Comments | iskra_revoir: Sorely depressed... and royaly pissed off

iskra_revoir

Sorely depressed... and royaly pissed off

Jun 01, 2010 11:43

I want to cry. I really, truly, madly, deeply want to cry. Even if it would achieve nothing and would only give me red puffy eyes and a headache. I wanna cry my eyes out and bawl like a baby.

Remember that my pre-internship started 1° July? That gave me 3 and a half weeks of vacation. Well, good news is, it won´t be starting until August. Bad news ( Read more... )

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amethyst_key June 1 2010, 17:08:07 UTC

Wow... this woman sounds horrible! That definitely isn't right what she's doing. *HUGS*

Also, the manip looks great! The angle looks a lot better!

iskra_revoir June 1 2010, 17:20:35 UTC

Thank you, I´m glad it worked out!
And I try really hard to not blame the coordinator... but it´s really hard not to. If they had organized themselves better, we may not be in this situation :(

laura_josephsen June 1 2010, 17:19:21 UTC

Oh, darling, I'm so very, very sorry about all the stress and everything. So to be clear, you have decided to take a break anyway and do the classes later?

Whatever the case, I know that God does not give us more than we can handle. And while we are capable of handling quite a lot, everyone needs a break to recharge and to relax, and I hope that you can have this time, because you really need it! You are amazing and you are going to do so great at this profession, but you need to be safe and healthy while you're getting there.

*HUGE HUGS* I'm sorry I haven't commented more on your posts lately! You've been a hundred times busier than I have been, but I've been terrible at trying to keep up with replies and comments. I've been reading your posts and I am praying right now that you get some rest and that you have peace.

iskra_revoir June 1 2010, 17:39:33 UTC

Thank you so much. You have reminded me of the words of Philippians 4:13, "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Right now, that´s exactly what I need.
I will not take the classes later. I feel like I´ve come too far to stop now, and I am terrible stubborn, you see? No matter what, I will do what I´ve decided to do. Today the room in the hospital where we take classes is occupated until 4:00 pm, so the teachers gave us the day, except for the first class (cardio) and the last, which is supposed to be at 5:00 pm. But since we all feeling quite crushed demoralized, they were going to ask the teacher to suspend the class. Either way, I don´t feel like going :(
I´ve missed you, but I know that being a mom is a full time job. I´m just glad that you&family are okay and that you have managed to keep up :)

lammybug June 1 2010, 17:24:12 UTC

How terrible to put that extra work on you like that! You have my sympathies. :( You're like me, sometimes I feel like bawling my eyes out but can't afford red puffy eyes and a headache afterwards.

That angle is better.

iskra_revoir June 1 2010, 17:46:30 UTC

Yep, I got terrible headaches if I cry. No point in adding to the misery.
Fiuuu, I´m glad the angle is working better. The skin colors were very difficult in this one, so I´m glad it blended alright.

windrider1 June 1 2010, 18:34:59 UTC

A break sounds like a good plan. Classes will be there when you're ready. It's screwy that they can just shuffle stuff like that on you. O.o

Also, love the manip! ♥

iskra_revoir June 1 2010, 18:43:54 UTC

Thanks, I already saw your comment on DA!
I usually don´t skip class, but I decided to take today off. I have final exams the day after tomorrow, so it´s probably best that I use the time wisely.
As for the extra classes... I can´t do my preinternship if I don´t take them, and I have come too far to let myself down. I will probably be grumpy about it, but I´m one stubborn girl. I will be just fine.

kitsune13_tam June 1 2010, 22:07:55 UTC

Taking a class off to recover sanity is a wise choice and sometimes you've got to take a little break now to put off breaking in the future. Part of being on your own is learning how to pace yourself, even if sometimes, no one else is pacing things for you. I know you already have but yes, take the day off. My advice and my full support. I used to keep track of how many days I could miss of a class without it mattering (it was three) and then intentionally store those as 'break days' for times when I just needed to escape. I send you hammie snuggles to take with you - they're soft and fuzzy and the whiskers tickle but be careful or they'll try to move into your closet and hide sunflower seeds in your shoes ( ... )

iskra_revoir June 2 2010, 03:18:43 UTC

Now I want to cry again... but this time because I´m so moved and feeling warm and fuzzy inside. I didn´t had many friends growing up and now I´ve found wonderful people both close to home and a country away. Thank you so much for your kidness, it really raises me up ( ... )