulls Genevieve closer. “Thanks Gen, you’re so wise about these things,” he kisses her forehead and squeezes her tight.
She smiles and snuggles in tighter. “Always glad to help. Now spill on the details of your make out session,” she giggles.
“How dare you, I never kiss and tell,” he mocks shock.
“Oh pooh, you know I live vicariously through your gay sex.” They both laugh.
It’s Saturday morning, Jared is heading to the shower room when he sees Jensen making his way down the hall. He’s disheveled and sleepy looking.
“Hard night,” Jared asks in passing.
“You could say that,” Jensen’s words are a bit slurred. “Hey haven’t seen you since Thursday, what’s up,” he leans on the wall, his sleepy eyes are heavy as his head slumps off to the side, held up only by the wall.
“Ah, had things to do,” he’s trying to sound nonchalant but he’s been kind of avoiding Jensen, seeing if he’ll come looking for him.
“Noticed you weren’t in your room last night, Chad said you went out. Couldn’t blame you the room smelt like pot and ass,” Jensen chuckles.
“Yeah Chad had his buddies over Thursday night, I crashed at Gen’s since I only had one class yesterday and then we went to a movie last night.”
“Cool. I wanted to hang out but since you were MIA went out with the boys, you can see how that turned out,” he smirks with that devious smile.
“Glad you had a good time,” he has to admit he’s a little bit jealous but the fact that Jensen said he wanted to hang out but only chose to go out with the boys as his second choice kind of makes him feel special.
“Would have been better with you,” Jensen winks a half hearted flirtatious wink, his exhausted expression hindering any sexy undertones.
“I think you better go get some sleep.”
Jensen yawns as he slumps heavier into the wall. “Yeah, I guess so.”
“Come on sleepyhead,” Jared hoists him up and helps him to his room. He helps him to undress and when he gets his jeans off, Jensen is commando. “Do you always go commando?” he asks embarrassedly yet he can’t help but check out the goods.
“Those damned bastards,” his words are slurred.
“What?” Jared’s helping him into bed.
“They kept my underwear. They just better wait, I’ll get my revenge,” he says pulling the covers to his neck and snuggling into his pillow.
“How did they get your underwear?” he asks with curiosity even though he has some ideas shooting through his brain.
Jensen just mumbles something before letting out a half snort half snore sound. Jared just tucks him in and is kissing his salty flavored sweaty forehead when Jensen stirs. “Make sure you lock the door,” he mutters. “See you tonight,” he finishes with the sleepiest voice Jared’s ever heard. He puts a bottle of aspirin and a glass of water on his beside table before leaving.
It’s three days until Jared sees Jensen again. Finals have him a wreck and he has three papers due by the end of the week. He’s furiously typing away on his laptop when it suddenly goes blue screen and stops. Instant panic freezes his brain, when he gains control of his senses again he freaks out. “Stupid fucking piece of crap,” he pulls the flash drive from the USB port before unsuccessfully trying to restart the computer. “Damn fucking piece of shit,” he yells again as he tries with great frustration to reset and restart yet again but all he gets is a systems error message. Exasperated and panicked he throws it on the bed and rushes up the hall to Jensen’s room.
He bursts through the door without thinking; he’s sweating and breathing hard. “Jen, are you busy?” he yells with panic in his voice.
Jensen looks up from his laptop with a confused and annoyed look, “Umm, trying to finish my thesis so I can hand it in tomorrow or I don’t graduate.”
Gaining some control of his panic Jared does a quick assessment of the situation noticing that Jensen is busily working on something on his computer, he has a pencil tucked behind his ear and a notebook beside him on the floor. “Oh, I’m sorry, didn’t mean to interrupt you,” he starts to leave again.
“Wait, what do you need Jared?” Jensen asks with curiosity.
“My piece of crap laptop crashed again just as I was finishing my term paper and I thought if you weren’t using yours but you are and yours is so much more important than mine so I’ll just maybe head over and see if I can get a computer at the lab.”
Jensen looks at the black words on the white screen and up at Jared’s bewildered face then back down at the backlit screen again. He bites the inside of his mouth as he wrestles with his need to finish his paper or helping Jared out with his bind. “I’ll tell you what Jay, let me take a look at your laptop and if I can’t get it restarted for you we’ll take a walk over to the lab to see if they have a computer you can use and if not, we’ll see what we can work out.”
Jared flashes a wide smile. “Alright,” he runs down to his room and returns within seconds with his laptop in hand.
Jensen plugs it in to the wall in case the battery went dead like last time. “It’s not the battery Jen, I got a systems error message, I charged it all night so the battery is 100%.”
“Better safe than sorry Jay, now just let me do my thing,” he gives Jared a quick stern glance. “You do want me to get it working again right?”
“Yes,” he sits down on the floor next to Jensen.
Jensen gets it to boot up, he runs a virus scan and it finds a lot of viruses. “Here’s your problem, you are loaded with viruses,” he scans the history. “Holy Shit Jay,” he starts to laugh.
“What,” Jared leans over Jensen’s shoulder to see what he’s looking at.
“You need to find safer porn sites, all of your viruses are linked to Hotguyscum.com free porn site,” he starts to laugh.
Jared instantly blushes. “Damned Chad,” he mumbles trying to look innocent.
“I’ll clean this up for you but this isn’t the best site for you to be looking at,” he’s smirking.
“It wasn’t me, honest,” he’s lying because he doesn’t want Jensen to know he is a borderline porn addict.
“It’s okay, I’ll just send you some links I have to sites that are safe and you can drool over the same hot guys as I do,” he’s still smirking as he finishing removing the viruses and links from Jared’s computer.
“But..” he starts to continue the lie and then decides if Jensen looks at porn with all of the sex he gets, then he can’t be doing anything wrong. “Yeah, well it was the only site with mini movie clips of the cum scenes,” he’s still blushing because actually it was the only one with a porn star that looked a lot like Jensen but he’ll never admit that out loud.
“Yeah well I have some sites with entire movies on them for free and they’re pretty smoking hot, lots of cum shots,” he finishes and resets everything. “There you go, all clean now and I’ll send you an email list of the safe porn links. You are back in business,” Jensen hands it back to Jared.
“Thanks, you are a godsend,” he gives Jensen a big hug and kisses him on the cheek.
“Oh Gorsh, t’aint nuttin,” he pretends he’s being shy but he can’t fake the slight blush that rises in his cheeks from Jared’s lips on his skin.
“Well, better get cracking on this paper, it’s due tomorrow,” he stops at the door and turns around with a super wide grin. “I owe you big time,” he gives Jensen a wink before he walks out the door.
“Don’t think I won’t collect,” Jensen whispers under his breath as he watches Jared walk away.
Jensen hasn’t finished all of his classes yet but it’s just a few weeks until he officially graduates so Jared and a few friends decide to throw him a graduation party.
Jared assembles everyone on the rooftop of the dorm; they set up the beach umbrella’s and bamboo mats, lounge chairs, tables with chips and finger foods, the keg and put bottles of tequila and grapefruit juice in huge plastic tubs full of chipped ice.
They’ve strung a canopy of Christmas lights crisscross over the rooftop for after dark. Jared plugs them in to the emergency outlet in the stairwell, the multicolored lights flicker to life and Jared smiles. He knows that this is the only thing Jensen has admitted to finding romantic in what he calls a chick flick movie; while they were watching She’s All That on TNT one Saturday afternoon.
Jensen’s friend Steve has offered to be the DJ and since he plays a decent guitar he even offered to do a little live musical performance for the shindig. Jared accepts his offer since he’s already spent far too much on everything.
He’s pretty sure his credit card is close to being maxed out and he is going to have a lot of explaining to do to his father on summer break while working extra hours at the family business to pay it off.
Rushing quietly to his dorm room Jared quickly throws a can of hot Rotel tomatoes in a bowl with a block of Velveeta cheese and sets the microwave to 5min. He looks out into the hall to make sure Jensen isn’t investigating the sound of his microwave; he knows Jensen loves to mooch his free food and the microwave is his dinner bell. When the timer goes off there is no sign of Jensen so Jared quickly absconds with the bowl of hot cheese dip and rushes to the rooftop with it.
Everything is ready; the only thing missing is the man of the hour Mr. Jensen Ackles.
Standing in Jensen’s doorway Jared clears his throat. “Ahem,” he’s staring intently at Jensen who is concentrating on something on his laptop.
He removes the pen tucked between his lips and looks up at Jared with wide eyes. “Something you want Jay?” he smirks.
“Just a little of your time and company,” Jared steps into the room farther and stands beside Jensen and looks at the laptop screen.
“My company huh,” Jensen closes the computer and stands up. He runs his hand over the thin shoulder seam of Jared’s t-shirt, his thumb making purposeful brushes against Jared’s neck. “And what might you want to do with my,” he clears his throat, “company?”
Jared’s cheeks are flushed, his heart is racing and he wants nothing more than to shut the door and let Jensen ravish him but then his rational brain kicks in and he remembers the party on the roof. “Come with me up to the rooftop,” he says playfully as he takes Jensen’s hand and leads him out of the room.
“Jared I have too much to get done,” Jensen protests. “I thought you wanted a quickie and then I could get back to work,” he tugs Jared back inside his room. “Let’s just have a quickie,” he smiles broad and toothy, there is a mischievous twinkle in his green eyes. “You know you want to,” he coaxes.
There is nothing he would like better than to just let himself give in to Jensen, but he can’t, not this time anyway. “Come up to the roof with me, I have beer on ice and lawn chairs with umbrellas ready for us. You need a break,” he looks hopeful, his lower lip caught between his teeth as he gives Jensen puppy dog eyes.
“Oh shit, I can’t resist those puppy dog eyes or a cold beer, lead the way.”
Jared smiles from ear to ear. “You are not going to regret this,” he’s excited to see Jensen’s face when they finally get to the roof top.
“If there is beer involved, I am sure I won’t,” he chuckles as he follows Jared up the stairwell.
Opening the door the sunlight blinds them for a few seconds and then Jensen’s eyes adjust to the brightness and he sees multicolored umbrellas, lawn chairs and bamboo mats, tray tables and a long table with food and drinks on it. He also sees lots of people standing around smiling at him before he hears the loud booming cheer. “SURPRISE!!”
He looks around very surprised and bewildered. “Jared what’s going on?” he’s stunned and then he feels a hand on his arm.
“Come on Jen, join the party. It’s your graduation party,” Jared says leading him through the people shaking his hand and fawning over him, to one of the brightly colored tubs filled with ice and alcoholic drinks.
“So this is what you had planned and I thought you wanted sex,” he’s getting used to the people milling around him. “Looks like you invited the entire floor up.”
“No, just a few friends but then they invited people and it sort of turned into this whole thing you see here,” he fans his arms out and looks around. “I wanted intimate, just you me and about six friends but they had other ideas.”
“Its’ cool Jay, the more the merrier,” he says popping the cap off of a beer and taking a long swallow. “Now what kind of food do we have, I’m starving.”
The day seemed to pass them all by and as the sun set Jared slipped inside and plugged in the canopy of lights they’d strung up. The bright multicolored lights twinkle in the fading sunlight and glow bright and beautiful like the afterglow of dusk.
Jensen walks over and puts his arm around Jared’s waist. “So, are the lights your idea?” he asks quietly.
“Maybe,” he smiles timidly and bites the inside of his cheek.
“I never should have told you about She’s All That,” Jensen says as he smacks Jared’s ass before walking away. Jared smiles bright, a gleam in his eye and he’s totally glad that he took the time to hang the lights.
Everyone’s pretty drunk, the tequila is making its way into navels for body shots and Jared has to reel in one freshman who decides streaking is the answer to a good party. Steve’s band is sounding tight tonight and bodies are moving and grinding to the funky beats. Jared looks over and sees Jensen grinding on one of Jared’s friends and he feels the green eyed monster of jealousy creeping up but he reigns in the control and takes a deep breath. We’re just friends with benefits and that’s all he tells himself before impetuously grabbing the closest hot guy to dance with and throwing his chaperoning duties to the wind.
Its almost midnight and thankfully the police have not been called for a disturbance of the peace but Jared’s been keeping the music at a normal level and he’s not letting things get too far out of control, besides all of the guests are basically in the same building so it’s not like the entire campus is running around drunk. People are leaving and the last few guests are mingling and lounging. Steve’s band is packing things up to leave too so the only music is what is being played on an old stereo that someone brought up about an hour ago.
Jensen sits next to Jared on a folding chair and nurses a beer. He’s pretty drunk but still coherent enough to hold a decent conversation. “Need any help cleaning this mess up?” he asks.
“I’m good, Gen is going to stay and help, she actually just took a bag of trash down to the garbage shoot. I swear she’s the only sober person here,” he laughs.
“Oh I saw her tying one on with some hot blonde dude. They were sharing the Vodka bottle like it was soda and swapping spit on a bamboo mat. I’m pretty sure we are going to want to burn that one over there,” Jensen points to the specific mat.
“Thanks for the mental hetero image there Jen,” he winces. “Well better get my ass moving,” he stands up and stretches. “This place isn’t going to clean itself up.
“Let me help,” Jensen says standing up.
“Sit back down, you’re the party boy, they never help do the clean up,” he pushes Jensen back into his seat.
“Yes sir, whatever you say.”
Everyone is gone and Jared is giving Gen a big hug good-bye. “Thanks for helping hon,” he kisses her forehead.
“Get some sleep Jay,” she says before disappearing into the stairwell.
Jared takes a deep breath as he walks over to wake Jensen up. “Hey, time to get up sleepyhead,” he laughs.
Jensen looks up sleepily and smiles. “Sit down, join me,” he points to the chair next to his.
“We should go down, it’s 4am,” Jared says plopping down exhaustedly.
“We’ll watch the sun come up,” he points over the roof tops of the college buildings.
“Jensen, that’s west, the sun rises in the east,” he chuckles as he points in the other direction. “We’ll have to turn our chairs around.”
“Too tired, let’s just enjoy the fact that we know it’s going to come up at some point.”
Jared reaches into a cold water filled tub and retrieves the last beer. He opens it up and takes a swig, he sways a little. “I think I’m a just a little drunk,” his words are a little slurred but not too much. “I don’t think those tequila body shots were a good idea,” he says feeling the roof top start to spin.
“But sucking shots of Tequila out of tight freshman abs is what all gay seniors live for at their graduation parties,” Jensen reaches over and takes the beer from Jared and drinks from it.
“Hey,” he says in protest and then gives up. “You know I think I am the only freshman that you didn’t suck a shot of alcohol out of,” he frowns.
“Well we can fix that,” Jensen stands up and gets on his knees in front of Jared who looks down at him. He pushes Jared’s shirt up and rucks it under his arm pits before making a tight seal with his lips over his navel and blows really hard causing his lips to flap on Jared’s flesh.
Jared bucks up with the tickling sensation; he pulls his knees up and starts to giggle. “Stop! Stop! Please, I surrender,” he cries.
Jensen leans back on his heels and starts to laugh uncontrollably. “Is your navel over being jealous of the other navels?”
Trying to catch his breath Jared relaxes and sighs hard. “Yes, yes it is.”
“Good,” Jensen stands up, he’s looking down at Jared’s flushed red cheeks and half lidded eyes and he’s never looked more beautiful as the pink sky starts to light up behind them. “You know, my brother Josh is getting married next weekend,” he takes a more serous tone. “Would you like to be my date?”
Jared sits straight up; his jaw hits the floor with surprise. “I..” he finds it hard to finish his sentence.
“Never mind, I’m sorry,” he starts to walk away. “It’s okay Jared, I get it.”
Jared grabs his wrist and stands up, Jensen turns back to face him. “I’d love to be your date,” he’s looking directly into Jensen eyes with utter sincerity.
Jensen smiles with the relief. “I thought you were going to turn me down.”
“What, and miss the opportunity to see you in a tux. You would have to drag me away with wild horses,” he laughs. “Besides, a free bar and the chance to do silly wedding dances with you, I’m all in for that.”
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