Fanfic: I Know You'll Fly High in Your Life [3/7]
- A/N: Nothing much to say to this chapter, just big thanks to those few who are reading this and supporting me <3 More drama ahead, just so you know and don't kill me for that please x"D I've never written anything angsty, so I wanted to try it trolol. Still don't like the feeling I'm broking my OTP /fail
- Title: I Know You'll Fly High in Your Life
- Fandom: SHINee
- Pairing: JongYu (Jonghyun/Onew), JongKey (Jonghyun/Key)
- Genre: drama, pre-debut, romance
- Rating: PG-13
- Words: 1,993
| Chapter 1 [Prelude] | Chapter 2 | >Chapter 3< | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 |
Before the bus stopped at its destination, Kibum shot Jonghyun a dangerously frustrated look. Noticing that, Jonghyun sighed and prepared for the nagging that was obviously to come.
„You're being way too crazed over that Junki boy.“
„It's Jinki,“ clenching his teeth Jonghyun explored the angry boy's frowned eyebrows and pouted lips. Kibum wasn't the type to forget names or anything of that matter, thus being perfectly clear that he's doing it on purpose.
„Whatever, I just don't like him.“
The bus turned around the station, stopped and opened the door. Jonghyun was the first one to get off, his hands deep in pockets he walked along the road. Kibum hesitantly followed him.
„I like the fact you're being jealous for me, but you're overdoing it a bit,“ he said into the space in front of him. The boy tailing behind hissed.
„I'm not being jealous, I'm just being careful.“
„What's the difference?“ Jonghyun stopped, glancing over the shoulder.
„C'mon, you think that someone as handsome as me should be worried about his boyfriend cheating on him? No way you'd have the guts to do that,“ Kibum reasoned, walking past Jonghyun and smirking over at him. Not admitting the gnawing jealous feeling might have been a mistake. But Kibum had his pride and be it the one he loved or not, he wouldn't let anyone ruin it.
The rest of the distance they had to walk to reach the campus was taken over by stubborn silence.
„Jonghyun-hyung! Kibum-hyung!“ It was the smiley young boy running towards them, hands stretched out as wide as his mouth. „Jinki-hyung's coming soon to show you around.“
„I'll pass. I can find my own room and that's enough for now,“ saying that, Kibum's slim figure disappeared behind the fence.
„Did something happen? Is he tired from the traveling?“
„Yeah, that's gotta be the reason.“ Jonghyun laughed shortly and rejoiced when the oldest boy showed up.
„Jin-ah, now we're finally standing on one stage.“
„Not quite yet. And I'm actually older you know,“ Jinki objected.
„Oops, my bad. You should do something with your hair, makes you look younger.“
„You don't like it?“
„You look like a teddy bear you know.“
The youngest boy giggled. „Jinki-hyung's jokes are hard to catch up to but you match with him so well.“
Their looks met and Jinki conjured up one of his charming eyesmiles. „I'll do something about it then.“
„Do me the favour, Mr. Teddy Bear.“
Suddenly being a part of such a big entertainment, even just as a trainee, was like entering a completely different world. A world where there's no parents, instead there's always this feeling that someone's watching you. And it wasn't just Kibum's piercing stares when he was talking with his hyung. But those sure were a pain in the ass. And the more he had to endure them, the worse Jonghyun's mood was. At times he'd find himself craving to start blatantly flirting with Jinki just to trigger something. The situation just seemed way too bothersome the way it was.
„Are you enjoying yourself?“ Kibum's sharp eyes were looking straight through his, making him uncomfortable and even more angry.
„Shouldn't I be? We made it this far. And I met a friend I really care about.“ When stressing out that word, Jonghyun ment it to chase away that damn suspiciousness of Kibum's. But hearing his own voice, it sounded more like teasing.
Standing up to top his height, Kibum snapped: „Well that's fine then. At least someone is being happy.“
„It's not my problem if you're being this jealous.“
„I beg your pardon, but look at yourself. You're acting all smiley and cute around him, it's making me want to puke.“ The hauntingly beautiful face got devastated by a disgusted expression.
„Yeah, that's calling friendship, you know,“ Jonghyun uttered, drawing closer to Kibum and lowering down his voice, because people started to look their way.
The younger boy on the other hand didn't bother to be quiet at all. He crossed his arms and opposed him with icy tone: „Friendship my ass. Go tell that your mom.“
„Hey what's your problem?“ Shouting out louder than he intended drew attention of the remaining trainees in the practise room. Practically everyone freezed at the spot and stared at the two of them shooting arrows at each other with their looks. Realizing that and trying to smoothen it was Jonghyun: „Look, stop being so possessive. I still spend a lot of time with you too.“
Repeating his old habit, Kibum pouted his lips and replied loud enough for everyone to hear: „Fuck you Kim Jonghyun. You don't understand me one bit.“ He slowly looked around and literally screamed at the observers: „Mind your own business!“
When he finally showed his back to Jonghyun and walked out of the room, Jinki rested his hand on the shorter boy's shoulder. Jonghyun seeked out his look and smiled faintly. He should have felt guilty, but instead the anger was still eating him alive. No matter what the reasons, Kibum was being possessive and selfish.
„Let's go for a walk. They won't scold us for that hopefully.“
Jonghyun just noded. Having walked through the room to grab his jacket, he tried not to meet with anyone's eyes. And when they both quickly rushed through the corridor, he was happy the awkward atmosphere is gone. The wind was already cold as autumn was drawing near. Hands buried deep in pockets, they walked along the paved road and off through the gate. Jinki could feel the annoyance surrounding his friend and he wished to know the way to dispel it and comfort him.
Instead it was the annoyed one to speak first. „I'm sorry you had to hear all that.“
„It's okay, it's my fault anyways.“
Jonghyun blinked and ceased walking. „How come? You haven't done anything.“
„Not yet. But who knows, maybe I'm actually an insane kid who'll murder you in your sleep. Kibum might just have some kind of sixth sense, you know.“
He laughed way too loud. It was as if the louder his voice resounds, the faster he forgets all the bad. Laugh can heal. And if not that, a few drinks definitely could. Despite not being legal yet, Jinki persuaded an older trainee to buy that miraculous medicine for them. It's not like they've never drank before either.
It was already getting dark when they sneaked back into the bulding and found their way to the top of it. The rooftop was a place of a frequent rest, where none of the trainers and managers usually came to. There was a little porch and a few forgotten benches and seats scattered underneath. The trainees called it „café“ whenever they talked about the place, both so that none of the adults know what they mean and both because it somewhat resembled one.
Jinki passed him a bottle of soju and significantly raised an eyebrow. „Just a sip. I don't want to drag you all the way to your bed.“
„Aish, I'm just one year younger, you,“ Jonghyun responded and gulped way more then a sip down his throat. „Aaah, feels good.“ Through the joists above him was a clouded starless sky looking down at him. Few more of Jonghyun's sips and it felt as if it's slowly moving towards him when he focused his vision.
„So you are actually dating Kim Kibum?“ Jinki asked in a by-the-way kind of speech and took the bottle from his mate, but his hands were trembling a bit as he raised it up to meet with his lips.
The younger one turned back to him, smirking a bit. „I know what you must be thinking. And to be honest I'm not really sure if I'm into boys or if it's just him. It's not like I'm not thinking about it often, but emotions always win in the end. You know what I mean, don't you?“
„U-hm,“ was the only valid reply Jinki could think of.
„And you? Are you dating anyone?“
„U-hm.“
„You are? Who? Do I know her?“ Jonghyun's round eyes suddenly opened up as he curiously stared at Jinki, who on the other hand gazed somewhere into the dark.
„Not really, just wish I was. You do know and... well, it's not her.“
Jonghyun's face got covered by utter surprise but soon after he laughed it off. „You're joking, right? Haha, you almost got me this time, Jin-ah.“
„Still not showing any respect for me, you ungrateful dongsaeng,“ saying that, his voice sounded a bit broken and he wondered if Jonghyun noticed that. But watching the other empty the bottle and drunkenly get up from the table made him believe he most likely didn't.
„Hyung, help me get down this moving thing. Pretty please.“
„If you're begging that nicely,“ adding a sigh, Jinki put one of the drunken boy's arms around his shoulders and guided him down the stairs. „See, I told ya you shouldn't be drinking. You can't drink at all.“
„Ya! I'm not drunk at all, I'm feeling dizzy from all the bad things that happened today. How can you say I'm drunk, you-“ Jonghyun's foot slipped and his hyung tightened the grip around the waist. „You should be comforting your friend y'know,“ Jonghyun mumbled in addition.
Half-carrying and half-pushing Jonghyun all the way down to the first floor, Jinki couldn't shake those words off his mind. Each floor they passed, he carefully looked through the door if there's no one to see them and everytime he did that, he would have to do his best to concentrate on that task. Fortunately most people used the elevator and so they managed to escape unseen.
Going through the open lot was a bigger problem. It was just the time when students and trainees were strolling through it after they finished dinner, making it impossible for the boys to pass. Jinki dragged the dizzy boy to the closest shelter which was apparently an unused closet as there were lots of spiderwebs and dust everywhere.
„We'll wait here until there's no one outside,“ he informed Jonghyun, who was still holding onto him and trying to look at the older boy's face, which was covered in dark just as the rest of the room.
Waiting there like that, their eyes slowly adjusted to the darkness. Jonghyun looked more sober then a few minutes ago, but his eyes were still closing from time to time. And Jinki's self-restraint was being tested. Finally he was driven into something his morals wouldn't normally allow him to do. He wasn't the person to take advantage of someone. He would always respect the others and play a fair game. Or so he believed. However pressing his lips against Jonghyun's slightly opened ones made him shiver down to the spine and completely forget about some morals.
„What are you doing?“ Jonghyun pulled away from him, though he still remained in the same position with his hand around the other boy's shoulders.
„Comforting you, what else?“ Without any more hesitation, Jinki shortened the distance between them again and continued to attack Jonghyun's lips.
It took him a while to realized the one he's taken advantage of is actually kissing him back. Their tongues clashed and Jonghyun's hands curled up around Jinki's neck. They divided just to catch breath and look into each other's eyes.
Moving his hand down around Jinki's waist, Jonghyun stated: „I'm doing this just because I'm too drunk to realize what's actually happening. Just so you know.“
Jinki smirked. „Of course. And I'm just comforting you, like I said.“