I apologize for the delay in answering, I was out of town. Please let Nathaniel know I am fine.
I have been trying and I can't think of any way to make things right between us. To make amends for what I did to you. I am sorry. But that is not enough. One has to repent, then make restitution, and I can't think of what that might be.
I am sorry I hurt you. I am sorry I abused your trust.
Oh, God, this--you don't think this is your fault, do you? But it isn't! It's totally mine! You didn't do anything wrong at all, Rachel, it was my fault. I shouldn't have done that, made you make it talk to me--it was selfish and my curiosity shouldn't be an excuse to make you go through all of that!
You didn't do anything wrong, Rach. I feel so AWFUL now, because really, it was all my fault! I totally think *I* abused *your* trust, see?
You didn't hurt me, either. Really. Um. I'm--look, I am sorry I made you make out with me. I feel really bad about that. God. I can't even write this, but I feel like I should tell you? I feel like I totally took advantage of you or something.
I, um. I think you should tell Dr. Essex yourself? Because if I told him you'd emailed me and hadn't talked to him it might make him mad? And, ah, I don't think I want to do that.
You can't make me do anything. How on earth could you take advantage of me? You asked to talk to the Phoenix and I said yes, which makes the responsibility mine.
I asked. It was my fault. I saw what happened with you and Dr. Essex and the Phoenix. I shouldn't have asked. Especially knowing how it was going to go. It's like walking in front of a train or something and then blaming the driver because I got hit, you know?
Not that I think I got hit by a train. It was--really amazing, actually. Scary, but amazing. But i know YOU feel bad, and I hate that.
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You didn't do anything wrong.
I apologize for the delay in answering, I was out of town. Please let Nathaniel know I am fine.
I have been trying and I can't think of any way to make things right between us. To make amends for what I did to you. I am sorry. But that is not enough. One has to repent, then make restitution, and I can't think of what that might be.
I am sorry I hurt you. I am sorry I abused your trust.
Sincerely,
Rachel
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Oh, God, this--you don't think this is your fault, do you? But it isn't! It's totally mine! You didn't do anything wrong at all, Rachel, it was my fault. I shouldn't have done that, made you make it talk to me--it was selfish and my curiosity shouldn't be an excuse to make you go through all of that!
You didn't do anything wrong, Rach. I feel so AWFUL now, because really, it was all my fault! I totally think *I* abused *your* trust, see?
You didn't hurt me, either. Really. Um. I'm--look, I am sorry I made you make out with me. I feel really bad about that. God. I can't even write this, but I feel like I should tell you? I feel like I totally took advantage of you or something.
I, um. I think you should tell Dr. Essex yourself? Because if I told him you'd emailed me and hadn't talked to him it might make him mad? And, ah, I don't think I want to do that.
Izzy
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You can't make me do anything. How on earth could you take advantage of me? You asked to talk to the Phoenix and I said yes, which makes the responsibility mine.
R
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I asked. It was my fault. I saw what happened with you and Dr. Essex and the Phoenix. I shouldn't have asked. Especially knowing how it was going to go. It's like walking in front of a train or something and then blaming the driver because I got hit, you know?
Not that I think I got hit by a train. It was--really amazing, actually. Scary, but amazing. But i know YOU feel bad, and I hate that.
Izzy
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