This weekend I sucked up to you, I listened to you rant on and on about Matt. I did everything to make you happy just because this happens often doesn't mean I shouldn't be there for you. I am a friends right. But are you thats the question. I thought you were when you thanked me finally I thought she realizes all I've don, finally maybe I can ( Read more... )

 Shits wierd. Nikki's dead and it doesnt seem real i barely knew the girl apart from being on her bus but she was such a fun and loving girl so outgoing and ouspoken she could care less about what people thought about her and then shes gone in a flash. Me nick paul emily and steph went to her wake today it was open casket. it really drew us all ( Read more... )

 im getting so tired of my friends taking advantage and being so selfless and shallow they all only care about themselves. Im not asking for a gorgous boyfriend to sweep me off my feet and get married. although that would be nice, i just want friends who respect me. is that so much to ask for summer is so gay iv seen only like half my friends this ( Read more... )

 so i think I'm gonna do it soon. Tell my mom I would support her if she wanted to divorce my dad. I doubt I'd build the guts to tell her. been thinking about doing it since I was 11. before then i thought hate against my father was a normal thing I thought I'd just pass. but it hasnt, it's only gotten worse. He barely knows me. The man who loves ( Read more... )

 i wanna give up. im to tired to keep going on anymore. as much as i try to be happy with what i have and all cuz i have it good. but i cant theres always a feeling tht runs through my veins and grows in my gut like a cloud always over my head. i dont care anymore. whats the point im not gonna hurt myself but i hate it here. karma doesntwork ( Read more... )

i have such bad nerves right now for no reason.....i feel so unmotivated randomly. i hope writeing will make me feel better cuz i feel so trapped and alone. its so bad right now. i want to be like promised heaven cuz i keep imagine living for like the end. just black nothingness. why would i wanna live for tht. i just need to breath

 sooooooo much has happened the past like weekk so since my mom was in florida she left me with my dad long story but ill try to summerize it... just so i can get it outa my head. so last saterday (since todays technocoly sateraday although its 1 in the morning ) i was writing my report on my laptop when my dad walks in (we have a very bad ( Read more... )

 dyed my hair bright purple came out better then i thought it shines through my bangs but isnt too suddle nor tooo bright. anyways idk what to do about everyone drifting apart from me emily never is something i could count on, stepahnie is exactly the same, kristine appears nice but you can tell she doesnt like me and she only comes to me when shes ( Read more... )

 I should be sleeping now since i have to wake up earlier tmw... even though 10 is not early what so ever i slept in til 230 this morning so iv been sleeping sooo heavily not to mention having physco dreams and actually being able to remeber them in the morning. I added like 15 peol tonight haha just kept looking up"life" on this sight reading ( Read more... )

 i hate these feelings of lonlieness i get all the time. they scare me so much. i hate living day to day but thts how its gotta be i guess just telling myself to make it til whenever b.c. blah blah blah im so unmotivated and making like fake goals and motvations for myself is getting old. Anyways right now im "living for" tommorrow (technocoly ( Read more... )